Yogan's Journey to Life

 someone was asking about the nuance of when you discuss something that involves other people in a public way. I would say that every word you speak is an act of creation. so you must be completely specific in everything you express and thus be taking responsibility for everything involved in that including the outflows and consequence. If you were lacking in specificity then that is your responsibility. We are all creators all the time. Whether we embrace that responsibility or not, it occurs regardless. Our very existence has an impact. And even when you die you continue to have an impact.  You can never escape the responsibility that comes with existing. You either own up to it or you don't. There is no in between. Do or do not.  You can always take a moment to reflect and choose what you will express. You look at why you are expressing something or not. Is it for yourself? Is it for others? What are you going through inside yourself. Your starting point determines wha...

 Had an inspiration, and I'm going to write about it before I forget.  What I went through during the times I voiced my love for someone and they reciprocated, and they returned my love. The young years of life, where everything felt optimistic, where all people are good and kind, and that we all want to love. How someone who loves you can, can unexpectedly turn into a monster. Things that I had to watch for then, and prepare. Someone freaking out, what you simply saying hi to them now. Now they completely ignore you, when before they supposedly love you. Well obviously that could not have been love, real love. It was instead a feeling of Euphoria. Love, real love, would exist outside the ideas of the mind, or the beliefs, or the feelings. It is something you see and understand in how the value of life of each person, of all beings, of all sized, shapes and form, equally exist in, and deserve care, recognition, respect, and attention. You see it through action, through your be...

 I remember something that someone said to me. When I spoke to them about growing up like shy and quiet, and how she responded well of course since people are fucked up in the head for the most part. And how I saw that, initially I was unsure of what she said, yet partially knew it was completely true.  When I look at the dynamic of introverts and extroverts, I see the possibility that introverts need time away from people because we are aware of how fucked up people are in their minds and we dont want to participate in the bullying of others, and making others feel inferior. Meaning that if all people everywhere were to be cool in the head, refined, aligned with life, completely healthy and sane, then there would be no such thing as introverts. That anyone you could approach would be amazing, kind, and fun and exciting to be around. Thus there would be no burden to bear with their mind. So this is a possibility I considered today. So practically for the time being, introverts...

 I had taken in 2 cats in their early stage of life, 1 year ago. During this time I was able to witness how they act during heat. In heat the act becomes possessed. In heat means their sexual programming is activated. Their personality becomes taken over. The body become possessed. They lose themselves essentially. I did have them fix shortly after, for those worried about that. Now, this behavior is the same with humans. Except we are not aware of to what extent it exists. Its easier watching others go through it, to tell that something happened.  Looking at my case, One thing specifically I went through is falling in Love. What does that mean exactly? Comparing this to a simple desire for sex, which many men and women have, where they act on it, find someone at a party, sleep with them and leave feeling fulfilled. What I am discussing is different than that. Falling in Love, is where I become mentally obsessed with someone. Thinking about them, imagining conversations with t...

In the transformation of the world, we will be taking on all points of society, and how everything functions everywhere. How animals are treated everywhere, in nature and on farms. How people are treated everywhere, in every country, in every home, at every age. The support all people will have access to at every age. Ensuring that all is cared for, all have everything they need, and all grow each day in ever expanding understanding and awareness of themselves and all that exists.  Because you can't have a sustainable society if its citizens cannot receive the support and understanding that the support from their lives comes from others giving them support. And so they themselves must continue the gift of life by giving in turn.   Today is September 25, 2022. And in Iran, about a week ago a young woman was murdered by religious zealot officers of a religious sect of government. Men who are brainwashed from birth to believe that evil resides in those who break the laws of ...

 Who am I? I am life. I am all as one and equal.  This is the truth of all of us. It is a truth you must live for yourself, just like I do. There is so much in this world that will tell you that you are not Life, that you are not equal, that you are not responsible, that you are incapable of living this way, that you don't know what you are doing, that you aren't the one.  To that, all you have to say is I am life. It is not an argument you can win, except by ending the argument by simply saying I am life. You as life will inspire those who will listen to do the same. And you will equally be the target for others to blame. That is the nature of things. You never ever really convince anyone of anything, that they weren't already ready to hear/agree with. But you can show others things that they otherwise wouldn't get the chance to see. So you are free of the burden of deciding their fate, lol, its in their hands in the degree that it is.  Living this way speaking this...

 I remember a blog i wrote like about 3 years ago. It was about how life is pain. Or how much pain there is in being alive. And its true that even moving around and in physically doing things, there is pain. And something I remember about how those who never had to suffer much in life won't be able to make it in process. Since this process of becoming life in the physical involves facing so much in the mind and in reality, well the entirety of the mind and reality. To face all of that is tough.  So what I am seeing now is that I need to embrace the darkness, the pain, the brutality of the mind. To allow myself to feel it and remain here. Because I see myself as not having that difficult or painful life. I wasn't abused. I was treated fairly kind and nice by most people. And I was sensitive to the slightest disturbance. And I can see that others had a more difficult life experience.  But just because I didn't go through that, and got tough from it, doesn't mean I cant do...

 So something that psychics can't see. Psychics gain their ability through a preprogramming. But that ability stops there. Intuition however, and being able to read into reality is an entirely different ability. Nay, its not an ability its a natural part of living, like breathing. It comes naturally to all who embark on the journey of self-awareness. Cause knowing self means knowing reality.  As you know yourself, through writing, and exploration, you see how you function. And that level of seeing develops. Its sight pierces through reality, just as clear and as easy as normally look at anything. It comes with intuition and common sense, portrayed as knowledge. Commonsense like doing what is best for all is best for all.  Psychics can walk self-awareness, its not mutually exclusive. I would assume, it would be more difficult, in various ways, but one in particular is giving up the power and the specialness, since if everyone can see into reality, and vision is available t...

 Saving a lizard is obviously a best for all thing. But the mind tries to take such a simple act as getting a glass cup, coaxing him in there, taking him out, the end, and make it into a way to divide, and assert itself.  It makes it about morality, about taking lives, killing, saving them, being a hero, what is right or wrong, suffering, mercy. Happiness, fear, suffering.  Its a yelp of a lady, a crying in sadness, complaining, despair, anger. Making into a drama, something to stir the voices, stir the fights, disturb reality, the waters of self.  When all you need is silence, and no other voice but your own. Doing, living and acting. Rationalizing things into thoughts, the mind makes its move: its because we are the same, we both suffer. Its doing what is right, the right thing. Being a hero. Feeling good about myself. Playing the devil, by making it a disappointment when he die, sad, guilty, it all my fault its dead. Finding a way to hijack the situation to sour s...

 The Destiny for every life form is to stand as all as one and as equal. We are each other. None is greater or less than any other. Consciousness is what keeps us in separation, the constant barrage of stories, memories, programming, history carried and created constantly. With consciousness being halted, its clear that all is one and equal. If you take a breath, you can choose to stop your mind for a moment, and you can see this reality, this power that you have, and therefore responsibility to act. Our expectations, our hopes, our dreams, are desires, don't belong to us, they come from somewhere else. If you can stop them in a moment, it means they aren't fixed. They aren't a holy sign that comes from some holy place inside of you representing your truest self. They are mental experiences, like a drug or movie, animated with a voice and images.  Life isn't so limited to be defined from another source other than itself. Life is here, always, able to create always, and ...

 Breaking the rules. I am not much of a rule breaker naturally. But to change one's program is to break the rule that one has followed. Without the ability to break rules, following a rule is simply being stuck. Its not a real commitment to follow that rule. Part of the rules I want to break: we need radical change in the system. Those who abuse and cause violence, those that bully, that verbally abuse and attack, those that cause a nuissance, and harrass others, should be dealt with in a manner that ends their abuse. Be it jail, or a fine, or a warning. Whatever it is, escalation of punishment is completely fine, until they get the message. I am not talking about our current broken justice system, I am saying what needs to be done and carried out by us as a collective, as our responsibility.  Justice should be about reform and correction. As well as not allowing abuse. We cannot allow abuse to occur, period. No matter what it takes to end the abuse.  Money is the greates...

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be seen as a good person. As a good person for walking process. As a good person for how I write myself and present myself As a good person for following the rules and principles As a good person for the sacrifices I make, and how I conform. Doing everything that is supposed to be done. Pushing for self change so that I can be seen as a good person by others. Feeling afraid of letting others down, or getting their anger or disappointment, for it is their eyes where I want to be seen as a good person.  Getting upset and angry when they get angry at me for being a good person. The opposite of what I wanted. Feeling tired and saying whats the point, I made these changes and now they are changing.  I give up, on trying.  A good person is the problem. I would need to be a hardass at times. To tell people off, to tell them they are wrong, they are having issues and problems, they are being abusive. And that doe...

 I fear taking responsibility. I fear writing here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking responsibility.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take responsibility by writing here. I realize how easy it is to just live in the system, make money, and forget about responsibility. My fears are not about survival. My fears are about responsibility. And I can see it everywhere. So many people just living in the system and playing the games. No one taking responsibility. Taking responsibility would be blog writing, would be committing to change publicly, through vlogs, blogs, through self-forgiveness, to participating with Desteni.  It has always been about the humans fear of taking responsibility. That is the only fear. The rest are just shadows and mirror illusions of fear obscuring this one real one.  I mean its so obvious. You have plenty of people who are living secure lives, who have access to money, and the one thin...

Bernard once asked to keep writing my blogs since they are quite effective and that he likes something to read.  I am finding that I am getting angry again. Angry in a way that I want to write, I want to make videos, I want to say what needs to be said to resonate in the world on our responsibility, what needs to be done, and what is best for all.  I looked in my last 2 posts into Love, and how it was said that Love was used to pacify or cancel out the thoughts of revolution in USA. And inside my body it feels that way. Where I can feel pacified and not wanting to do anything once love gets in me. Which is a strong contrast to this anger.  I would call this anger passion. And I would be worried about whether it was real or not. And that is what I told Bernard, and he said to keep writing, and that I would get it in years time. I am not sure yet. But I am sure that being pacified, being content and relax and not doing anything will only lead to things getting worse, never ...

 I had the expectation from Life, from just existence itself, that I would get in the future, my partner. And I expected this because I desired love. And like a child throwing a tantrum, I withdrew from life when I didn't get the love I desired. Where my motivation for a career as a statistician was the money that I believed I needed to attain love. Because I saw myself having my career and money, and thus being able to attract someone cause of it. I have no doubt that its possible because of the nature of man, everyone wants love, and money is a good bonus.  Within withdrawing from life, from trying, I have found myself without motivation. Within believing no way can I get love from another. For this outcome I am grateful. For it would have been far worse if I had gotten the love I desired.  Its amazing how much love rules us all. The desirability of love. And how we choose love over life any day of the week.  I know real integrity would choose life over love. I kno...

 Love.  I know there is a place that I just wont go. And when I try to go, I shutdown. All the motivation and hoopla that I muster in order to get me there, just fades away. Just drops, I drop. And then I can't move an inch anymore, and I drag myself back to the things to pass the time, until I try again.  There's a really cool series of videos did, where essentially bernard was explaining the basic resonance pattern that every human is living, which is love. And he shows how every single person will inevitable choose love over everything else. Unless of course that resonance, that impulse is changed in ourselves, so we no longer feed, or go after that love. Love is the reason the hippies failed. That revolutions today fail because love has been stuffed in our faces in every way. link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GQKiYTroY0 So looking at me, I can see how thats the case. How in being this revolutionary radical this past decade, has been put to a fizzle due to love. Th...

 The mind creations inside ourselves is a byproduct, like a fart. It holds no power. It is our creation.  So its like a fart.  So farts is a byproduct of the bacteria breaking down food in your digestive track. It is gas, like carbon dioxide or some other gas. We create an experience inside ourselves like fearing something, and we get so worked up, and make it such a big deal. And the experience we create in ourselves is energy, and that is like a byproduct. We experience it. We experience the muscles contracting, and the physical sensations. But its not real. Its something we made up. And just like a fart, we can release it, and the sensation goes away. And that is the case for the entire mind. The mind is a fart. Just let it go.  I accept myself. Because I can. Its a decision to say that my self-confidence comes from me, and not anywhere else. My acceptance and confidence comes from me. So when I write, when I speak. I do it. And I do it with confidence and accepta...

RISK Author unknown  To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.  To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.  To reach out to others is to risk involvement.  To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.  To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.  To love is to risk not being loved in return.  To live is to risk dying.  To hope is to risk despair.  To try is to risk failure.  But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to do nothing.  The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing.  They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.  Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave, they forfeited their freedom.  Only the person who risks can be free This above poem was written in the old desteni forum. Dont know who wrote it. But it was significant for me, so I saved it. I am in a position where I don't ...

 The baby doesn't matter. The fetus doesn't matter. A baby while cute, is empty. The parent, the adult is a person, with a vast range of experiences and memories, that which a baby can't and doesn't have. A baby will over time take in their environment, take in the information, and the programming for better or worse.  A parent, who currently in our system, makes the money and thus provides for the child, does have the final say. A woman has hundreds of thousands of eggs in her that could become babies. Those are fucking little cells, are they gonna have hundreds of thousands of babies? This physical reality is matter. Life is everywhere in everything. For a baby to live it has to kill and eat thousands of other things, all those cells.  If you want to take this into religion and god, the first sin of man is man believing that man is more or less than anything else in existence. The separation from life, from all, as one and equal is the original sin.  Man is a colle...

 The people I really hate are those that try to hurt others either physically, mentally or emotionally, and especially those who target me. I can see the faces of them making jokes about the deficiencies of someone (me) and hollering. Like the only real enjoyment is how mad I get. Bullies.  The enjoyment of torturing another *me. The picking on. The taking advantage of my kindness and silence. Piling on and never stopping even when I tell them to. Literally their enjoyment is seeing suffering. Saying the words of derision. Making fun of me being me. Making fun of me living and expressing as me.  And especially someone who is a bully who says/pretends they are walking process. It makes me want to give up. To lack that basic component of caring for others.  I let bullies win, and they know it and sense it.  The people I look up to, I know they wouldn't stay silent. They would say exactly what was needed. I just hate them so much. I forgive myself for accepting and...