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Day 941 Real Love

 From my drafts in 2023: Im looking at what Love consists of. It is powerful because it can get a man or a woman to have sex, to propose marriage, to conceive a child. It has thus a possessive quality. It is addictive, you always want more until you're fulfilled for a while, then it weakens in strength, causing you to find a new source of love. There is no choice regarding love. The quality of being powerless defines it. If your love leaves, you have no power to make him/her stay.  Given you don't have a choice regarding love, this spoils love. Because you can have a great person, yet you don't love them? Love then doesn't give an indication of how much you care for a person or how grateful you are for them.  I would like to write about real love now. Real love is not something you feel to feel good about yourself. You feel the connection and responsibility to all things. You know that all is you. The matter is you. The material, the physical, on all levels. The atoms.

Testing dictation.

I am writing this blog with dictation. I’m gonna see how it goes and I want to see how effective it is. Oneness and equality. Oneness and equality, oneness and equality. Oneness and equality, oneness and equality. What does oneness and equality mean? Oneness and equality is the fundamental principle of the universe. It is saying that you are me and I am you. We are one, and we are equal. All the life that exists is life. It is equally life no matter what form of life it is. Under the fact that it exists it is part of life. What is really interesting is that the philosopher Descartes his quote had been misused. “I think therefore I am.” he originally wrote that as part of the argument that I exist, not to emphasize the mind. And existence is the fundamental point that defines life and defines oneness and equality. Existence covers everything by definition. All that exists, exists. And the word life refers to how all is made of the materials of existence and the materials of existence, i

Pain

 It is a part of life to hurt others.  A programmed statement inside of me is that I don't want to hurt anyone. That I will avoid actions that involve hurting others, including emotionally. One of things I avoid is rejecting others. I can't stand the thought of rejecting someone.  That's one of the reasons why I avoid dating. Because I can't stand the idea of someone falling for me, and me rejecting them, hurting them. I would feel guilty. I hate rejection. I hate pain. I hate suffering. But all of that is part of life. Including me inflicting that on others and others inflicting that on me. so there's no need to hide and try to stop it from happening.  Thats also one of the reasons I have been quiet. Because I have hurt others with my words, and it was words they needed to hear but I hated myself for hurting them, even if it was what was best for them.  Pain is a part of life. And the truth hurts sometimes. To help another, you may need to tell them the hurtful tru

Day 940 The nuance of speaking publicly on personal matters

 someone was asking about the nuance of when you discuss something that involves other people in a public way. I would say that every word you speak is an act of creation. so you must be completely specific in everything you express and thus be taking responsibility for everything involved in that including the outflows and consequence. If you were lacking in specificity then that is your responsibility. We are all creators all the time. Whether we embrace that responsibility or not, it occurs regardless. Our very existence has an impact. And even when you die you continue to have an impact.  You can never escape the responsibility that comes with existing. You either own up to it or you don't. There is no in between. Do or do not.  You can always take a moment to reflect and choose what you will express. You look at why you are expressing something or not. Is it for yourself? Is it for others? What are you going through inside yourself. Your starting point determines what you are

Day 939 We Deserve the Truth

 Had an inspiration, and I'm going to write about it before I forget.  What I went through during the times I voiced my love for someone and they reciprocated, and they returned my love. The young years of life, where everything felt optimistic, where all people are good and kind, and that we all want to love. How someone who loves you can, can unexpectedly turn into a monster. Things that I had to watch for then, and prepare. Someone freaking out, what you simply saying hi to them now. Now they completely ignore you, when before they supposedly love you. Well obviously that could not have been love, real love. It was instead a feeling of Euphoria. Love, real love, would exist outside the ideas of the mind, or the beliefs, or the feelings. It is something you see and understand in how the value of life of each person, of all beings, of all sized, shapes and form, equally exist in, and deserve care, recognition, respect, and attention. You see it through action, through your being,

Day 938 Mind Consciousness System Part 1

 I remember something that someone said to me. When I spoke to them about growing up like shy and quiet, and how she responded well of course since people are fucked up in the head for the most part. And how I saw that, initially I was unsure of what she said, yet partially knew it was completely true.  When I look at the dynamic of introverts and extroverts, I see the possibility that introverts need time away from people because we are aware of how fucked up people are in their minds and we dont want to participate in the bullying of others, and making others feel inferior. Meaning that if all people everywhere were to be cool in the head, refined, aligned with life, completely healthy and sane, then there would be no such thing as introverts. That anyone you could approach would be amazing, kind, and fun and exciting to be around. Thus there would be no burden to bear with their mind. So this is a possibility I considered today. So practically for the time being, introverts and extr

Day 937 The L word

 I had taken in 2 cats in their early stage of life, 1 year ago. During this time I was able to witness how they act during heat. In heat the act becomes possessed. In heat means their sexual programming is activated. Their personality becomes taken over. The body become possessed. They lose themselves essentially. I did have them fix shortly after, for those worried about that. Now, this behavior is the same with humans. Except we are not aware of to what extent it exists. Its easier watching others go through it, to tell that something happened.  Looking at my case, One thing specifically I went through is falling in Love. What does that mean exactly? Comparing this to a simple desire for sex, which many men and women have, where they act on it, find someone at a party, sleep with them and leave feeling fulfilled. What I am discussing is different than that. Falling in Love, is where I become mentally obsessed with someone. Thinking about them, imagining conversations with them, need