Yogan's Journey to Life

Previous Posts: My relationship to myself. Origin Story Part 1 My relationship to myself. Origin Story Part 2  So we are continuing with this massive point. You can reach the previous posts to catch up. So what has occurred now recently, is having me look at the fear and anxiety within this point. I notice it on a physical level. Where throughout my body, including my legs, back, and shoulders, I was very tense. I actually had a headache, and I spent a good deal of time figuring out why I had a headache. I finally narrowed it down to the tension in my muscles. This reveals how unaware I am of the tension that my body takes on, specifically with this point. So with this significant person, I am having a reaction to them. Why am I reacting to them? So yes, they are a parent figure, and what I see clearly is an fear and anxiety of making a decision, which I have made, that they would disapprove of. It's a very simply and very common point. Have you ever feared making a deci...

A while ago, I posted a blog about Reward and Punishment . Just like how the Desteni message explained about the positive and negative within the mind, the same thing works within reward and punishment. So Im going to talk then about this point that the positive and negative are used as a way to draw attention from what is really here or what is going on, the same way that reward and punishment is also used to remove self-responsibility, by drawing attention away from an individual's ability to direct and figure out what to do in a situation. So I will be comparing these two points and be providing examples for them.             So within the Desteni message and the principle it stands as as oneness and equality, the polarity of positive and negative is explained thusly. From my understanding from watching the interviews and reading the articles found from the Desteni website and the blogs and youtube accounts of the Destonians, ...

So im going to take a moment here to explain some of the basics of human operant conditioning. The goal is to empower us with the obvious commonsense that we have adjusted our behavior to seek our own comfort and so within doing so we have essentially become passive and apathetic to Life. Since this requires Challenging, it will be difficult and so requires persistence. I could remember as a child I would fight for change in human behavior. So if you have such memories of yourself standing up because you knew something was wrong, I suggest you get back to that place where you were as a child and would be willing to face situations. This is a strength within the power of Honesty in Seeing Directly how things are and how things are Unacceptable, and So Take that Commonsense and APPLY IT.              I took a Learning class last semester the spring of ’12. I had throughout the class made many connections between The Real...

 My name, Yogan. So a point opened just now where my name Yogan, was used in a particular context, and I saw myself feeling scared. I was like dead afraid I would toe out of line. This is obviously from my early years where as a child your told not to do something or something you did was wrong, all the while not realizing it has nothing to do with punishment but correction. Punishment however is used by parents and others to teach children to not do something. Now, HOW CAN YOU EXPECT CHILDREN NOT TO REALIZE IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH PUNISHMENT BUT PHYSICAL CORRECTION IF YOU ARE SHOUTING, BEING ANGRY, AND ABUSIVE AND PUNISHING? Parents then are obviously not properly trained to have children, so suggest don’t have kids until you sort yourself out first. You can start with this simple point being discussed here.             So I was afraid in this context, which fear, commonsense, is not cool. Why am I afraid? Again, this com...

--> This morning I had an interesting revelation, that I have employed punishment and reward in many if not all of my actions. Its like a feeling, which is biologically based and self-created. I know its self-created and even automatized because I can stop and no longer punish and reward myself for said actions, at least within these moments here.             I notice that the same behavior has been conditioned to punishment and reward, such as sleeping in my bed, where I find it aversive or punishing to wake up and get out of bed. Within trying to do so I find it rewarding or reinforcing to immediately lay down and sleep again once I sit up to get out of bed. But within this moment I did not allow myself to do this. Instead I focused on the sounds of the outside morning which I found rewarding.             So my morning was like this, I was realizing how pretty much...