Yogan's Journey to Life

Proceeding down the hall, I see another door that I fear to go, and don't want to open. Overly Emotional when something happens in my Relationships- either Friendships or Partners. I can just open a door and then close a door, its not a big deal if someone enters my life and just leaves. But I can see my emotions, me being emotional about it, as if to say I care about them more cause I am emotional. Emotions don't equal care. Care is not emotional. Its not as big as a deal as I am making it out to be. Just open a door and close a door. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel emotional when someone enters my life and when someone leaves my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel super excited when someone enters my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel devastated when someone leaves my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel it to be rude or disrespectful to say that som...

Fear or Paranoia of Strangers: this may be the cause/reason for the existence of introverts = fear of stranger. It started for me when adults tell me to fear strangers. I associated stranger =someone I don't know as someone to fear. So every time I would meet someone new, I WAS A STRANGER!!! So I feared them fearing me. So already I approached every new person in my life within an in-feariority, with needing to PROVE myself as someone who is not to be feared, who was a good person, who would not steal from them, harm them, kidnap them, which is what I was taught to FEAR that Strangers would Do to Me! This fear is the reason for my introversion. I am already in fear whenever I meet someone new, a stranger. And here is a fact: EVERY single FRIEND was ONCE a STRANGER!!!! So why are we teaching our children to fear people they don't know! STRANGER DANGER!!!! ANGER!!!! Why are the words so similar? Is this a coincidence or a purposeful design? Fear's purpose is to cause separ...

So I had a dream last night... a nightmare, which reveals something quite relevant and true which we all as people today may be going through in some way or another throughout our daily lives even if it may not be apparent or obvious at first. So how can a nightmare be something in my daily life? In my nightmare, there was this gigantic robot that's sole purpose and desire was to freeze human beings using his ice cold freeze ray. To essentially kill. Throughout the nightmare I was escaping the robot. This went on for a while. I was hiding in different locations and running into various people. I felt terror. I was running away trying to go to the least likely location that the mad killing robot would find me. At the end of my nightmare, he does find me when I expected to finally be safe. If felt like no matter how hard I tried or what I did, there was nothing I could do to run away, to change my fate, to give myself a different life, a meaningful life. I didn't have control o...

So I was presented with constructive criticism, and so I faced an old pattern where when someone provides critical feedback, I resist and react personally. So the correction is to listen to the feedback and try it out. It is a simple point, yet the correction is not often applied by many people. To support others, what I do is to see what I am feeling, to breathe, and firstly agree unconditionally to try out what the person is saying. So within that I am clear and objective and honest. If I feel emotional or resistance, that means my breathing wasn't effective, so also my decision to stop wasn't effective.

So I just listened to Why Your Weakest points are your Greatest Strength life review. I was searching on Eqafe for interviews on Decision. And the title of this interview caught my attention. What I heard shocked me. I am shocked by seeing how the mind has been secretly subverting and compromising me as a being. And all of this without me being directly aware of it. But now, thanks to this being in this interview, I see directly now how the mind has operated, what it did, and what it has kept from me. So now with this understanding there is nothing that can stop me from taking these parts of myself back. I highly recommend everyone to listen to this video because it will help you to become strong again, and improve your overall life. We often wonder why we were more confident, assertive, and sure of ourselves when we were younger. This interview helps you see why that was lost. I was obviously ready to hear this because I was searching for support in making ...

Presents, Christmas Eve. I feel sad, depressed, tired. Imagination of people getting angry with me. I feel a pain, emotional pain. And I feel a movement of crying within me. It seems silly to me that we give presents. Because within me, I have felt sad when I don’t receive a present and someone else did. I feel like that said something about my value/worth as a human being or person. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value and worth to myself dependent upon what presents I did receive, or did not receive because others had received a present. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value myself highly when I receive a present, which I believe/perceive is of high value, that someone else didn’t receive. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value myself lowly when I don’t receive a present, which I believe/perceive to be of high value, because someone else received it. I forgive myself for acc...

So in one of my previous blogs : How to remove specialness by removing opposites, I asked the question whether opposites exist. I had the answer that no, they don't really exist, but in our minds as a creation. And another I discovered was that by removing opposites you also remove specialness. Now I wish to look at a deeper dimension, that by removing opposites you will also remove the "opposite" of specialness. So what is the opposite of specialness? I identify that as victimization. How to remove specialness: by removing opposites. Day 191 - See more at: http://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/11/how-to-remove-specialness-by-removing.html#sthash.QauGPt1O.dpuf How to remove specialness: by removing opposites. Day 191 - See more at: http://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/11/how-to-remove-specialness-by-removing.html#sthash.QauGPt1O.dpuf How to remove specialness: by removing opposites. Day 191 - See more at: http://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014...