Yogan's Journey to Life

Something interesting about the Mind is that when you are in it, you don't see possibility. You don't see potential. You don't see future play outs. You resist anyone telling you that a world of oneness and equality is possible. You resist hearing that everyone can be taken care of. You resist the so called "impossible," which calling it that is an act of resistance itself This world has infinite possibilities. So simple to say, a much different story to actually see it, be it, and bring a new reality forth through yourself. When stepping out of the mind you are stepping out of the past imprisoned by your lust to have a story, a personality, a Me that is defined by the information you carry around on your back that is your Name and Image that you keep of yourself in your head. Such an image of yourself, you consider real and worth defending with blood and violence. Your emotions are the substance that you claim substantiate your right to attack others in the nam...

There is so much that we assume it just who we are, and will always be, and is right to be, and best to be. But what about when who you are is not best to be? When what best best for we, us, all, is in conflict with self, what then? Learning to let go of Self, in order to step into the shoes of us, we, the all. We have seen throughout history and movies, where people falsely step into the shoes of what is good for all, or best for all, where they in fact are upholding a definition of self, a point of ego, a point of SELF that must manifest. What happens when your self, your identity, the definition, and idea of who you are, your self is nothing, disappears? You are able to see a grander point of view, a more encompassing point of view, the view of all that exists right here. Doing what is best for all that is here, just make sense, because there is no obstacle, no resistance, no idea or belief of self holding you back from doing what is right and best for all. There is an e...

I grew up in an environment where enlightenment was considered real. so I expected that through meditation, which meant like sitting in the room and not thinking, I would get enlightened. Where I would be happy all the time, and have all the right things to say in any moment. And nothing and no one can touch me, make me react in anyway, forever., permanently. Looking back now, I just didn't have the proper understanding of how the mind works. Though I tested the tools I had to the extreme. So I saw directly meditation is not enough. That was when I found the desteni tools. I found that self-forgiveness can stop thoughts, emotions/feelings in the moment, and you can move as your body without thought. So its not that I disowned enlightenment, or think it was stupid. I just found the actually way to get there. This is what changed in my understanding: 1. It will happen in one moment  VS You will physically, practically change yourself point by point 2. You just need to stop y...

Fear of Being Alone. We do a lot in the name of NOT being Alone. I have done a lot. How much? I went into years of depression because I had people in my life. I had the attention, the love, the admiration, the worship, celebration, care. I felt needed and wanted, I felt I belonged. I felt like this is who I am, I found myself, this where I am supposed to be and do. All of this that I felt and thought was a lie. Because these feelings are lies. These thoughts are lies. This positivity, this bliss, this pleasure is a lie. How can feeling good be a lie? I was part of some people's everyday life. I got to know them. They would smile at me, and I would make them happy. When I would make they happy, laugh and have fun, I felt amazing. I felt complete, I felt great, I felt wonderful and bliss. This is all I ever wanted to do forever. Just make them happy. I wanted to keep them in my life, and I wanted them to keep me in their lives. I wanted to own them and be owned. I wanted...

So opposites exist, right? Would you agree that day and night are opposite? Would you agree that hot and cold are opposite? My goal is this, by the end of this blog you will see that day and night, and hot and cold, are not opposites. So you can let me know whether I was successful in accomplishing my goal.   Day and Night So what we call day and night is a result of the earth spinning, while orbiting the sun. While we may call day and night opposites, the reality is that day is the presence of light from the sun, and night is the absence of light. So how can we call the presence of something or the absence of something to indicate that two things are opposites? For example, consider calling your friend's presence as the opposite to your friends absence because he left the room. The reality is that your friend simply moved . The same is occurring with the earth and sun. The earth is moving around the sun, and the sun's light moves to the earth. Did you know that light ...

"Who and what I stand as, is a programmed system to enslave and control Man so you may never realise or know who you really are as pure life essence, as Man. This is who and what I stand as and I will take any and all necessary actions to ensure that Man as who you are as pure life essence never know or realise who you really are: Even if it means eliminating and destroying myself" http://desteni.org/a/consciousness-the-enslavement-of-man-by-consciousness Conciousness is evil. Consciousness is not best for all (here I use evil to refer to what must be stopped, because its evil).Evil is murder, rape, war, inequality, greed, anger, possession, thoughts, emotions, reactions, feelings, ego, desires, beliefs, anything and everything that does not start from oneness and equality. I longer accept and allow anything which supports inequality, that which is not best for all- this is a living statement of who I am. Practically, the road to manifest oneness and equalit...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am nothing without success. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am worthless if I do not live a life of worth. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire a life of worth. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exclude myself from what it means to live a life of worth, and chose to follow fear of appearing arrogant to others (i ironically became arrogant as a result) I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing my relationship with myself, within who i am with me, how i interact with me and reality, that i was somehow dishonest and everything i had lived needed to be lost, without realizing i am simply investigating me piece by piece and see, through asking, am i in fact living, am i in fact here? I am in fact in directive power? And daring to see the truth which requires only for me to be here to see.  I forgive myself for acce...