Yogan's Journey to Life

 I have been working on the Positive/Negative Energies, surrounding Optimism and rose colored glasses. I suspect the following: that my lazy eye is due to the preprogramming of viewing the world and everything through extreme optimism and hope, as they say viewing the world through rose colored glasses. I used an astrology website https://www.zodiacsign.com/ to see the levels of preprogramming that exists within me. This lead me to the term of rose colored glasses, as it had indicated that as a weakness. And when I looked at my entire life, I indeed have viewed the world that way.  In my teenage years, I would delve into memories like a drug, and I would delve into Love as a drug. The first time I ever saw porn was around 13 years old. And when I looked at the kind of dreams I had as a child, I was preprogrammed to chase love. When I looked at my previous post on Love, it ties with sex is true. It drives the birthing of children. All done within a possessed state. All done wit...

So I'm going to be describing something that may be very hard to understand. Even with the right words, if you read it too quickly, then you are already accessing the idea of it. Being vulnerable in asking someone something: Can I go with you? Will you help me? Can I have your number? Can we hangout? Do you want to go to...? And here, imagine that you are truly saying these words as truly asking the person. Not putting up a facade, not trying to be cool, not trying to already shield/guard yourself and act like you don't care. Truly being vulnerable in truly asking for what you want and so you are declaring to the person what you want and you are in the same moment ready to hear them say Yes or No. That moment is the one I fear. I fear vulnerability. And when I look at people in general, everyone does as well. And the common advice that I hear and have been told is to be STRONG and CONFIDENT and basically FUCK THEM if they say no. And this is what I see everyone givin...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to procreate I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be willing to compromise who I am, my integrity and principles for a wife/woman partner I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be willing to suppress myself, my voice, the voice of what is best for all, to hide anything that can be judged as aggressive or distasteful in my words, in my blog and vlogs, in order to appease what I believe women would want. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try to conform to this idea of what I think a woman wants: a man who is masculine but not threatening, intelligent but not condescending, strong but not aggressive, is interested in the woman but not intrusive, is attracted to the woman's appearance but is not shallow, is soft, gentle and kind, but not feminine, is submissive to the woman, but still confident. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe it cou...

Now, before I talk about Masculinity, I want to say first that in the grand scheme of things, on a very deep level there is no distinction between masculine and feminine, it doesn't exist. That being said, working on it on the everyday level is what is practical and using these words have their value, but by no means is man or a woman, or any person limited from LIVING these WORDS or EXPRESSIONS no matter what their body is. So lets get started. The strength of the Masculinity is something I have been living and applying thanks to a physical labor job I have had. Now, before starting the job, I already had the attitude, though my living and practice expanded within the job. Essentially it is pushing past all excuses, and all pain. Its about getting the job done. Its using your muscles. And I can see the difference between people who have it and who don't. The phrase,  "never worked a day in their life" applies here. Because people who aren't living as the mascul...

Right now, neither the vast majority of men or women are fully living their sexuality. This is something difficult to understand. As a guy, the normal orgasm ejaculation seemed great. Though in comparison to actually expressing myself sexually, it was puny, like nothing. And if you haven't lived it yet yourself, you won't understand. Though I did it, so its possible to do. In the beginning I followed the basic Desteni principles. Do not react. So I did self-forgiveness on all reactions I had, which included with sexuality. If i reacted to seeing a big breasts of a woman, I would do self-forgiveness. And so on and so forth. Every single time. Then I started practicing masturbation while still doing self-forgiveness on any sexual thought. Without relying or using thought, I relied on the physical, my physical body. I found that the natural liquid secretion from my penis was enough for creating lubrication and it just felt good physically. I didn't need to think of anything....

So today we are opening my Men mind, and by that I mean, what I, as a guy or man, find attractive and why? Specifically we are looking at a kind of attraction which I have observed most if not all men, who are straight/heterosexual, have towards an specific particular image of a woman, as well as her physical facial expression. So to start off this blog, I ask that you remember/imagine what you have thought to be a hot woman or man. So for me, I have many times while growing up, having certain fantasies, particularly involving a woman which I considered to be sexy or hot. So the question here is why is this particular image of a woman decided or chosen to be what is sexy or hot. And in general we do, as males, and women, have a shared idea about what is sexy or hot. Here are some examples. For women, it means to wear mascara, a tight dress, or short shorts, or showing cleavage, and wearing make up so make yourself like young without wrinkles, etc... So in commonsense yes, there is pr...

So I am going to explore multiple orgasms in a series of blogs. It is a huge topic and it can be overwhelming and difficult to even talk about. So for today I am going to just give an introduction and overview. So if we look at the reports women are having trouble achieving both orgasm, and so also multiple orgasm. "In studies, about 15 percent of women report having experienced multiple orgasms." http://www.nytimes.com/2007/04/10/health/10real2.html?_r=0   Unfortunately I couldn't find any reports for how many men experience multiple orgasms, but at least some do have multiple orgasms. "Most people - men and women included - assume that an orgasm and male ejaculation are one and the same. Actually, the male orgasm generally takes place several seconds before the ejaculation itself; and in fact, men can experience an orgasm without ejaculating at all - good news for guys who were wondering whether they can come multiple times." http://www.selfgrowth.c...

In a previous blog post I said that I watched a documentary recently about women's current inequality. Since watching that documentary I saw a movie. I looked for the things mentioned in the documentary, like how all the women are in a very limited number of roles. Mainly women are there just to be a love interest for the man. Who she is is not someone independent of the man. Her definition is depended on being in love with the main character. Also the main character is a man. The man's role is also to be a provider. The man feels pressure to make money and provide. That is the man's role. So I notice this in the movie I watched. The women are also sex objects. The way they dress, how much they weigh, their makeup, how they talk, what they do, all relates to appear sexually, and desirable for the man. I'm not a woman, and I never really bought into the movies being real or representing what it means to live. I have seen movies, for the most part being dumb, and reveal...

So I watched this documentary called, Miss Representarion. So in my life, I didnit really perceive or see women as having a greater obstacle than men. Partly because it seems everyone has something fucked with them, and there is something each can do. I don't see there being a greater obstacle for men or women in this life. It seems the obstacles that face everyone is big already. If however, women, or men, view themselves as a victim I would say you're wasting your time. So I would like to speak from the point of me having made myself a victim, to provide perspective on this women inequality. So bullying. If you are absolutely sure of who you are, 100%, can anyone say anything to you, telling you who you are, and convince you of anything? No. So really, whenever anyone makes you feel or think a certain way about you, they are giving you a gift, because they are revealing to you a fault in who you are that you accepted and allowed. All you have to do is fix that fault. If you ...