Yogan's Journey to Life

Revenge of the Ego is a recording Bernard did. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNwExWTsSXM And I see an explanation for something I went through which happened through an unexpected way. Bernard used an example of a relationship and how in the beginning of the relationship it was pure, and real. And how slowly over time the ego inserts thoughts that make you doubt it. Is this the right person? Is this where I am supposed to be? Is this the right place? And how it sabotages the whole point. So what i am seeing is that this happened to me, but with my career choice and goal. Because in the beginning I was happy, and excited, motivated, and willing to walk it and looking forward to it. But then it slowly went into doubt. Is this the right goal? Is there something else I should be doing? Are these the right people? And I can see how it fell apart, and how the ego took me to the point where I would give up. And like Bernard said that its more advanced than me, the mind is more s...

So I took a neutral photo to see where I am at. Now, a neutral photo could be like an amazing face, a really nice smile, but this is not, because I am going through points. So lets look at the points. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future, to fear what's coming next I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear something bad is going to happen, to be on edge. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the next corner, the next chapter, the next turn on the river I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  worry what's going to happen in my relationships with people I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear seeing some people go and leave I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear losing people I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to conflict, and fighting, yelling and screaming I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  be ...