Yogan's Journey to Life

I have been facing parts of me or a part of me that has been buried for a while. And my response first/desire was to get it over with as quickly as possible. This was a mistake. Its not possible to just get it over with NOW. I tried to end it now, and it led to me suppressing the entire point And there is great beauty as gifts of expression with this design. Within my preprogrammed design there is within it my expression It is me within it, and so I do need to release it and redefine it. There is great beauty and playfulness and expression here locked within the design. And the key to unlock it is to walk it step by step Bit by bit Piece by Piece One step at a time There is for sure things I have to redefine within me, to redirect it I do have to adjust and change parts of me here within the design. I know it But its not condemnation or slotted for total annihilation. So I am going to be reacting I am going to be in the d...

Being/Feeling Worthless I felt and believed I was worthless because as a kid I was quiet, shy, I didn't know what to say or what to do. I didn't know how to have conversations or speak. When it came to the girls I had crushes on, that I liked, I didn't know how to speak to them. And to one particular girl who made me her friend, who was super friendly to me, and spent time with me, and invited me to things, I felt/believed I was still worthless, I was too worthless to be with her. I was too worthless for her. I am quiet. I am shy. I don't know how to speak. This self-perception carried on within me. As I grew older and met other girls/women that I had crushes on, that I eventually dated, I still saw myself as too worthless to be with them. As I was with them, held hands with them as we walked, I still saw myself as worthless. I was afraid to say something stupid or I was afraid I wouldn't know what to say. I was afraid I was still too quiet, too shy, too inexper...

Judging people before you get to know them. This leads to great suffering. Judgment. What is Judgment? Judgment is when you have a thought, a thought about something, and you believe it, and charge it emotionally. The truth doesn't need believing it just exists, and it exists without emotion or feeling. So judgment is not that.  How many times have judged something or someone. Maybe it is a group of people. Maybe its people with money, without money, beautiful people, ugly people, happy people, sad people, loners, popular people, friendly people, nasty people, spiritual people, pessimistic people. All of these words represent forms of judgment. Because there is no way one word can define an entire person. Looking at what was said yesterday, Evil needs to stop. So here Judgment is evil, and evil, the act of evil, and the thoughts must stop. Because this evil, judgment leads to suffering. How many opportunities did you screw up because of what you judged another to be, and ther...