Yogan's Journey to Life

 So I recently updated my facebook from a cat to that of a lion. This is a symbol for me, that represents how I am utilizing strength in the form as a roar. Strength is very important. Without strength we cannot stand in the difficult moments nor do what must be done. So for me there are past moments where I wasn't able to bring forth the strength needed. And so I would allow for abuse time and again. And by allowing abuse, my integrity was degrading as well. And so I wasn't able to live with myself, live happily and trust me.  So finding that strength now, where I will not allow the mind, will not allow abuse till the end of times. That no matter what comes at me, I will not bend, I will not stop, and I will succeed. This attitude is not one I had previously in my life. I had an attitude of believing in trying, in mistakes, and time to understand and learn. These are not bad attributes, they are positive ones, but alone they are not enough to stand in certain moments. There a...

What comes up within you when speaking, reading, hearing the word Self? Self refers to your self. Are you complete, whole? Are you fractured? Fearful? Worried Happy Sad Joyful What is the word or words? Whatever the words are it doesn't mean its good or bad. What matters is whether you were even aware of your relationship with yourself. What matters is that you have that connection with yourself. What matters is you KNOW what you feel. What matters is that you have that connection BECAUSE then you can actually make changes. Fact, You cannot change yourself without first knowing yourself. You have to Know thyself. Self is not something you can really categorize. Its not good or bad. It just is. You can be separate from yourself. You not know yourself. You can suppress yourself. You can abuse yourself. What words do you live with yourself? What changes can you make, or need to make to make things better? Are you happy with yourself? Maybe you need ...

You only accept and allow someone to do something to you, if you already have been and are accepting and allowing yourself to do it within yourself. Self is the key. Self holds the key. You are the Key. When someone yells at you and you react, its because you have been yelling at yourself within yourself already. If you stop all yelling, all abuse within yourself that you do to yourself, then no amount of yelling or abuse can cause you to react or feel anything. You are whole and complete. Right now we are not whole and complete. We are fractured. Right now when we see the abuse in the world, we react. Right now when we see people yell, scream, hit, abuse, gossip, we react. We react because we are doing these things to ourselves in our heads, with our thoughts, with what we feel. Reaction is feeling/emotion. You are feeling something about something. When you stop your own abuse, stop your own feeling something about something, within yourself, then you are free. T...

So I have been enjoying the physical. Enjoying the physical sound of music. Enjoying the feeling of my hand outside my car driving, feeling the wind. Being here in my body and addressing/stopping any physical pains. Enjoying the feeling of water on my body while showering. Enjoying the feeling of the cloth in bed. Enjoying the flavor and taste of pickles, bread, cheese. Enjoying the physical sun. Enjoying breathing heavily while working outside. Enjoying paying attention and focusing on a physical project and making it the best outcome. Enjoying playing a trick/joke on other people. Enjoying myself/alone. Enjoying my presence. Enjoying my gentleness and softness. Enjoying my ability to move and express anything I want to express in the moment. Enjoying my ability to work long hours. Enjoying my complete intimacy and depth with myself. Enjoying my own sound while singing. Enjoying my own dance while dancing. Enjoying the feel of my own clothes. Enjoying all of physical reality, in my ...