Yogan's Journey to Life

Being a Loner, a Lone Wolf, I should be able to be ALONE, not need anyone. I should be able to exist within ANYONE. That is where I should go, develop and be... All of the above is a LIE... Its a lie. The true way of living is the a mix of independence and dependence. Even more so, hold dear and deep to my heart those that bring out the best in me, those who bring me the most joy, the most expression, the most creativity, the most love, the most fun. And hold them to my heart, remember them, call them, talk to them, keep them in my EVERYDAY Life. Even though they are not physically present. I can't hold them or hug them. They are very far away. But they are more real to me, and bring out the best in me. No fact can change that fact. Except me. Just me that can take that away. Just me that won't fight for it. And I have to fight for it. Its not automatic or natural. But if I fight for it, I get it, and it is better than anything. It is real. I have to fight b...

 You Can be Friends with ANYONE. And Anyone can Be Friends with YOU!!! This wording is specific. Because currently we view Friendship as something that either Exists or doesn't. We don't view Friendship as a VERB as an ACTION. We tend to make ourselves POWERLESS when it comes to the Friendships that we have or have had. I was like this too. I believed I only connected with certain people and that's it. That it wasn't my fault that I didn't have control. So here we are going to open up the misconceptions we have with Friendships and open up the Potentially best way to live when it comes to the people in your everyday life. In our days we tend to have jobs and are stuck with certain people for certain amount of time. And in other times of the day we are free to choose who we spend time with. HERE, we will not be discussing at all about these dimension of choice, that is up to you to arrange your time. We are here focusing on what you DO when you are WITH someone...

So in line with the recent posts and audio recordings, I am continuing with this topic of being overly agitated/activated/energetic. Now, like I had shared, many thing throughout my day activate/trigger me into this hyped up state. So on this topic alone I could write many blogs. Today's blog will be able social situations and gatherings, because today I faced this point. Now I have to be specific about the context here. So basically in a moment/middle of a conversation that is flowing, meaning that you speak and others respond to what you say, and in that moment you can respond to what they said in response. So this excludes moments where conversations don't flow or they drop flat, or they don't move. And in situations where there are no conversations, like everyone is sitting nearby one and another and not interacting. So that's the context. So in this moment, I become energetic, excited, motivated. This turned on like a light switch and energetic state. I am be...

Social Relationships. So the title, social relationships, is redundant, isn't it? well, actually, you can have relationships that aren't social. Meaning that socializing doesn't occur, at all, in your relationships. So perhaps socializing did occur to a small extent in my past relationships, but I would say for the most part I haven't really created a full social relationship before, at all. So this is my Achilles heel. So it seems appropriate to write blogs regarding my process and what I realize, as I walk creating social relationships. So the idea of "creating" relationships, is already strange for me. So those words "create" "relationship" doesn't seem to fit together, naturally within me. I had existed most of my life where the relationships I had with people, sort of, fell into place. They just happened. There was no creation process involved. No real effort. It was the right place, at the right time. So I basically waited...

This is Self-forgiveness for yesterday's writing. For your convenience, the link is provided for yesterday's writing in case you want to follow the progression of the Self-forgiveness as it goes line by line, in order of the words, http://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/12/walking-some-supportive-words-walking.html I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel stuck for a long time. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be living the principle of what is best for all for a long time. I forgive myself ofr accepting and allowing myself to not simply write and express myself through and as the principle of what is best for all. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not simply be direct and plain. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate experiments and resist experiments. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate risks and to resist risks. I forgive myself f...

In some ways I see myself as a lesser man than 12 months ago. I have become more daring and more risking, but these qualities alone mean nothing. I used to judge certain people who we social, smiling all the time, as sort of correct, and who I was as being quiet, which I did not see myself as quiet or that as a problem, but that others saw me as quiet and I saw that that was a problem, because it was a problem to them. SO I have to learn not to take what other people think are problems with me, as a real problem. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take on what other people think are a problem for myself and judge that as a good thing.   I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take what I think other people will have a problem with me, as a problem for me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take what other people think is a problem for me, that I am quiet, and make that into a problem where I think I the s...

So a lot has been happening the last few days in terms of myself and my process. I would like to talk about each point, which will serve as a recap for me. So I wanted to write about conditioning, because for me its about that raw point of how we associate our emotions basically to things that are of course not emotional in nature. And so after looking at this, I also was pushing within myself to stop participating in any punishment and reward inside myself, which would mean that I would be sort of rewarding myself or punishing myself with a thought followed with an experience. That became all of my focus, but for some reason that was not working very well. Eventually I came to the point where I just dropped that and I went to the basics of self-forgiveness, self-trust, self-honesty, and self-responsibility. With that I could properly navigate what was going on within me. Something interesting happened today, where I was helping my aunt and grandma by painting one of their rooms, and...