Yogan's Journey to Life

My Dream: I had a dream where there I was and I was dancing Cha-Cha with a guy because he's super into Cha-Cha, and then it turned into all of us guys like jumping around dancing and laughing. So here I was connecting with that expression of dancing with Friends that had been suppressed this last year. This was something I had expressed the year before that. And I know its a part of me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my dance expression. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own expression. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing a friend through me being myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing a friend through me dancing. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge people by their age. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see all people as equal regardless of age. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mysel...

Losing your Purpose in Gaming https://www.facebook.com/events/813442582038134/ So in about 1-2 days, I will be on a hangout on gaming possession. While during this hangout I will be discussing possession of gaming, and the negative side effects of this addiction. I would like to focus on this blog particularly on a completely different point on my gaming experience. While there are lots of positive and negations attitudes I have towards gaming, there are some practical points that I did learn and found useful in gaming. In general my attitude towards gaming is a mix of shame, embarrassment, guilt, on one end, and on the other end excitement, thrill, enjoyment, and fun. For the negative spectrum, I have this voice within me that says gaming is childish, and shouldn't be done by adults, and makes people stupid, and is something that is a waste of time. Particularly because of this side, I would like to point out, what lessons I have learned and applied from the games I have play...

--> Point: getting nervous when I think someone is listening to me play on the piano.  Tonight I got nervous while playing the piano, when I thought someone is listening to me play. I looked towards the door for a moment, and I felt fear. I see I am afraid of someone getting angry at my music and thinking what I am playing on the piano sounds bad. This has happened before where I was playing the piano a few years back and someone asked me to not play for right now. I imagined someone was pressing against the door or right outside the door and listening. I then felt separated from my fingers and lost control of what I wanted to play next. I then felt frustrated as I had no control and I saw I gave up my control because I felt afraid. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous while playing the piano and having thought someone was listening to me play the piano. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear someone hearing me p...