Yogan's Journey to Life

 Saving a lizard is obviously a best for all thing. But the mind tries to take such a simple act as getting a glass cup, coaxing him in there, taking him out, the end, and make it into a way to divide, and assert itself.  It makes it about morality, about taking lives, killing, saving them, being a hero, what is right or wrong, suffering, mercy. Happiness, fear, suffering.  Its a yelp of a lady, a crying in sadness, complaining, despair, anger. Making into a drama, something to stir the voices, stir the fights, disturb reality, the waters of self.  When all you need is silence, and no other voice but your own. Doing, living and acting. Rationalizing things into thoughts, the mind makes its move: its because we are the same, we both suffer. Its doing what is right, the right thing. Being a hero. Feeling good about myself. Playing the devil, by making it a disappointment when he die, sad, guilty, it all my fault its dead. Finding a way to hijack the situation to sour self, and one's

 The Destiny for every life form is to stand as all as one and as equal. We are each other. None is greater or less than any other. Consciousness is what keeps us in separation, the constant barrage of stories, memories, programming, history carried and created constantly. With consciousness being halted, its clear that all is one and equal. If you take a breath, you can choose to stop your mind for a moment, and you can see this reality, this power that you have, and therefore responsibility to act. Our expectations, our hopes, our dreams, are desires, don't belong to us, they come from somewhere else. If you can stop them in a moment, it means they aren't fixed. They aren't a holy sign that comes from some holy place inside of you representing your truest self. They are mental experiences, like a drug or movie, animated with a voice and images.  Life isn't so limited to be defined from another source other than itself. Life is here, always, able to create always, and

 Breaking the rules. I am not much of a rule breaker naturally. But to change one's program is to break the rule that one has followed. Without the ability to break rules, following a rule is simply being stuck. Its not a real commitment to follow that rule. Part of the rules I want to break: we need radical change in the system. Those who abuse and cause violence, those that bully, that verbally abuse and attack, those that cause a nuissance, and harrass others, should be dealt with in a manner that ends their abuse. Be it jail, or a fine, or a warning. Whatever it is, escalation of punishment is completely fine, until they get the message. I am not talking about our current broken justice system, I am saying what needs to be done and carried out by us as a collective, as our responsibility.  Justice should be about reform and correction. As well as not allowing abuse. We cannot allow abuse to occur, period. No matter what it takes to end the abuse.  Money is the greatest vehicle

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be seen as a good person. As a good person for walking process. As a good person for how I write myself and present myself As a good person for following the rules and principles As a good person for the sacrifices I make, and how I conform. Doing everything that is supposed to be done. Pushing for self change so that I can be seen as a good person by others. Feeling afraid of letting others down, or getting their anger or disappointment, for it is their eyes where I want to be seen as a good person.  Getting upset and angry when they get angry at me for being a good person. The opposite of what I wanted. Feeling tired and saying whats the point, I made these changes and now they are changing.  I give up, on trying.  A good person is the problem. I would need to be a hardass at times. To tell people off, to tell them they are wrong, they are having issues and problems, they are being abusive. And that doesn't fall in li

 I fear taking responsibility. I fear writing here.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking responsibility.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take responsibility by writing here. I realize how easy it is to just live in the system, make money, and forget about responsibility. My fears are not about survival. My fears are about responsibility. And I can see it everywhere. So many people just living in the system and playing the games. No one taking responsibility. Taking responsibility would be blog writing, would be committing to change publicly, through vlogs, blogs, through self-forgiveness, to participating with Desteni.  It has always been about the humans fear of taking responsibility. That is the only fear. The rest are just shadows and mirror illusions of fear obscuring this one real one.  I mean its so obvious. You have plenty of people who are living secure lives, who have access to money, and the one thing they will never do is