Yogan's Journey to Life

So reality brought before me moments with people that are from my past, and so recreating the dynamic of relationships and moments from my past in front of me. So here I am literally facing my past again. Within me and as me I reacted, I reacted in the same way I have reacted before in the past. My reaction so to feel stressed, depressed, misplaced, anxiety, unsettled. Within seeing this, that I what I am facing is literally my past in this moment, then what I have to do is walk this moment HERE, the only moment that is here, as the Me that I am now, that I direct here and now. The past is gone, even though people are here recreating the moments and living it as themselves, they are NOT me and I am not bound by the past, or by past rules, or by how I should be because that is how I used to be in relation to them. I can create here, how I am, who I am, in the moment, without Shame, without Guilt, with Peer pressure. I stand as the new me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing ...

Right now, neither the vast majority of men or women are fully living their sexuality. This is something difficult to understand. As a guy, the normal orgasm ejaculation seemed great. Though in comparison to actually expressing myself sexually, it was puny, like nothing. And if you haven't lived it yet yourself, you won't understand. Though I did it, so its possible to do. In the beginning I followed the basic Desteni principles. Do not react. So I did self-forgiveness on all reactions I had, which included with sexuality. If i reacted to seeing a big breasts of a woman, I would do self-forgiveness. And so on and so forth. Every single time. Then I started practicing masturbation while still doing self-forgiveness on any sexual thought. Without relying or using thought, I relied on the physical, my physical body. I found that the natural liquid secretion from my penis was enough for creating lubrication and it just felt good physically. I didn't need to think of anything....