Yogan's Journey to Life

When I had my First Friend, I was around 7 years old. I remember that being the first time that its like I decided, or knew that this person here is my Friend. This was the first time, and it was very clear and strong that I felt this way and became this way. So this programming was here and established. And it was very specific, because I went over his house for one day and that is where I decided that point. And so after that day I never saw him again. Because my mom told me that he had moved away to the UK. It was sudden. The news was sudden. And I never said goodbye or saw him again. I was shocked and surprised. Devastated really. And it became a point of where I was right at the point of where I could express myself with a Friend, and have all of those expressions and points come through and it was all just immediately shut down and taken away from me. It was like losing my Friend and being powerless about it. I didn't have any say about it. I couldn't stop it. It...

The value of a Friend. The value of someone who sees into the same depths as you, that very few can. The depths of this reality The depths of the Self. The depths of all the selves The depths of all life The depth of what it means to be alive The depth of what it means to really live. The power of the self The beauty of the self The creativity of the self The potential of the self The potential of all life The specificity of all of this, in written and spoken word, shared and lived in the moment, in the physical flesh, here to be heard with your own ears spoken from the lips of a body. Real. Here. Not a memory, not an image, not a past... here and real. There are many levels and variation of Friendship... but this kind of friendship is most special, most important. It is a friendship bound by this process, by the very Life itself, the very physical itself, with the understanding and manifestation of LIFE here in the flesh. In full awareness, in t...

Being/Feeling Worthless I felt and believed I was worthless because as a kid I was quiet, shy, I didn't know what to say or what to do. I didn't know how to have conversations or speak. When it came to the girls I had crushes on, that I liked, I didn't know how to speak to them. And to one particular girl who made me her friend, who was super friendly to me, and spent time with me, and invited me to things, I felt/believed I was still worthless, I was too worthless to be with her. I was too worthless for her. I am quiet. I am shy. I don't know how to speak. This self-perception carried on within me. As I grew older and met other girls/women that I had crushes on, that I eventually dated, I still saw myself as too worthless to be with them. As I was with them, held hands with them as we walked, I still saw myself as worthless. I was afraid to say something stupid or I was afraid I wouldn't know what to say. I was afraid I was still too quiet, too shy, too inexper...

Something I observe is that we can connect with people through different ways or modalities. Like one way is through words. Some people are able to connect intimately purely through words. Whether it be in the form of hand written letters, which used to be the old way of communicating. Or whether it is through online chat in modern times. And its not so much about only certain people can ONLY connect this way, its more that its like either a skill or a relationship to words in a way that enables them to do so. Compare this to meeting in person and connecting through the presence of a person right here in front of you. Perhaps you can say its easier to connect with someone in person, though that is a generalization and there is always exceptions to the rules. So to summarize what we have so far, people can connect solely through written words without ever meeting face to face, without any NEED to, where it isn't any less. Other people can't do this, at least in the present mom...

Oneness and Equality means that you are willing to do anything for the whole. You are willing to give up privileges, rights, if these things stand in a way of what is best for all. You are willing to follow rules and laws if these support what is best for all. You are willing to give up guns, drugs, alcohol, sex, freedom if it meant what is best for all. You have to consider the relativity of things. Relative this. Right now the world has seen incredible expansion and growth. If oil/gasoline was never discovered, we wouldn't have all that the richest 50% has access to on planet earth. Do you know what oil and gasoline is? It is the living body, the living tissue of plants and animals that has been stewing for a fucking long time. It is a very Condensed form of energy that humans just found. But it took a fucking long time to create. So you do the math. Things are relative. Freedoms are relative. They are relative to what our economic luxury and our environment has to offer. Hum...

So how to be a real friend? So a real friend is someone who will stick by you no matter what. So the question is, how should these two people, these two friends interact. And I mean this is an important question because normally, with normal people, so with most people, you are not and they are not real friends. They won't stick by you no matter what. No that is simply not the case. And so, yes, you have to manipulate, you have to be careful and sly with your words. And too, with a real friend you have to be careful with your words, but in a different way. With a real friend, your words need to be real. With someone who is not a real friends, your words must also be real, but perhaps diluted, as sometimes the realness is too much for them. Let's then ask the question how shall I talk to my friend? Soooooo.... understand the context, this is a true compradre, a true brothers in arms. ok? They will stick by you. So really, how you should talk is practicality. No bullshit, no ...

Lifeship. So this is a word that is similar to what is represented by the words: Friendship, apprenticeship, and Relationship. Like a ship, each must be built and constructed so as to float on water, and to sail effectively. So Lifeship, is you building a ship for your life. And what is everyone's ship? Their body. Your ship is your body or vessel, which is what you use to navigate the waters of life. But this ship hasn't been efficiently and effectively built to ensure that you will reach your desired destination. Would you say you have the tools, and the schematic, to build the self, the ship, which is required for you to go exactly where it is that you have always wanted to go and be in this life? If you do that's great! And if you don't... well you would like that, right? So yes it does take time, building anything, including ships take time. And not only time, but also planning, as well as a schematic of what you will be building. Is there a school or place on th...

 So I listened to an interview. I was able to relate to the exact words shared in the interview, and I would like to share my experience https://eqafe.com/p/lost-your-true-self-life-review So because of the interview, I have made the decision to be myself. Be myself meaning that I will contact everyone I have ever met, and anyone else that I can meet, and test out who really sees me, and understands me, as I express me who I really am. With those people I can build a relationship with. I already know that I am a really great person, I enjoy myself immensely, haha. And I learning/doing by being myself, and seeing how people respond. I am learning that what I called friends was something shallow. There are particular people that see me, its not about friendship, its just about how someone sees you. Its strange, but its also clear, and perhaps easy, now that I see it. So I know what I need to do know. Just be myself and meet as many people as I can. Out of that just see how they r...