Yogan's Journey to Life

So in my process I have connected the dimension of sound to the solution of living words, where within living a word, I obviously will be speaking in daily life, and one thing I do to cross-reference my living of the word is the sound I use when speaking. Because obviously, if I were to be attempting to live the sound leader and I end up speaking/sounding angry, scared or nervous, I am not effectively living the word leader. Now, this assessment or judgment or determination that what my sound is like must be from me, because obviously others can say, assess, determine your sound, but they could be wrong, just as you could be wrong. The cross-reference I trust in checking my sound is by looking at my memories and looking where else I have used this sound and what happening in the moment and within me. The sound I use is very specific and has a history. So the very specific sound leader that is accompanying living the word leader, has a history and is specific. This history is very short...

Yesterday we spoke about Feeling Nothing, the point of it, why does it exist, the purpose of it, what it means. In a basic sense, it means nothing. Why nothing? Because after nothing, well something. What comes after nothing? something. Living Words. Understand that Living Words is a tool. Living words is a structure that you can use to live/express yourself. It's not like the ONLY way. And understand the flexibility of words. Words in each language are different. For many languages there are no direct translations for many words. Living words is a tool. Living words is a way to help yourself. Just like with self-forgiveness, without self you cannot live words. There is no magic. There is no magic in process. There is no magic in self-forgiveness. There is no magic in Living words. The only source of power in all of this is Self. The only source of power in existence is Self. So. What comes after nothing? Creation. Just like in the bible. First there was no...

So, the moment of Feeling Nothing. The point where you get to where you Feel Nothing. The place/space where you feel Nothing. So the point where you feel nothing, is where you can see what you truly want. Why? It is logical why. The logic is that if you feel something, and then you try to see what you want, then what you want will be based on how you feel. Consider. If you feel hungry, thirsty, or tired, you will see what you want is food, water or sleep. But is that what you really want? If you feel lonely, sad, or anger, you will say that you want company, to feel happy, or to get revenge. But is that what you really want? Whatever you FEEL in this moment, will influence your answer of what you want. Can you agree with that? That there is an influence? Im not saying its bad, right or wrong. I am saying it as a FACT. Do you agree that when you ask someone what they want, that how they FEEL will determine to an extent their answer?I understand that some people have greater ...

Living Words. Verb Noun. Living as a verb. Living Words. Living the word Determined. Living the word Touch. Living the word Paint. When you live a word, Nothing else exists. When living a word, the world fades away. Your past, your history, your future, yourself disappears. All that exists is you and the word. When you live a word, the only thing that exists is you and the word. When you live the word Determined, the only thing that exists is Determination. You Are Determination. When you Live the word Determination, you Are Determination. When you Live the word Touch, you Are Touch. When you live the word Paint, you Are Paint. Nothing else exists. Everything else fades away. You completely embody the word. You are the word. There is no thought. You can Feel Determination in your arms, legs, blood. You are it. You become Determination in that moment. You can Live words with something. You can live words through something. You can Live the w...

Fear of Being Alone. We do a lot in the name of NOT being Alone. I have done a lot. How much? I went into years of depression because I had people in my life. I had the attention, the love, the admiration, the worship, celebration, care. I felt needed and wanted, I felt I belonged. I felt like this is who I am, I found myself, this where I am supposed to be and do. All of this that I felt and thought was a lie. Because these feelings are lies. These thoughts are lies. This positivity, this bliss, this pleasure is a lie. How can feeling good be a lie? I was part of some people's everyday life. I got to know them. They would smile at me, and I would make them happy. When I would make they happy, laugh and have fun, I felt amazing. I felt complete, I felt great, I felt wonderful and bliss. This is all I ever wanted to do forever. Just make them happy. I wanted to keep them in my life, and I wanted them to keep me in their lives. I wanted to own them and be owned. I wanted...

Using the extreme as a tool for living words. Something I stumbled upon yesterday was using the extreme living of a word as a clear indication of what it means to actually live a word. The reason why I say clear indication is because it wasn't really clear what it means to live a word. So perhaps you can see why it would make sense that the extreme version of living of a word would make it clear. Because its extreme, it is obviously is what it is. First though, I had to be clear about what is my mind programming. So when I am clear about that, which I can see and understand thanks to my experience of practicing, then it occurred to me how I live and create something like I had in the past. When reflecting on my past, I saw how I indeed lived the word fully, or you can say extremely. Let me share some of my personal examples. One example is when I would play like a prank involving sneaking up on someone. I would go all out with the full intent and purpose on sneaking up on som...

There has been some interesting things I have been discovering the past 2 weeks. And I am ready to share it. So the words understanding, compassion and sympathy. There have been two notable people who I knew in my life who lived these words within their voice. Where when they spoke to me, its as if all my barriers came down. Because I felt and believed that they saw me, that they were willing to understand, to not judge, to hear me, that they saw me. You could also say they lived kindness and consideration in those moments of speaking. Like when they asked “how are you?” Those simple words that we hear all the time, but when they said it, MAN, that was real, or I felt it like a punch in the gut. It oozed from their voice, their sound. So recently too, I uncovered the same point for me. For me to live kindness, sympathy, compassion towards myself. Where I can speak to myself and say how are you? With the same tonality or sound. I repeat, with the certain sound or...

My plan with this blog is that I will revisit each day and add a new point. - 4/23 Update: 5/17 I have been doing video logs almost everyday in order to practice speaking. See me here: https://www.youtube.com/user/yoganb7 For these days I haven't been updating this blog. But today I am adding a relevant/awesome point to read. Check it out below. Living Words: Living words are words that I am able to live in any moment, in this list are words that I am in a process of definition and redefinition, and of actually, practically & physically living. ->Helpful ->Curious (So I created a document of living words about a week ago from today. This was created as a response to a very specific moment where I felt distraught like my whole world was falling apart, and I knew how I felt wasn't the real me, and my demeanor wasn't the real me. In that moment a cat was meowing. I had the choice to go check on the cat and make sure it was okay, or to continue with w...