Yogan's Journey to Life

yesterdays blog: https://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2019/01/day-685-reacting-in-worthlessness.html Continuing with yesterday's point on Worthlessness in me while looking at how it relates to being Comforted. So as a child growing up in worthlessness, I didn't seek to change the worthlessness directly, because I didn't know how, I didn't have the tools that I have now that I learned from Desteni ( www.desteni.org www.lite.desteniiprocess.com ). So what gave me a momentary pause or distraction from feeling worthless was feeling comforted, and being comforted. Now looking at how this developed over the years its interesting. I remember some of the first crushes I had on women, when I was like 9 years old, that it was with girls in my class who were nice to me, and paid attention to me, who seemed like nice people. So I was being comforted in that moment. And it was very specific, like the smile of the person, making feel that I was being accepted and welcomed. ...

I had the chance to open up intimacy as an expression within myself, and something interesting opened up within that. So I had recognized that what I was experience was Intimacy and I had a question about what is this? So I decided to look inside myself and check. As a TIP, when I look inside myself if I have trouble what I can do to help me is to tilt my head down with the intention of kind of like looking inside me. So in this moment I saw that I felt good in my torso area and i felt pain in my arms and legs. It took me a little bit of time to double check and keep rechecking because it was rather strange to see how I felt something negative as pain in my arms and legs as energy, and I felt good in my torso, starting from where my legs and arms end meeting the body. So the torso includes the waste, chest area, head too. The Intimacy experience in my torso didn't fluctuate as energy so much, whether it actually was or wasn't didn't matter in the moment, because I could cle...

This Eqafe interview: https://eqafe.com/p/compassion-gives-you-your-life-back-life-review Helps me to understand this 'Passion', this 'Anger', this 'intensity' that is not a positive experience within me, where I am focusing on Existence, on what is best for all, on the problems in the world and the solutions I see we can do. By focusing on the ALL of Existence, I am not looking for my positive experience, my energy, my mind, my thoughts to participate in them. How I found this interview was by going to the Eqafe search bar and typing in what I was interested in, in what question I had. So I searched for 'Anger' to find perspective on this Anger within me that was not positive and it relates to when looking at the World, the best for all that can be done. The way I would describe it is that I am putting myself into action. I am writing my blogs, I am doing what I can online, I move and act and contribute to bringing forth the world that I want to...

New Audio Recording describing an Experience I had today, and why I stop emotions Divided into two parts.  Part 1 Part 2

So I am walking a process now, specifically with loneliness. It will be a process meaning this is something that won't change instantly, and I plan on doing several blogs on this point, at least 3. So right now, today, I am using the support of the Eqafe interviews. Specifically from the Atlantean series: Loneliness: Why does it Exist? - Atlanteans - Part 127   So my plan is to write out my realizations, insights, and self-reflections here that I had today, and to do so for tomorrow or the next day which I will also be listening to the next part in the series. Doing this I will give myself time. So for today, these are my points. I see how indeed loneliness is an emotion that is defined as "it is not okay to be alone." Meaning that I have lived this as it being alone is something negative. This means that I have indeed been feeling negative when I am alone. This also means that when I would interact with people, that I did so within the desire to flip this polarity from...

So I just listened to Why Your Weakest points are your Greatest Strength life review. I was searching on Eqafe for interviews on Decision. And the title of this interview caught my attention. What I heard shocked me. I am shocked by seeing how the mind has been secretly subverting and compromising me as a being. And all of this without me being directly aware of it. But now, thanks to this being in this interview, I see directly now how the mind has operated, what it did, and what it has kept from me. So now with this understanding there is nothing that can stop me from taking these parts of myself back. I highly recommend everyone to listen to this video because it will help you to become strong again, and improve your overall life. We often wonder why we were more confident, assertive, and sure of ourselves when we were younger. This interview helps you see why that was lost. I was obviously ready to hear this because I was searching for support in making ...

 So I listened to an interview. I was able to relate to the exact words shared in the interview, and I would like to share my experience https://eqafe.com/p/lost-your-true-self-life-review So because of the interview, I have made the decision to be myself. Be myself meaning that I will contact everyone I have ever met, and anyone else that I can meet, and test out who really sees me, and understands me, as I express me who I really am. With those people I can build a relationship with. I already know that I am a really great person, I enjoy myself immensely, haha. And I learning/doing by being myself, and seeing how people respond. I am learning that what I called friends was something shallow. There are particular people that see me, its not about friendship, its just about how someone sees you. Its strange, but its also clear, and perhaps easy, now that I see it. So I know what I need to do know. Just be myself and meet as many people as I can. Out of that just see how they r...

I listened to the Eqafe interview The world is what I say it is - Life Review, and I was reminded of something I did earlier this week. So if you know Bernard, and if you don't you can start to know him through his words on the blog: Creations Journey to Life. So if you know Bernard, well, I didn't know him personally, but I did read much of what he shared online, and we did chat a few times. Well, we were chatting, and he was asking why I had stopped writing some series of blogs and I told him that I thought I was experiencing or becoming something harmful. So he said that all thoughts are lies. So I am the kind of guy where if you give me a rule or statement I will test it out. So this past week I lived that statement, by reminding myself that whenever I would be thinking something about me or someone else or about anything, how what I thought about, was a lie. I bring this up because this life review I just listened to reminded me of that. So this life review was about...