Yogan's Journey to Life

Getting Haircut, man all those fears and insecurities from the past were still here. Owning my haircut, living Strong Yogan, Strong me, So I got  a haircut, and I did have those fears arise, including like whether other people like it or think its weird. So what I had to do was own it. Because some people did compliment on me on the hair, but still I had fear, so its only when I like own it and as well own my own expression with my words and body and whole self. Because hair is just one part of me. The rest of my expression the rest of me is still here. I am still me. Its just that this me has a new haircut and the haircut is fun, i like it. Its creative, it was done by an artist essentially who loves cutting hair and enjoys it. So I'm glad that she was a part of it, that part of her expression is a part of my hair and so me now. When I saw own it, I mean that in a moment I literally just like took off my hat and be like okay this is me, and then focus on my expression, being...

So I had a moment where I was told by someone else that I am patient, comfortable with myself, I am at ease, very honest, courageous, don't mind being embarrassed, SO I was never told I was very honest before. It floored me. Its amazing really. I consider it more than a compliment, I don't know what to call it. Being seen like that, and being seen, means so much for me. Plus, I never really Saw myself in that way from the perspective of the eyes of another person. So now I can. Its weird. I can see myself as an honest guy. Same with being courageous. I didn't/don't see myself as courageous in walking process. And I initially downplayed that, saying how I am just walking process and how it is just that. And again, seeing myself through someone else's eyes gives me a grander perspective. That I am courageous. That I do face my fears. Hearing these qualities of myself from another person means more to me than anything. It's simply amazing. So the less...

Now, before I talk about Masculinity, I want to say first that in the grand scheme of things, on a very deep level there is no distinction between masculine and feminine, it doesn't exist. That being said, working on it on the everyday level is what is practical and using these words have their value, but by no means is man or a woman, or any person limited from LIVING these WORDS or EXPRESSIONS no matter what their body is. So lets get started. The strength of the Masculinity is something I have been living and applying thanks to a physical labor job I have had. Now, before starting the job, I already had the attitude, though my living and practice expanded within the job. Essentially it is pushing past all excuses, and all pain. Its about getting the job done. Its using your muscles. And I can see the difference between people who have it and who don't. The phrase,  "never worked a day in their life" applies here. Because people who aren't living as the mascul...