Yogan's Journey to Life

Hey Everybody. I found something really cool, that I know will really assist me in my life. And I can tell that this is just the beginning of something. So my aim in this blog is to explain this point clearly, as an introduction.   So I was sort of just looking at some points, and I started writing out what I saw. So what I realized at the end of this is how we can and DO take on a single word, when we express something, and not only when we express, but also just perhaps in any moment. But let's look at just this context of when you are communicating some piece of information TO someone. Okay? So this is the context. Now for this example, let's use some piece of information. You can pick your own for this example. So let's say that you are telling someone a story. Now it may be very helpful to picture someone else performing the communication, or it may be more helpful to picture yourself being the one. So you have to assess that for yourself. So this person is...

These are the four points that my mind tries its best to put pressure on me. 1. Sex 2. Money 3. Friendships 4. Relationships Let's see who comes out on top. For each I have my self stand. The following is where I stand with each: 1. With sex, I don't need it. I wouldn't compromise any other aspect of my life for sex. I would always choose something else over this, if it meant compromising myself. Sex is merely a pleasure point, and is a non-essential point. At the same time, sex is a tool, a way for me to explore my self-expression within a situation, which I have said, is non-essential. Therefore, in a way, it provides a space for seeing who I am, and practice self-movement. I wouldn't compromise myself whatsoever, in terms of getting a sexual partner, for the purpose of sex. I rather stick to masturbation, or sex with myself, because then there is no risk for such consequences as STD, as well as wasting my time with someone that is a waste of my time, and I...

Posting something I shouldn’t have. Writing something I shouldn’t have. Causing harm through writing something self-dishonestly and publishing it. Doing harm. Doing wrong. Wronging myself. Harming myself. Being evil. I am Evil Character/Self-pity Character “I am evil” and I feel self-pity, a “OH NO!” “I can’t be EVIL, I just can’t.” I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I posted something I shouldn’t have. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I wrote something I shouldn’t have. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I am causing harm through writing something self-dishonestly, and publishing it. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I am doing harm. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I am doing wrong I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think adamantly I am wronging mys...

So Im interrupting my blog series for THIS. VERY IMPORTANT POINT. Am I walking process for me? When I ask myself whether I compare doing things FOR ME, VS. Doing this FOR ANY thing else. I self-honestly choose Me. Do I help this person FOR ME, or for them? FOR ME. Do I wake up FOR ME, or to save the world? FOR ME. Whatever I place in this spot: Do I do THIS for me, or ________? FOR ME always WINS. But am I LIVING THIS? NOoooooooooooOOOOOoooooOOOOOooooooooOOOOOoooooooo I notice how even just 5 minutes ago, how i was doing something FOR SOMEONE ELSE, for the purpose of BEING THEIR FRIEND, which is COMPLETELY self-dishonest. AND IT WAS AUTOMATIC. I had to literally slam my hand on the table and yell NOOOO!!!! So I literally had to take action to stop myself in the moment in Acting that way, and ALIGN myself to doing this FOR ME. In addition, I had also seen something that would be done FOR ME, but I was HESITANT, I DID NOT ACT IMMEDIATELY. And so it WASn't...

Who I am I lived a very specific life, like I am sure everyone has lived a very specific life. When I look at my life, my mind automatically compares my life experience to those of others. When I self-honestly check this however, I know, always that everyone is the same, and our life experience is in essence the same. Now, I cannot really know the life another has lived, that is for him/her to know. To share my life experience is a step I must take. I am an innocent being. I have wholeheartedly accepted all of the advice and knowledge that my primary caregiver has given me. She has always been there for me, both my word and action. I naturally trusted her and that trust was rewarded in certain specific ways. So as that trust was rewarded I trusted her more. So that with each new knowledge point I always was more willing to accept it. I did have fears, very specific fears. I did face them directly as a manifestation of myself. I always wanted to find people like me. I wanted to cre...