Yogan's Journey to Life

 The mind is dumb. The movements it makes is fruitless. The stories it conjures up, for naught. The reason for its existence, vile. Either vile for its act of slavery, or vile because the human being is so vile without the mind limiting it. Vile either way.  Compare that to physical living. Empty mind. A physical body, a physical form, a physical life, with physical pleasure, physical work, rest, purpose, movement, creation, play, communication.  Giving life all physical bodies everywhere. The life of dignity, access, creation, self.  Oh how the self of the mind has taken over, the self. Like an evil twin, a mirrorverse hiding away the reality. How much of what is said is part of the grand cover up, the grand conspiracy, the illusion over this reality, that all is normal and well. Hiding away our bodies. Real choices, real actions, made within breath and by one self. Not a blob of emotion and feeling. The mind is a voice whispering in your ear about all the problems and issues you have

 So in a way continuing from my last blog, except looking at it from a view of placing expectations on myself. So my parents places expectations on me as becoming a great spiritual teacher. The way they would treat me and talk with me, telling me directly about my great insights, and how in my astrology chart I was meant to uplift people spiritual and be a great teacher for humanity. My name Yogan was from a story book that was new agey about a guy sent to earth to do just that. So I accepted this narrative. Just like how we all accept and allow all that the mind has told us and said what we are, and also similarly what others tell us too, which the mind just repeats to us doesn't it.  Acceptance and allowance is what we all do aint it the truth? So preprogramming or not, as a child with the platform to speak and to observe, its very obvious the things people are going through. And since I was encourage to find the truth and to help others, that is what I did. Anyway could do that

 Light worker facial expression when they are wrong about their intuitive reading of someone else. I remember this face of 2 different people when they were wrong about me, and I corrected them. I am realizing that I have this same kind of reaction, and it must be some preprogramming for this lightworker in general realm. When I was wrong about the first girl I kissed, I read her completely differently, I was devastated. If I knew who she really was I would not have kissed her. People put on masks. And because I had so must trust and faith in my reading of her, I felt embarrassed when I was wrong. Like extremely so, then I suppressed my memories, wanted to drop anything to do with her including our mutual friends. Like wanting to start over from scratch. Reset. This is a pattern for me, stemming from this preprogramming of when I am wrong in my reading of another, and I am heavily invested in that reading. I act on it. I take it very personally when my reading of another is wrong. It i

 Strength.  All life is one and equal. All thoughts are lies. Every thought the mind presents to you to follow, is a trap wrapped in cheerful wrapping paper.  Here in this space I have absolute control over every word. Meaning others, you, people can't stop me. This is the power of writing. It is freedom. And morever through words, I can rewrite myself. I can live words into reality. Through firstly breaking through the plane of potential, the words structure gives me structure. That is why words are so powerful. It is the building block, like the dna of self. Through pictures and images, it can't describe self so well. And in fact, image is the mind's playground as well, so caution is advised. The desire to be what is best for all. The desire to move as a group. The desire to have friends. The desire to be recognized, to be seen. The desire to be liked. All desires are bullshit. Creation, pure creation of self, means one becomes something. Like matter, like an object. That

 Something I have is an effective ability to read others. What I notice is 2 categories of people. 1) obvious and 2) hidden. Being obvious is when a person is saying whats on their mind, and acting with whatever their mind tells them to do.  Being hidden, is suppressing the mind, and instead showing another image to others. The mind will eventually spill out. And the degree or skill of suppression varies. Some are experts at it, usually out of necessity for work or daily life. Since every person is born an innocent child, for a person to develop a mind conscious system that is so disharmonious with the needs of everyday life, they must have gone through an abnormal and abusive living situation as a child. Picture bullying, being beaten up, raped as a child, or any other horrible, painful, treatment by others: adult, other children, teachers etc...  The mind develops under these conditions. Naturally one such conditioning is anger or rage. Because to protect ones body or self, one uses

 I finally get what the Living word is, in the context of my life where I haven't been speaking or writing much for fear of upsetting other people, or "interfering" with their process.  So here it is, the definition, or what it includes as part of the definition. Whenever you speak, write, as what is best for all, as oneness and equality, it is the moment of you manifesting yourself here in the physical, and the nature of manifestation is that of power and the ability to effect change on reality and others. Side effects include clarity, health, as well as moving process along for everyone as a whole. The sole responsibility we have is to speak/write as what is best for all. To keep doing it.  One of the personality traits that I have that has been holding me back is the desire to define myself according to the results of the physical. Results are stupid. Because Results are an accumulation of so many things, including that which is not in my control. My ability is mine, a

 Speech and words are a responsibility. Are we making sure we are present with every word? Are we listening to make sure that who we are is aligned with oneness and equality, by checking if the mind is overtaking the moment. Do we acknowledge the mind? Or do we deny its existence? The mind's pollution as Thought, as emotion, as feeling. Such a simply formula. Breath and stop the mind. Be here and express. Forgive to release. And keep living.  Its monumental how important and drastic such a move is. To be labeled a heretic, a wierdo, a pariah. Attacked on all fronts. Yet ironically, what allows the mental stability, and fortitude to withstand such an attack, is the very reason why are you are attacked. You are practicing the birthing of self from the physical. The process of ending the mind, and starting to live as life as the physical. The layers or the standing as life.