day64- writing
I am in a mass amount of work. Writing this out, I feel calmer like I can complete my work. I have several things to account for and complete throughout the next 9 days. Taking deep breaths helps me focus. I can feel the blood rushing to my brain, in slow, steady beats. The fear of failure. I allowed in a moment long ago, to participate in the fear of failure so completely that I never wanted to try again. I never wanted to stand up. I felt I was nothing, powerless. There is an element of not knowing- the fear of not knowing, whether I would succeed or not- and this scared me. Breathe, be here, and direct myself. These were words I repeated over to myself, until I lived it and stood up. Accepting and allowing even one thought is to accept and allow the mind and to give up directive principle. Always stand as directive principle. Breathing helps to discharge what energy has its hold of you. Though breathing cannot replace you standing up and taking directive principle. This ...