Yogan's Journey to Life

Peace above all. No more relishing in anger or revenge. No more violence. An active peace, a constant peace. A constant step by step movement towards peace for everyone.  Living practically in such a way to mathematically guarantee peace on earth. Living peace as myself as no resistance and complete acceptance of what is here. In a way, I am already living the end point that I wish to manifest through my practical living. I live peace in what I do, what I speak. I let go when there's no point to hanging on. There's no point to hang onto anger, revenge, jealousy, sadness, pity, frustration... What would be the point of that? It wouldn't be for peace. I found that I was addicted to anger, to revenge and all the other negative emotions. When I had the proper excuse I would become anger, and express it, receiving a sort of high. I would instigate conflict with those around me. I would probe and push people's buttons. I enjoyed it. I even enjoyed self-pity, and playing the...

I don't want to live.  I feel happy. So here's what came from my mind. So these words came up when I was giving myself the opportunity to see what is going on inside my mind. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the words 'I don't want to live' within and as me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the words 'I feel happy' within and as me. I do not need to be thinking I feel happy- If I was truly living, being here and expressing myself I would not need to be telling myself that I feel happy. This was a reaction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the backchat as 'I don't want to live' to be connected to the backchat 'I feel happy.' I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate the feeling I call 'high' to the backchat 'I feel happy.' I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the feeling experience known as high within and as me.  When and as I am feeling 'high...