Yogan's Journey to Life

Fear or Paranoia of Strangers: this may be the cause/reason for the existence of introverts = fear of stranger. It started for me when adults tell me to fear strangers. I associated stranger =someone I don't know as someone to fear. So every time I would meet someone new, I WAS A STRANGER!!! So I feared them fearing me. So already I approached every new person in my life within an in-feariority, with needing to PROVE myself as someone who is not to be feared, who was a good person, who would not steal from them, harm them, kidnap them, which is what I was taught to FEAR that Strangers would Do to Me! This fear is the reason for my introversion. I am already in fear whenever I meet someone new, a stranger. And here is a fact: EVERY single FRIEND was ONCE a STRANGER!!!! So why are we teaching our children to fear people they don't know! STRANGER DANGER!!!! ANGER!!!! Why are the words so similar? Is this a coincidence or a purposeful design? Fear's purpose is to cause separ...

Visual Representation of Self-Judgement as a Voice in Your Head.   Situation : Tango Social Dance Backchat : I was so  stupid. I didn't know what to say. I didn't say the right things. I should have said different things. I also didn't dance as well as normally.  Self-judgment. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge how I speak, and how I act. When and as I see myself judging my speech or actions/movements, I stop and I breathe- I realize that it is unnecessary to judge myself for how I speak and act, and I need to allow myself to experiment, and to simply speak and act. I realize that there is no true wrong/right, in relation to speaking or acting, that they simply may lead to certain results, but I am not bad, nor is the movement or the speech bad. I may not simply get the results I want, and that is ok, and is good feedback for trying different approaches. I commit myself to experiment with ways of acting and speaking in creating ...

I am very confused. I do not like what I am feeling, or what I am participating in. But I am doing it anyway. Why? I feel like there is something inherently wrong with me. That I cannot do anything. I question whether I am just playing the victim. Am I? Why would I accept and allow this, why would I accept and allow such a hell for myself? There is something that I believed I could not do on my own- and I asked the mind for help. Now within participating with a group I am living this statement, however I have always existed in a group, everyone does; we all effect each other in every moment. I feel like I may just be ranting to get attention. Is this true? Do I just want attention from people, where I generate energy from attention and feel good? Within me I am feeling a response- energy building up and it feels pleasant- so I interpret this as a clear Yes. SO what now? SO obviously if I just run away, and If I were to come back I would still have the same react...