Yogan's Journey to Life

With certainty, everyone single one of us were once pure and innocent. This was at birth. We didn't have the personalities we live daily today. We didn't have a stressed personality, or depressed personality. We weren't running around trying to accomplish the work of the day in stress, or laying on the couch within depression. None of the emotions we participate daily existed at birth. At birth we just felt our bodies, we just existed. We just looked around, expressed ourselves through gurgling sounds. We moved and touched. So, our personalities were developed and created. They also didn't magically appeared as they are today in the version we have them right now. They evolved, they developed, they grew. They were built through moments of participation. So right now, we are alive and we have our personalities. And with equal certainty, just as you were born pure, I know that you will die. What I don't know is who you will be when you die. I can't say you will ...

Where does violence come from? How is violence created? When I had acted violently, it was either in a blackout, which means I wasn't aware of what I was doing,  or it was in awareness where I felt angry, pumped, energetic, rage, and I made sweeping movements and gestures that were not precise or exact but done to make a point or statement that I am not to be messed with. So it seems fair to say that violence is based within what you have thought and felt beforehand for a long period of time, because it both cases I was provoked by certain individuals over a long period of time of months or years. The exception to this rule is when violence is made purposefully, with cold calculation and precision. I haven't done this, myself, so I can't speak from my own experience, however when it is a very well known fact that soldiers that come back from war, who have killed people, are traumatized. They have deep emotional experiences, thoughts, and vivid memories that revisit them. ...

Here is a fact: take the most badass, meanest, toughest, scruffiest, harsh person on the planet. A person so harsh and violent that they would kill a child or baby just for fun. You take that person, and realize this simple truth, when they were born they were just a baby, and they were innocent and pure. This is true for all of us. This is true for the strongest of us, the smartest of us, the dumbest, the most "evil" and most "good." We were born equally in this way/regard. It is true though however, that we are not born the same. Some are born with mental or physical handicaps. Some are born with diseases. And our genetics do have an influence on us in some very unimportant superficial ways, and in some more consequential visible ways. Yet we are all still born innocent and pure. The concepts or character of being a badass, mean, tough, scruffy, or harsh doesn't exist in anyway whatsoever, at least apparently so. Any person that will murder, will be ...

Ok so when I was coming here to write this post, I was preparing to say how I fear losing someone because of who I am, what I do/did. Now, however, I mean I have faced this point before, so this time I am facing it, it is rather a point of excitement, because I get to see who a person is, in response to who I am and what I did. Will they react? Will they stand? What? And I am excited more because there is a chance, a chance beyond all odds, all chances, that this person will stand. And that chance that possibility, that something real could manifest as a person here in the flesh, is exciting. So its not really an excitement, but really an anticipation to what is to come. You could say I am hoping they stand, because I want everyone to stand, and when they stand I feel like celebrating. And its just something amazing to marvel at for a moment. And it then reminds me of who I am, and my stand, and to see the same standing in another making the same stand as me, is just amazing to see. I...