Yogan's Journey to Life

 I had the expectation from Life, from just existence itself, that I would get in the future, my partner. And I expected this because I desired love. And like a child throwing a tantrum, I withdrew from life when I didn't get the love I desired. Where my motivation for a career as a statistician was the money that I believed I needed to attain love. Because I saw myself having my career and money, and thus being able to attract someone cause of it. I have no doubt that its possible because of the nature of man, everyone wants love, and money is a good bonus.  Within withdrawing from life, from trying, I have found myself without motivation. Within believing no way can I get love from another. For this outcome I am grateful. For it would have been far worse if I had gotten the love I desired.  Its amazing how much love rules us all. The desirability of love. And how we choose love over life any day of the week.  I know real integrity would choose life over love. I kno...

So yesterdays blog was the intro for these series of blog covering this mind personality. https://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2020/03/day-813-dastardly-secret.html Today I'm going to start with the walking through the detail of the programming. So less fun description and more breaking down the exact programming. The overarching theme here is enjoyment that is bad. Like laughing at someone else's pain. Bullying others. Being happy when others lose. So the following memories are such moments: Stealing a bottle of bubbles from a fellow student in the 1st grade who won it for some achievement. I saw he was quite happy receiving it. I grabbed it and placed it in my bag. I could see he was sad/upset about it missing. The teacher tasked some students to search the desks/room for it. When they approached my desk, I said go ahead and search everything I have nothing to hide, and kind of did this motion of raising my arms and then crossing it over my chest. I felt a sense of ...

Video Games about managing money and the economy.   Tropico 4 and Simcity were games I played that taught me aspects about our economy. How people in charge need to make sure there is a positive flow of money. What is interesting though is that as the population of a city increases the number of jobs need to be increased otherwise you will have unemployment. If there are people without jobs, they won’t receive money. And if they don’t receive money, they will turn to a life of crime. So the best way to combat crime is to make sure everyone has a job. In the city though, the population is always increasing because people are moving in and people are having children. So in the game, I am forced to continuously make up jobs for people to do, even if there is an overflow of money already. It would be great in this game if I can have people share in doing the same jobs that already exist, and equally receive the same amount of money for less work. Because in reali...

Let us look at the human being. Within the human being there are layers of information, systems and programming. For example, breathing is an action that has specific information that says that the body must breathe. This kind of information is on a deep physical level, one which you can't easily or readily change. You can see for yourself, if you try to hold your breath, your body will force you to breathe. Also you can see how you don't have to pay attention to breathing for it to happen. Probably 99% of the breaths you have taken you weren't even aware of, right? You can consider too all the innumerable actions and movements the body has that you don't consciously make happen, such as your heart beating, your digestive system, your temperature regulation, your hydration system, waste system, cleansing system, muscle repair, cell birth etc... Granted however, you do have an influence on these systems both directly and indirectly. So evidently there is much informati...

So when I had a little time today, I decided to sit down and watch tv. Now the first channel that was on was Nickelodeon, and it was the middle of the day, so the programming that was on was a child's tv show. Now it is interesting that we call television shows, tv programming... Do you see? You are being programmed? So I hated what I saw on tv, and especially what I heard. But this is only because I know better now, however, growing up watching tv, I would watch these types of shows daily hours on end. For some reason I was attracted to this television programming designed for kids. Why? I didn't know. And yet, know as an adult, I can reference the same experience. It still has an effect on me, except now I know better. The main thing I hate about these shows is how it doesn't depict REALITY at all. The way the people act, how they act, how they treat each other, is very obviously insincere and fake, which you can even hear it in the voice. But if you don't have expe...