day 18 - I Played the Piano Tonight
--> Point: getting nervous when I think someone is listening to me play on the piano. Tonight I got nervous while playing the piano, when I thought someone is listening to me play. I looked towards the door for a moment, and I felt fear. I see I am afraid of someone getting angry at my music and thinking what I am playing on the piano sounds bad. This has happened before where I was playing the piano a few years back and someone asked me to not play for right now. I imagined someone was pressing against the door or right outside the door and listening. I then felt separated from my fingers and lost control of what I wanted to play next. I then felt frustrated as I had no control and I saw I gave up my control because I felt afraid. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous while playing the piano and having thought someone was listening to me play the piano. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear someone hearing me p...