Yogan's Journey to Life

I have been applying a practice of being Silent with points that I am working with, when I know that speaking about it would compromise me in some way. Its like I know or can tell that if I were to share this thing I am working on with someone or certain people, that it would disrupt me in some way. How I know? I suppose its the deep intuitive knowing. You just know. So the difference is that now I am doing that on purpose, I am listening to that knowing. And so I am being quiet about certain things, certain projects, with certain people. We could analyze here the practical reasons and the playouts of why and what happens sometimes. But I think I will leave that to you the reader to figure out and see for yourself. So how I see what i am doing is that its a technique, and its a way of living/doing things. And that it makes me strong/stronger. Because its about me implementing and creating points for me. And that very success matters. And taking responsibility for my word, my word...

I made a VLOG expanding on this topic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECSasrCeXPc I heard a very interesting remark from a person and it led me to realize a few things. One thing is how we may approach a conversation or a moment of SHARING with a person and we may be approaching it within an agenda of being Persuasive and being Convincing. I can see in myself the pressure to be Persuasive ever since I was told by someone that I should be more persuasive when I speak. I was told this in a work context by a superior. And I remember it being quite odd/significant. There is something pure/real when we or any person simply shares directly what they see and how they see it without trying at all to convince you. And I have gone through a time in the World System as the Job market and Money system in Trying to be liked, and persuasive in order to sell things, and to in a way convince others to make peace or to be better. I can see in myself this pressure to speak in such a way where...

Silence I can become very quiet. I can sit and listen to someone talking to me, as long as they are talking. And I can sit with them in silence. I have never done this before, but I would find it quite enjoyable. That I would live/be with someone, and we would never speak, yet we would communicate without words. Now that I went through a personal journey where I spoke and expressed me, I am looking what is required of me. Meaning that what the moment requires of me, whether it is to speak or not to speak. So to again be silent. And its simply based on what the moment requires. Its funny that I have a slight to resistance to not speaking. It's only slight. I find that I can drown my thoughts in silence. That the silence is all pervading, all consuming, a never ending dark pool of liquid. I have heard some people in my life say that to be silent, to not speak would be a torture, something that they can't do, and would lead to great stress and anxiety. I have s...

Visual Representation of Self-Judgement as a Voice in Your Head.   Situation : Tango Social Dance Backchat : I was so  stupid. I didn't know what to say. I didn't say the right things. I should have said different things. I also didn't dance as well as normally.  Self-judgment. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge how I speak, and how I act. When and as I see myself judging my speech or actions/movements, I stop and I breathe- I realize that it is unnecessary to judge myself for how I speak and act, and I need to allow myself to experiment, and to simply speak and act. I realize that there is no true wrong/right, in relation to speaking or acting, that they simply may lead to certain results, but I am not bad, nor is the movement or the speech bad. I may not simply get the results I want, and that is ok, and is good feedback for trying different approaches. I commit myself to experiment with ways of acting and speaking in creating ...