Yogan's Journey to Life

--> I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resent my responsibility to act and do what is best for all always. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be absent from my responsibility to always do what is best for all. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate my responsibility to do what is best for all. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to kill my responsibility to myself and all life as myself, to always carryout what is best for all, always. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore what is best for all when a moment presents the opportunity to do what is best for all. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fight with reality as an equal as myself, to not work with myself as reality to bring about a world that is best for all. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire a woman’s touch more than my commitment to stand as what is best for all life...

--> Mwuhahaha Looking over my behavior this past months, I see I have been correcting my behavior to be what is best for all, through my memories and beliefs that were existent within me. I was not here in real-time, I was essentially a memory. So I patterned and placed my behaviors as programs to be lived. I justified behaviors based on certain reasons that came up within the moment. Since I was not here, I was simply an outflow of my thoughts on what I should do, instead of equalizing myself here as the physical and start from a one and equal starting point with existence and this physical body. I recall words that would pop in my mind as I wrote as if memories of what I have decided was good to say. I have in my history before Desteni been collecting thoughts, and points of knowledge and beautiful and wise sayings or points to tell people. I would then speak them out of memory. I did not start from a one and equal starting point to investigate the messages but trusted them ...

--> cool pic So its cool I have taken more responsibilities. I feel afraid of failing at my new responsibilities and what consequences may rise. For example if I allow myself to not be a proper buddy. I realize I have the proper support to ask questions from several sources and so there is no excuse. I am able to do this, so simply breathe and walk it. Same with school, breathe and walk it. No excuses, I only have one life. I am in a cool position so lets see what we can make of it!! I started this behaviorist journey to life blog, as in naming it, after I realize the magnitude of this message for everyone.             Im walking separately a thesis point where I will get the chance to study what I found with myself and behaviorism in greater detail. This may involve a literature from many different disciplines in psychology. One point is how we have allowed aversive emotions where we think oh no, this is feeling...