Yogan's Journey to Life

I am not a parent. I don't have any kids. But I am worried.... So to explain why this is, I will start with some of my experiences the past 7 months. I have been working at a Sudbury school with children ages 6-12. Now, perhaps a few people in the world can relate to this, but it feels as if some dormant unconscious parental fear has been activating within me. Almost like a programmed put there by nature within all of humanity. But in my case, I am not a father, so this worry I am experiencing is being triggered through the role/position I have been in, where I do watch out for the children's safety. For parents it might seem natural to feel this way. However, because of my life experience, and so frame of perspective, I know that this worry/fear I am experience is anything but natural. Logically, it makes sense to experience worry and fear if your environment is truly threatening. Which if we look at the genetic history of humanity, there were periods of time, not so long ...

The most significant moments today was speaking with my dad. I spoke clearly and effectively. I was correcting in real time my reactions, identifying any quantum reactions, what they consisted of and releasing them. I attribute being clear within myself, grounded, knowing who I am, as why my communication was so clear and effective. So one question is what do I mean by clear and effective? So my dad did have questions and disagreements, but I immediately addressed them and explained my point. You see because there is no one magical phrase, sentence or word, that is going to explain what you mean, like "Love." That's not how reality works. What you need to say, is something dependent on what the other person needs to hear, because what information is already stored within them, and what they need to hear is what information that is MISSING within them, so you're just filling in the spaces like in a jigsaw puzzle. I attribute how I lived today to all the efforts I did...

So this blog will be from a guys perspective. So hi, I'm male, haha. Even though this topic will cover girls, as seen from my perspectives, I invite readers to switch girls with guys, to see if the same patterns exist within you, even if you may be female, or homosexual/gay. So I am 24 years old, a male, and I identify as a male, and as heterosexual. So that's really like THE word that defines and has defined much of relationship to females/girls in general, "SEX." One thing I can identify right away, is that it is about my beliefs and ideas, not about the actual physical act of sex. I have only had sex a few times, and only had sex when I was 18. So from about the time in elementary school when I first saw GIRLS as something special, unique, interesting to the time I was 18, there was no SEX. So its not really at all about sex. Instead, during that time period, I would think, fantasize, imagine conversation with some specific girls, and would have desires and f...