Yogan's Journey to Life

So today I experienced something unusual. That is thinking about my diet, and some other things, such as about my dog. When I would start thinking about things, this would create non-existent problems. So I am creating a flag for this generalized thinking that occurs with seemingly random things, such as with my dog or with food. What I notice within this thinking is that I would start to feel emotional, mainly sad and worried. This would lead/fuel a greater motivation to think more about these things and correct these problems, which before were non-existent. What I notice in general about this specific kind of thinking is that it relates to fixing problems. So I would create a problem in my mind, and I would then think about how to fix it. This would lead to a panic, where I felt worried, scared. Within this panic and thought, I would try and fix things, but really be feeding and validating the non-existent problems. I notice this generally happening in the world in Veganism/Ve...

My A. saying that he’s the best. I feel angry. I feel my blood rushing through my hands and feet, my heart pulsing. My breath is shallow. I feel like shouting. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel my blood rushing through my hands and feet, when I am angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel my heart pulsing when I am angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to breathe shallow when I am angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel like shouting when I am angry. When and as I see myself feeling angry- I stop and I breathe – I realize that other people do not take anger well- I realize that when I am angry, I don’t really know what I am angry about specifically, I just feel it and act instantly – I realize that I don’t know where my anger comes from- I realize that the adrenaline I feel, is not good for my heart and m...

yogan you don't know anything. I don't know anything. Stop no more.  Social comparison and Competition. I am looking at this topic for my thesis. I am also looking at an element of scarcity and how that combines/defines competition. I have had plenty of instances where I compared myself to others and derived meaning for the WHO I AM as EGO. Because realize- that any meaning that is defined in polarity, separate from oneness and equality is separation, is creating conflict, is addiction, is ego. Whenever we do not listen to another [Anna Brix Thomsen brought up this point recently- here ] through not being here, thinking, we are stating we are better than this person we are not listening to. Being a 'good listener' is an important skill for everyone to have. But it is also who you naturally are when you are here= because you are here and when another speaks= they speak here, because this is where reality is=its here. Anything that is here= is reality=is real=is physic...