Yogan's Journey to Life

Setting up defenses. So why is it important to be defensive when it comes to the process of walking the mind? And what do I mean by defensive? So the mind is in its nature, offensive. Meaning that it will bring up thoughts and reactions within you. It doesn't wait for you. So in that sense the mind is offensive all the time. You can see this for yourself. When you make a decision to do something, no matter what it may be, your mind will find some way to bring itself up in what you decided. So it is also true that there is no escaping the mind's offense. It is a guarantee that the mind will attack. So that is why it is important to set up and prepare a proper defense. Why? In various war games I have played there revealed important themes like the importance of setting up a proper defense, which meant placing/positioning your armies in the most advantageous positions, as well as building structures that would give you the upper hand. Because what is one thing that all of...

I have not been living in a healthy balanced manner. I expected/believed I could focus on only one thing- my thesis- and ignore the rest. Within this binocular vision (tunnel vision) I did not care for eating well, waking up early, sleeping well, breathing, writing, resting, exercising, sitting comfortably, sitting relaxed, sitting so that I could sit like this forever, being relax and focused while reading, understanding, and learning. My overall experience with thesis is fear; a panic that I won't be able to finish, that I will run out of time. I desired to show so much, and do great things with my thesis. In essence then, I desired everything to happen quickly. That I would be finished with the whole project in no time- that I would be already at the finish line. Instead of being here with the thesis. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to finish early without putting the time and effort into it. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to just...