Yogan's Journey to Life

A moment where my attention got zoomed in focus on something/someone. Here the mind is activating. It is clearly the mind. Thoughts started to stream: maybe they are doing some activity, maybe they are secretly angry at me. Maybe they are doing something intentional and its direct at me! I don't want to see this! I also can't help but look! It has caught my attention, i am looking at it. So I had obviously shifted into something. I had a thought/opinion about the situation about what to expect and about the scenarios that could be happening. I was emotional already. It felt real and it caught my attention. I notice this aspect of having my attention caught is a red flag for the mind. My attention was shifted. It became zoomed in and focus on this thing that was happening. I didn't want to look away, I wanted to pursue and look at it more, and at the same time I didn't want to look at it, but I couldn't move on. So all of this is obviously the mind, its cle...

FYI Cusi is a cat, and you will need to read through the entire document till the end. Enjoy! -yogan Sadness/Victim Character Cusi bitting my wrist. Say aloud “oh no, what did I do?” or “what’s the matter cusi?” or “what is wrong?” I feel sad. My neck drops a bit, I stare off into the distance, I am “still” “not moving” and too weak to really move. I just focus in on my sadness and I stay there. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to drop my neck. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be still, not moving. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be too weak to really move. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to just stay there within my sadness, with my focus and attention on my sadness, which is situated within my solar plexus. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say aloud “oh, no what did I do?” I forg...