Friday, January 29, 2016

Annoucement: Taking a new direction...

So this blog will be focusing on the topic:

What is it like to live through the eyes of a child on this earth?

Various topics will be covered. Some examples include child labor, children soldiers, children living in poverty, child refugees, child prostitution, and children sex trafficking, pedophilia as mental dysfunction.

Other topics that will be covered will answer questions such as:
What is it like as a child to have a family? To be raised by parents? To go through the education system? To grow up in the modern culture, including music, fashion, popularity, purpose, celebrities, and money? 

In essence the we will be investigating the following: what problems do children face today, and what solutions/options are available to them or how you as an adult can support them?

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Then and Now: Who am I?

So back then, around when I took this photo, before Desteni, I had trouble expressing myself. I would be known as the quiet and shy one. I wouldn't share what I thought, unless I felt confident that I would look good or positive in the eyes of others. So I felt I always had to say the right thing all the time. That I wasn't allowed to say the wrong thing.... ever.

Now, I am much different. I still have things to learn and expand upon, but in this area of myself, I do see obvious differences, as well as my process or history of change where I experimented and tested out my expression.

So, for example I would start sharing the blunt honesty of myself and what I saw as what is best for all and oneness and equality. Initially I would feel extremely nervous and panicked, yet I pushed myself to share what I saw. And I noticed that I would speak in quite a panicked, loud, way, because of the fears I had. Yet within it I did speak in stability as what I said, where I knew there was still a point that was real and me within it all. Which is what I can say is much more that what I would express before. So even though I was in these emotions, and sometimes not really easily understood, what I spoke was much more real and the real me, then the other times I spoke where I was clear coherent, and quite persuasive, and good sounding, because it was all planned and prepared beforehand. 

So as I practiced my expression I learned that most people don't take in this kind of blunt honest way well, even though it may be within what is best for all, and within the real me. So I had to refine my expression, as well as investigate my fears and release them. So over time I developed myself and my expression so it is more effective. It is certainly not perfect, but certainly much better than before.

For someone that doesn't know what Desteni is... it is the change we need in each one, where we actually achieve and become the points we always wanted to change and become into. Trustworthy, Honest, Caring, Respectful, Courageous, Decisive, Strong, Reliably, Steady, Gentle, Relax, Calm, Insightful, Perceptive, Focused, Disciplined, and most of all... doing/being what is best for everyone including yourself, not just yourself only.

Being my utmost potential would be the ultimate satisfaction, and then sharing that to others, and creating that in the world for all to see with these talents/aspects as me.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... self-forgiveness for

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of being attacked and hurt by someone's words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of arguementative, attackative, aggressive, angry people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of someone becoming arguementative and attackative in response to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of sharing, speaking, and writing, because I am afraid of someone being arguementative, attackative, aggressive in response, and I fear that those responses will hurt me emotionally, where I react with feeling inferior, hurt, belittled, feel less than, pushed away, isolated, alone, dumb, useless, worthless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame someone else for how I feel.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the words that someone else spoke or wrote for making me feel a certain way.

The Frogiveness Frog, for Self-Frogiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry at myself for feeling inferior, hurt, weak, less than, dumb, worthless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior, hurt, weak, less than, dumb or worhtless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear feeling emotions like inferior, hurt, weak, less than or dumb, because I fear appearing weak, vulnerable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become angry, aggressive, because I fear appearing weak, vulnerable, because I fear that this could lead to my death. 

When and as I see myself feeling afraid to share, speak or write - I stop and I breathe - I realize that my fear that someone will behave aggressive, agruementative and attack, will reveal my emotions of insecurity, vulnerability, and thus I will react with anger and become aggressive, argumentative and attackative myself- I realize that I have nothing to defend, or fear from, as my words as my sharing stand on their own, perfectly stable.

I commit myself to when speak, writing, sharing, to actually create what I am saying

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Make me special

When I judge someone as special, I fear doing something they disapprove. I wish to be in their approval.

Also, I see them as someone that I can abuse and treat badly sometimes. And that I can abuse and treat badly others that are not them. For many people, family is like this. You treat your family both special and also horribly. You both listen to them and seek their approval, and seek to annoy them. Such is the life for many people. Can life be better?

A better life is when we include all people in our consideration where there is a freedom within equality. Where you don't seek family approval, but instead live in a way that is truly in harmony with ALL, including yourself as you are part of all.

All means all plants too, and all animals, and Earth and existence, as well as people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not make everyone equally special, and so realizing special is an illusion, and instead a harmony and balance with existence is needed.

Friday, January 22, 2016

Being Positive

What does it practically mean to be Positive in this world, in such a way that it supports oneself as well as everyone else?

So this means for example, always looking for the solution to problems that exists, that one encounters, and assist others to see the solutions that exists in the problems they face.

It also means being proactive, meaning that when one encounters the problem and sees the solution, that one immediately moves to manifesting that solution into reality. That it doesn't just stay within one's mind as a thought or an idea. That one actually creates it and makes it so.

It also means that one doesn't participate within problems and create more problems that don't exist. Instead one is able to analyze problems, deconstruct problems so to understand them, because the more one understands the problem, the more one understands the solution. Because the solution is found WITHIN the problem.

To be positive in this world means that when one encounters a challenge or opportunity, one tackles that challenge, and takes on that opportunity. That one is constantly exploring and expanding, and challenging oneself. That one sees challenges, opportunities as things one desires, so one purposefully seeks out such points where there are none right here.

To be positive in this world means that when one is faced with something that is usually considered or seen as negative, one finds the lesson within that. Meaning there exists no negative point. Simply all negatives are a lesson or something to learn, or indicating a change that must take place within self.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Embarrassing Story - Anorexic?

So what I am about to share may seem like an embarrassing story. So I will start it out just like that.

When I entered college I had a belief that there are people that don't need to eat to live, and to become this way is fairly easy, if one is very spiritual. From this belief, I started eating less and less. I would push myself to what they call fast. I would let myself feel the hunger, and not act on it. So over time I forgot about this belief and doing this. Instead I was focused on studying and the stress. And I would skip meals, or wait to eat, because I didn't have enough time. And I found that I stopped feeling hungry, and I had to actually remind myself to eat regularly.

So this has still affected me until today, where I have trouble feeling hungry. So based on what I did in college, I believe that I conditioned myself to suppress/ignore feeling hunger. Because I wouldn't respond to it. Similar to an anorexic person. So something I started doing now was eating more quantities.

I found that eating more quantities is bringing back the hunger within me, and I am feeling stronger and more energetic. But I believe it will take a long time, years, until more changes occur, because the body needs to rebuild itself, which takes years to do.

So this was an embarrassing mistake, where I let a belief lead to consequences that affected me for 7 years. And only now am I slowly changing it. I also believe that many many college students and other people are also starving in their bodies in the same way. Some because lack of money, others because lack of time, and others because they want to be skinny because they believe that is something more beautiful (and me to become someone special). For all of these people, their bodies are suffering, and it will leave consequences that will most likely affect their entire lives, because it is difficult for normal people to change their habits. Luckily I have desteni, and the support of the people in changing myself.

Now I am eating consistently, large portion of foods.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

You have Cow Eyes

You have cows eyes.

Would you want to be told this?

It turns out that this was actually a compliment of beauty back in the day. Because if you ever see into the eyes of a real cow, it is one of the most beautiful things.  And back in the day, people were more connected to agriculture, and to cows and farms. For example, before the industrial revolution. about 90% of the population in United States worked on farms or agriculture. And today, less that 5% work on farms. So there has been a major shift.

People now adays have lost the presence of nature in their everyday life, and they have distorted views of the natural world. For example, calling someone a cow, is considered an insult. So is calling someone a pig. This shows how lost and separate we are from these animals.

Beauty itself has become distorted, where ugliness and beauty are tied to a creation that is outside of ourselves. Namely, the fashion industry, and beauty industry. We are told and shown what is beautiful, through Disney movies, through commercials, through which actors or actresses are hired, and how they are dressed and made to look. Real beauty as who you are, as your presence, has been lost and forgotten, and perhaps never known for all I know. Because can you lose something that is real?

So we as humanity haven't realized what is right in front of us, which is us, as the potential to create and so live in the world that honors every potential beautiful expression of who we are at our BEST!

Beauty is not within the eye of the beholder. Beauty is with Self, as Who you Are. Are you Beauty? Are you living your utmost potential in Every regard and aspect of yourself and in your life?

Dare to Be, what is Real .. Be-auty.

Find yourself within what is real, not in what is Fake.

Animals are more aware of WHO they are, and that is why they embody beauty.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Money Defines Me

So I saw this video and decided to do a post on this subject.
So within me I have identified the same point, and it is a common point in people of today. Where how much money you make is something that defines and values people. This is a sad point. Because we miss so much on so many great people, and we miss out so much in life. Because for example, we believe that something has to cost money to be fun. When fun is here to be had anywhere. You can have fun with objects, with nature and people, and it doesn't cost any money. So much becomes limited and put into a box within our minds through utilizing money as that point. We don't question this fully.

And many of us embrace this point fully, where how we act, how we look represents the value of money. We we may feel pretty or beautiful or handsome if we are wearing expensive clothes or expensive makeup, or hair products, or the opposite happens where we feel ugly and shitty for having cheap clothes, makeup or products. How limited is that?!

And then we alienate ourselves from people that are not from YOUR level of money, whether it is wealthy or not. We then start a war and a comparison game, where we bash on poor people, or rich people. And this determines who we choose to be friends with and who we choose to make a life with, or family with. And it is all justified and perpetuated by the idea of survival and having a good life through having money, or even the lack of it. It happens too where some people want to be poor and stay poor, because even that becomes part of their self-definition. This is madness!

We, as everyone are missing so much out of life, and all because of this one word, one point, money. Because of who we have defined ourselves to be when holding money, when earning money, when spending money. Because of how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to feel with money, whether good or bad. Because of what we think, believe and fantasize with money. Because of how we perpetuate all of this through our relationship with people, animals, plants, this earth, and our very own body.

For example, imagine what it would be like and who you would be, if all money disappeared. Like right now, the money you have is gone, and so is everyone else's. Who are you now? Because you only have yourself right? So who are you really? Does money really define you, and to what extent has it defined you? Would you change or be the same?

Do you want more out of this life, then just an limited experience of yourself that is defined by what is in your bank account? Do you want to know yourself, to know what it means to express yourself unconditionally? Do you want to know what it means to care, to support, to have meaning and purpose?

Investigate Desteni for support and assistance.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Working with Constructive Criticism

So I was presented with constructive criticism, and so I faced an old pattern where when someone provides critical feedback, I resist and react personally. So the correction is to listen to the feedback and try it out.

It is a simple point, yet the correction is not often applied by many people. To support others, what I do is to see what I am feeling, to breathe, and firstly agree unconditionally to try out what the person is saying. So within that I am clear and objective and honest. If I feel emotional or resistance, that means my breathing wasn't effective, so also my decision to stop wasn't effective.