Yogan's Journey to Life

So, I can easily open my heart and see how we should be with each other, which would be like us all being friendly, listening, understanding, and supporting each other. And so that vision is so crystal clear that I can see with my waking eyes. And that enables me to push for that vision/future by being that myself for others, and encouraging others to be the same way. Yet within that, my heart is fully invested in that, in those people I am with. And what happens is that people, or some persons will do something that is against that where they are stating they don't want any part of that. And really it is those situations that are when the person is completely agreeing with that and living that and then turns around and walk away from that. So it is that sudden change, that I could not have predicted or expected, that I want to say that I my heart can no longer take such disappointments anymore. Its too much. And so the question is how do I take it? How do I take the disappointment...

Netflix just released a netflixed backed movie starring Ana Kendric (from Pitch Perfect) which is called Stowaway. I wanted to discuss this movie and its meaning. So SPOILER ALERT, if you want to watch the movie without spoilers then do so, and then you can read up on my views here if you would like. So, the basics of the movie for those who don't care and just want it spoiled, is 3 people are going to mars, with 2 being researchers and one the commander. There is an accidental stowaway, which is a word that means someone who is on the ship unplanned for. In the movie it wasn't entirely certain if he was accidentally on the ship at least until a point. And the main thing is that the oxygen system is damaged and they only have enough for 3 people, not 4. That is the basic stuff. Now Anna Kendrick sacrifices her life to save the 3. And that is the part that is so cool about the movie. And that is the message of it. Because typically in this kind of movie and plot, what is racing ...

 So when I stand up to someone for something they do that is abusive, I do feel afraid. Its like a fear that they may go crazy and harm me physically. And I suppose being a bully is about instilling that fear. And when you do stand up, they may just back down. Potentially though they may kill you. Like in the case of people who fought for change and were assassinated like FDR and Martin Luther King Jr. I find that living in fear is worse than dying. I rather live a short life and live it well than live a long life in agony. One of the things bullies are after is attention and energy. So not feeding them attention is important. And at the same time quick decisive actions that state that the abuse is unacceptable. Because standing as that integrity brings peace for those involved, including within yourself.  It may not be easy to do, but it is the outcome that brings resolution. Because the abuse and violence must end, and we may have to pay a price for that. Yet our inner peace...

 Looking here in this moment, what exists as this moment. There is primarily me, the one who is seeing/observing everything and who I am determines what I am seeing/perceiving. Things like opinions, beliefs and bias is indication of the myself that is my relationship to things. And that relationships is not the truth. And it is my duty to clear up those relationships so that I can simply perceive the truth or what is really here.  The deeper and the more that I work on myself, on my mind, on my information, on my relationships, the more I know who I am, and perceive the truth.      We shouldn't hold people to expectations as a form of anger or blame. We must be able to accept the failings of others, so that we can focus on helping where we can. Keeping others to standards as a form of simply blame, instead of assisting practically through actions, is something selfish instead. In essence then forgiveness is not holding others to standards or expectations wi...

 There are a few moments or windows in life that are real. One of those moments is when you see how all is one and equal. That is something that you experience as yourself in the center of your being. If it would speak it would say: WE are one and equal. The WE cannot exist without the You and Me. And together is what defines who I am. And that is true understanding and that is how true living is accomplished. All else will fade away and be temporary. Only oneness and equality will stand, and that is the Destiny of all things.  And so stepping outside of these words. We are just people, man or woman. Yet our stories and our definitions, reflect our separation. Where words are used to say, that this is my life. Which is just further separation. What comes first? the self or the words of separation? The self obviously. And this separation is so painful and so destructive. Yet all of that destruction is kept away from self. Life as all as one as equal cannot be touched by the sep...

 So in a previous post I wrote about how I felt disappointed in other people and I felt I couldn't trust people. So, its necessary to trust other people, and if you feel disappointed its because you were holding that expectation of them, which again is not needed. In fact it would be a trap, where others encourage you to trust them or to believe in them. In a reality that is best for all, we can simply work with what is here in any given moment. We don't need to hold expectations on anyone. We simply can act based on what is here. So if someone does something against the rules then they can receive the appropriate response, whatever that may be. So something measured, simple, direct, and so common sense. It does not have to be personal at all, or emotional or dramatic. It is simple, emotionless, direct, supportive, and simply what is best for everyone in a physical way. This idea of relationships as these emotional centers or wells, that carry, hold, and store emotions is leadi...

 So in my everyday moments, that is what creates my experience. And the primary thing I can change is the moment. The basics is that I have to stop the mind, stop the energies, and the preprogramming within me. With it stopping there is silence. Have a look, if you can take any moment of your life, you can see how in any moment there is, there is either thought, emotion or feeling , with emotion being negative energies of emotions, emotions with negative charge, and then you have feelings which simply have that positive charge. And this is something you feel in your body no doubt. I have to emphasize that point because we are so disconnected from our bodies that many of aren't aware that everything is happening within our bodies. And so many beliefs are created that revolve around like a mental reality, another airy astral reality, or other dimensions, which is due to the power of our minds to simulate such experience through emotions, feelings and thoughts. Even these beliefs fall...

I feel hate and anger towards people. I feel hate and anger because of being betrayed, being lied to, being manipulated, being enslaved, being used. I suppose it would be predictable for someone to feel hate and anger towards people in response to facing such things from people.  And I accept that this is who I am now. Right now I do feel hate and anger towards people. I don't trust people. And I can change into someone different. Right now this is who I am, but it doesn't have to be who I will be. I do have the idea of how things should be. Something where we all are a family, where we are all happy and well. The value of life, the value of each person, the joy and merry of all people, of all life. I know its possible. I am just not that right now. So through time, through working with who I am now, I will change. I can do it. Anyone can. But it starts with accepting who I am now. I am now who I was in the past. I am this right now. I feel hate and anger towards all people, an...

 Body, Being and Mind. The Mind is trying to take control of the Being. And the Being Primarily exists through Words. The Physical, naturally doesn't use words or need words. The Body can be here without words. You can sense through your body directly. Through purifying words, you empower the being. You can express through the being. And Words must be faced, since the Mind uses words as thoughts to control the Being. We are living words as the Being.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry, nervous and anxious when other people are upset with me, and don't like me.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel angry and upset I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous and worried I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel scared of being judged I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the wrath of someone who believes I wronged them I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel anger to someone who I believed wronged me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that people can wrong me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that bad actions can exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that wrong can exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the mind can exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ...

 Recreating Myself.  Stopping all emotions and feelings from the Mind. Until there is nothing here as me. And this nothingness brings clarity. It allows me to create myself to be however I want. Except, the laws of creation allow you to only be equal to yourself. So who you are determines what you do. So if who you are is selfish then you can only create yourself to be selfish, its not possible to be selfless. However, that is why you must focus on stopping the Mind, so that you can change who you are.  The point of who you are for most people is non-existent. Because is it existent within you that voice that is you, and that will that is you that can create who you are no matter the situation, no matter the noise and distraction of your mind, and of your reality? For most people such a voice or such a will is non-existent, and they simply are listening to the words and instructions of their mind. They believe who they are is that very voice. Can you imagine that situatio...

 So something I seeing across my life is Hate. I see how hate has played a prominent role in the lives of all people. And specifically I see how hate acts like a virus and it tries to spread to others. By acting in hate, by expressing hate, it is also an act of trying to get the other to hate as well. Look at it. When you are face to face with hate, the temptation is to hate as well. And the 99.99% of us do in fact start to hate as well. So much so that this truth I am writing may be too much to face.  Something unique that I have lived was to bring forth an innocence into adulthood, where it was grown within walking a process of reaching that innocence deeply as the truth of who we All of us are beyond our adult programming. And what I faced is something common, which is hate. That is how we respond to seeing the solution, with hate. Jesus was murdered in hate. So I was hated as well. And so would anyone would presents a real solution to the problems we face in the world....

 Resonance   How everything I do its been programmed through Resonant Symbols.  So through the System of the Mind, what I do, and my perception of having choice, and my ability to do things, and how I do them, is determined by resonant symbols that hold within them all the memories and relevant points.    How do I correct this? From being one where I am living moment to moment according to the resonant symbols that are activated and present in the moment to moment, to one where I am instead living directly in the moment without programming, and that how I live is according to the principle of what is best for all. Being enslaved and trapped is not best for all, obviously. But I did have that thought of what if I just changed my resonance to one where I do what is best for all. The answer would include me being enslaved still, and not living, and actually not having any power or say at all. How can you change anything even about yourself, let alone others or this...

 I think I have a resonant response to bullying from when I was a child. And that response is deep and automatic. I basically do nothing when I am bullied. I don't respond, don't move, don't say anything. I know this isn't the best for all response. The best for all response, is something like speaking and standing with words of the message of oneness and equality and WHO I AM, like saying something along the lines of "We are ALL LIFE, we Are ALL EQUAL, and that is who I am, and what I stand for and what I commit my life to do. To find a way for us all to be supported and cared for, to correct the abuses and the wrongs. So I won't waste my precious time. If you want to be supported then I am here. If you need help changing yourself then I am here." Not saying anything is the worst option, because then you are basically saying you are nothing, you don't have a self, you don't stand for anything. That was very much the theme of how I was as a child. ...

 Humanity is dumb, is stupid. And so it requires forgiveness. To be able to rectify this situation of dumbness, we first have to forgive Humanity. We have to forgive the dumbness. And yes, Humanity is ignorant of its dumbness too. It doesn't know any better. But if it knew, then it would be sorry. So the right thing to do, and your duty, is to forgive and do what you can to help Humanity. And forgiving it, Forgiving Humanity is already a great help.  Everyone who can be a part of the solution, is needed and is helpful. So I forgive you and I forgive myself for being dumb. I invite you to forgive yourself and others.

 So, there is this statement that we cannot control other people, but we can control ourselves and who we are with things around us. So what I see within that is Fear. Because we can actually control who we are with other people, and so we can stand in a way with other people that does control/determine the relationship with that person. Control= Power= Responsibility. Being someone like Bernard, like how he was in his agreement with another person, which is who he is in a relationship based on principles that is openly agreed to and discusses, that requires having that Control, Power and thus acting from the knowing that you are responsible for the outcome. You do it, because you know it has an affect on all. You do it because you know that this shapes reality and changes the course of the future for this person and for others.  Power is scary, like real power. Real power is the kind of power that can only come about when one Realizes ones Responsibility. Power that is acted ...

 So another blog on the human mind/programming details using myself as the example.  One of the reasons why blogging is supportive is by having your programming out there in the world, it frees you. Because part of it is keeping it a secret. By saying that you have this issue, then people can't use it against you.  Fear can only work in the moment/here. Fear doesn't exist in the past or the future. You can only ever feel afraid now. The same with everything else really. The only thing that exists is what is here/now. So if you find yourself thinking about some future moment and feeling fear, then realize you are only feeling fear right now, and so all you have to do is to move yourself in this moment. Step out of the fear in this moment. And so don't think or believe that a future fearful moment will happen. I notice this type of thinking of feeling afraid of being afraid of like a future moment. So your in your mind thinking about how something will happen and how you wo...

 What Life is is everyone/all. And so Life does come first before any individual. At the same time you are equally important as Life. So what it comes first before is typically the Ego. So Life becomes first before you as ego or anyone else as ego. But Life as you equally comes first.  When you say how Life comes first, the egos will react. The egos will fight, they will say they feel insult, and they will attack you verbally. Because the egos places itself first, not Life first.  So having the Bravery and willingness to stand up and say what is needed to be said so that Life may be supported, and do what needs to be done so that Life may be supported, is critical. That is when living is real, when it is taking into action. I can feel the fear of what its like standing up. And as well the fear of facing someone aggressive and borderline violent. Violent with their words, and with their threats. Yet Life must stand unmoved. Life must come first. It may very well be the cas...

The only thing of value that exists is every single one of us. Living this statement actually means you have value. Those who are selfish don't have any value. This entire reality is built on the principle that all lives matter equally. And that is why at death you will see that only those who can stand as point, will have any access to what matters. If you disagree with me, your an abuser. Because what you are saying is that not everyone is worthy of care, of money, of support, of food and all and everything we need to become effective individuals that can care and support others in turn. Abusers are a common thing, and Abusers are irrelevant. To be an abuser is to be a distraction that is to be ignored. Because those who understand and support Life, need our attention. Isn't it funny how abusers want attention? I think its hilarious.  Just like how we stop our thoughts, we also stop the abusers. We ignore them. We don't give them any attention. Life need nourishment, need...

 Would you agree that being a person that is like has integrity and is motivated by that integrity and constantly does and says things based on that integrity and that is what drives that person's life, their decisions, is constantly pushing the limits of what they can do so as to live that integrity more? Would you agree that is awesome? I see having that clear picture of "that is how I should be" and living that way I am "accomplished." The integrity that makes sense for me is to live oneness and equality, to Stop the Mind, to Amalgamate with the Physical, to Practically Live a lifestyle and a career that contributes to this Process of Changing Man. Something I knew about since I was a kid is that We have to change as people, that everyone needs to work on that self-change and become something different that is better. And I could see that lack of drive as well as understanding of self-change. The lack of drive being even acknowledging that I should be changin...