Day 714 Flustered And Clumsy SF

Flustered and Clumsy
I had an energy experience and it kind of got me stunned/locked in position.

So I named the game. The names are Flustered and Clumsy. That is what I am feeling now as I write this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Flustered
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Clumsy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Flustered being afraid of saying the wrong thing
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Flustered with saying something stupid.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Flustered with coming across poorly
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel Flustered with sounding dumb to my new friends
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered while imagining messing things up with what I said and people uninvite me to a hangout, or I get ignored from future invites
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with imagining I am misunderstood or I say the wrong thing, or say the wrong lines.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with my body and imagining i don't have control of my body parts
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with my speech
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with how I stand and how I walk
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with introducing myself to new people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with shaking someone's hand and making eye contact and saying how do you do?
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with my abilities and capabilities
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with speaking on a phone interview
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel feel flustered when dealing with the unknown and meeting people I don't know.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel feel flustered with directing myself and my speech and who i am in the moment
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with directing myself and the moment I am in, and the people in the moment
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered in deciding what the moment should be, and who I should be.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with making decisions about the moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with making plans
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with making commitments/promises
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with directing my future
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with determining my future people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with creating my future experiences of relationships and intimacy
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with having self-value and confidence with people I know and care about
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with being me with the people I care about
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel flustered with gifting me a good life, one that's best for me, and best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy in my dealings with people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy in sharing myself with people deeply
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with being exposed for who I am with people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with being scrutinized, observed, and critiqued.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with gifting myself to another, with my time and my gifts/skills.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with being real with another
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with taking it slow and easy with another
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with getting close to another
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with listening to another and looking into their eyes
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with speaking from the heart
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel clumsy with being at ease with another in silence

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