Day 713 Today's Gift

I have been facing parts of me or a part of me that has been buried for a while.

And my response first/desire was to get it over with as quickly as possible.

This was a mistake. Its not possible to just get it over with NOW.

I tried to end it now, and it led to me suppressing the entire point

And there is great beauty as gifts of expression with this design.

Within my preprogrammed design there is within it my expression

It is me within it, and so I do need to release it and redefine it.

There is great beauty and playfulness and expression here locked within the design.

And the key to unlock it is to walk it step by step

Bit by bit

Piece by Piece

One step at a time

There is for sure things I have to redefine within me, to redirect it

I do have to adjust and change parts of me here within the design. I know it

But its not condemnation or slotted for total annihilation.

So I am going to be reacting

I am going to be in the design as it is activated in the moment, and I am going to have things come up that are not best for all. Yet within/between those moment there will be expressions and parts of me that have been locked away. 

I have to make peace with that fact that I will fuck up and say things that I regret, yet I also commit myself to work with each point as it is here in the moment, and to ask forgiveness and to LEARN from it, and DIRECT that one individual point.

I don't plan on keeping things AS THEY ARE. I am going to be getting better and being better with every moment. Slowly but surely

So I give myself this Gift.