The most important thing that I can offer existence is to show that its possible to live and exist without thought, emotion and feeling. To show what its like to no longer feel insulted, intimidated, scared, worried, love, hope, sadness, excitement. To show what it is like to smile for real, laugh real, spontaneously in the moment, unplanned.Like live words for real like openness, intimacy, bravery, sharing, caring, hereness, strength, standing firm, listening, considering, walking with

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Day 707 Another daily self-forgiveness April 4, 2019

So I took a neutral photo to see where I am at.

Now, a neutral photo could be like an amazing face, a really nice smile, but this is not, because I am going through points. So lets look at the points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future, to fear what's coming next
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear something bad is going to happen, to be on edge.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the next corner, the next chapter, the next turn on the river
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  worry what's going to happen in my relationships with people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear seeing some people go and leave
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear losing people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to conflict, and fighting, yelling and screaming
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  be possessed by fear, instead of being HERE and as MYSELF as relax, chill and READY for what comes next

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Here's a posed photo I did for FUN

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Some more forgiveness from my day
I witness some strange things. And I faced myself in emergency mode.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear ACTING and doing something, what I can do
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going to far, to judge myself for going too far.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist acting and doing what I can do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry about ego, looking bad, doing something that is bothersome for other people
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear disrupting other people's lives and what they are doing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear caring and fear having my heart broken

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Alot of errors and mistakes from my teammate.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel impatient
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel upset
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  feel irritated
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  feel tired
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear for my future career
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear for my future eduction
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear for my future work and financial stability
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making things happen in the future, which I can do NOW, and start working with NOW, in my present day to day.

I commit myself to devote time each day to working on the daily points, reassessing my actionable goals, how I am moving/developing, celebrating/recognizing my small victories, and seeing what are my potential paths, potential choices, potential points/paths that I can invest in, in myself and in my career.

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Looking at how things will go with certain people, I don't know
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not knowing what will happen in the long run.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to  fear not knowing how things will develop over time
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not knowing something
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust in me, who I am, the principles I stand by, so that no matter what happens everything is always cool, because I am best, or I correct/align to my best over time.
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