The Self is the key. You are the key. If you want to make things better, focus on yourself. Do you have a relationship with yourself? Are you able to hold yourself and know yourself? Do you know what you are feeling? Do you know what you are thinking? Are you here with yourself? Do you Know yourself?

Self is the Key. You are the Key. You have the power. You are the power. You need to know the power. You need to know yourself. You need to know who you are right now in this moment in what you are thinking and feeling. And you need to start stopping whatever it is that is not best for you. You need to start stopping that which is harmful to Life.

Be the Self that is Free from all limitation, pain, abuse, destruction, and full of creation, ability, and potential. You start becoming through self-forgiveness.

Would you like to have a relationship with Your self?

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Day 25 The Point of Feeling Nothing

So, the moment of Feeling Nothing.
The point where you get to where you Feel Nothing.
The place/space where you feel Nothing.

So the point where you feel nothing, is where you can see what you truly want. Why?

It is logical why. The logic is that if you feel something, and then you try to see what you want, then what you want will be based on how you feel. Consider.

If you feel hungry, thirsty, or tired, you will see what you want is food, water or sleep. But is that what you really want?

If you feel lonely, sad, or anger, you will say that you want company, to feel happy, or to get revenge. But is that what you really want?

Whatever you FEEL in this moment, will influence your answer of what you want. Can you agree with that? That there is an influence? Im not saying its bad, right or wrong. I am saying it as a FACT. Do you agree that when you ask someone what they want, that how they FEEL will determine to an extent their answer?I understand that some people have greater willpower etc...

Now the question I have is were you even aware of this? Were you EVEN aware that how you are feeling is determining what you DO. Like, when people over eat in order to make themselves FEEL BETTER?  Or when people over exercise in order to make themselves FEEL BETTER? Or when people attack other people verbally, in order to make themselves FEEL BETTER?

So can you agree that much of what we DO is based on how we FEEL right now?
yes? No?

So theoretically if we feel nothing then we do nothing? Is that true?

When I tested this I found that when you Feel Nothing, that in order for you to do something you need to move yourself. No longer are you motivated by what you feel. And the question here is what do you want?

Can you want anything when you feel nothing? What happens when you ask someone what they want when they feel nothing?

The point of nothingness is that it is the place where you can be the Real You. Because the answer you give when you are asked what do you WANT. that is the Real Want. What do you want that fulfills that NEED in your SOUL. That is something deeper. A real deep want, which leads to a real deep completion, and sense of Self. It leads to a real presence, a real fulfillment.

I mean, WTF am I talking about?

I am talking about something you may have never experienced. Complete and utter satisfaction with your life and who you are, as a part of everything. Because right now, everything you want is based on what you happen to Feel. Why in the hell do you even feel these things?

Why do you feel Anger?

Why do you feel Sadness?

Why do you feel Loneliness?


What happens when you address what you feel? What happens when you try fixing yourself by giving what you want based on what you feel? What happens when you fulfill the want of anger? Fulfill the want of Sadness? What happens when you do things that somehow fill the void of your emotions? What happens?

It doesn't work, does it?  How long does it work for?

Do you really think that the way to happiness is to do whatever it takes to get rid of the anger, sadness and lonliness? Become more sociable, become more agreeable, fight those people, fight evil, make other happy, do this, do that.

Is that really the answer?

What about what YOU WANT. What do you REALLY WANT?

Is this what you really want? To have everyone like you? To fight evil? Is this a full and complete life?

Who are you?

Where the hell did these emotions and ideas come from? Where the hell did you get the idea that this is what it means to be alive?

As long as you allow yourself to validate what you feel. As long as you do whatever the hell that it wants you to do. As long as you live for the emotions itself. You won't be able to live what you want.

All and every single idea of what you want, is not real. Because its based on who you are now, and who you are now is someone based in their emotions. That is who you are. Every time you think about what you WANT, you will be thinking based on what you Feel. Only when you get to the point of stopping what you feel, where you feel nothing and then you can with honesty see what you want, then that's real.

The Fact right now is that Humans make all their decisions based on what they feel. They feel good with these people. They feel good with this drug. They feel good at this job. They feel good.... Or they are scared of this happening, they are scared of not having money, they are scared of being alone, they are scared of what others will think.

Everything people do is based on what they are feeling in the moment. Are they horny? Are they hungry? Thirsty? Anger? Sad? Jealous? Afraid? That is how it is possible to manipulate someone!

Someone who doesn't feel anything can't be manipulated.

If you had a leader, or you were a leader, what would be the best leader? Obviously someone who wouldn't be manipulated. Someone who wouldn't feel anything.

If you want to be honest, and have integrity, you can't feel anything. If you want to be the best person possible you can't feel anything.

And its not a sacrifice, its a gift!!!! It's something to learn. It's a skill/ability.

You see it in movies and TV shows, your emotions make you who you are. Without your emotions you wouldn't be yourself. Exactly!!!! You no longer will be someone who is manipulated, or be someone that takes revenge, or someone that is abusing yourself.

What do you think would happen to addicts if they no longer felt good with their addiction, or feel bad with it?

To be an addict requires you to feel!

To be a terrorist requires you to feel!

To murder requires you to feel!

To want to do harm to others or yourself requires you to feel something about it.

The question here is BEYOND everything you feel, what do you truly want?

Beyond feeling, beyond emotions. What is there?

I mean you don't know. Cause right now you feel something about these words on the screen. You feel maybe anger, or maybe fear. Maybe you feel insulted. Maybe you feel resistance. How can you even know?

You are your emotions. You can NEVER see beyond your emotions, unless you drop it somehow.

Who are you without feeling or emotions?

 The thing that you want right now is to Feel.

You WANT to have emotions, to feel. WHY??????????????

Have you ever explored anything beyond what you feel?

Have you ever considered that you never made such a decision.
You never decided I want to Feel.You just want to Feel.

Why do you want to feel anger?

Why do you want to feel sadness?

Why do you want to feel lonliness?

Is this all you are?

Is there more to life?

Why is every bone and fiber in your being resisting this message?

What are you so afraid of?

It is you!

Can you not decide who you are?

Can you not explore?

Can you not test it out?

What if I told you that all the problems that you are creating in your life is because you simply accept and allow yourself to act out what you feel in the moment.

I feel lazy. I feel tired. I feel annoyed. I feel irritated. I feel disrespected. I feel worthless. I feel stupid. I feel dumb. I feel sad. I feel mad.

What problems have you caused in your life based on these words?

What happens when you say hell no. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel I am dumb.

What happens if you no longer feel the way you feel?

What happens when you no longer feel?

You have absolute power to create yourself.

Start with Self-forgiveness. Start with stopping what you feel. Forgive yourself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel...

Monday, August 14, 2017

Day 24 Living Words

Living Words.

Verb Noun.

Living as a verb. Living Words.

Living the word Determined.

Living the word Touch.

Living the word Paint.

When you live a word, Nothing else exists.

When living a word, the world fades away. Your past, your history, your future, yourself disappears. All that exists is you and the word.

When you live a word, the only thing that exists is you and the word.

When you live the word Determined, the only thing that exists is Determination.

You Are Determination.

When you Live the word Determination, you Are Determination.

When you Live the word Touch, you Are Touch.

When you live the word Paint, you Are Paint.

Nothing else exists. Everything else fades away.

You completely embody the word. You are the word.

There is no thought.

You can Feel Determination in your arms, legs, blood. You are it.

You become Determination in that moment.

You can Live words with something. You can live words through something.

You can Live the word Determination with painting.
You can Live the word Determination with Work.
You can Live the word Determination with playing a game.

You can Live the word Fun through Touch.
You can Live the word Fun through Dance.
You can Live the word Fun through playing a game.

You can Live a word with your wants and needs.

You can Live the word Determination with something you need to do.
You can Live the word Fun with something you want to do.

You can Live the word Fun with something you need to do.
You can Live the word Determination with something you want to do.

You can.

You decide what word to Live.
You are the one that Lives the word.
You are the one that decides.

Can means you can. Can doesn't mean you have to.

If you don't decide, then its your decision to give up your decision.

You can decide to not Live any words. What happens is nothing. You are nothing. Nothing is nothing.

Do you want to be nothing?
Or do you want to Live?

You can Live by Living words.

When you Live the word Fun through painting, you are living both the word Fun and Painting. You are living two words. You can live any number of words.

You can live four words. Or five.

You can always be Living a Word.

The words you Live will change.

In one moment you may Live Fun.

In one moment you may Live Determination.

In one moment you may Live Determination, Fun, Painting, and Touch.

You will be Learning New words to Live.

You will try living new words.

You will find that you have already Lived some words in Some pasts moments.

You will find that the best times in your Life were when you were living words.

You will find that you are Most Effective when you are Living Words.

You will find that when you Live a word you are not thinking about random things, and nothing else exists, and you become the word.

You will find you become more creative when you Live Words.

You will find that Living Words is great power, requires you to be real, opens your Life.

You will find that you are the Creator of Your Life and Experience.

You will realize you have more power than you believe.

The Desteni of Life, is to live as Life.

To live. To live words. To live. Nothing else exists.  You are the Word. You are the Expression. You are the moment. Oneness and Equality.

In such a world, there is no bad/good. Judgment. In such a moment, there is no good/bad, judgment. When you Live words, its pure creativity. There is no such thing as bad art. There is no such thing as bad dancing. There is no such thing as bad singing. Dance, sing, paint like you are the only one that exist. When you Live words everything Fades away, it is just you Living the word. There is no good, there is just You and Life.

All thought, judgment, perceptions don't exist. You exist. This body exists.

You start to being aware of the body and how it feels. You start taking care of your body. You start expressing, moving, and doing in ways that is comfortable for your body. You start addressing pains. You start addressing weaknesses. You start strengthening. You start stretching.

You start giving yourself what you want, through living words. You start addressing your wants/desire, through living words that fulfill them.

We are all in this Together. Oneness and Equality. There is really just the one Self. We all work the same. We can all Live Words. This is what it means it to Live. We are each other. We are Self. We are the words we live.

All thoughts, emotions and feelings are shadows of Living Words. They are not You Living a Word.

Living Words is a solution. Thinking, having an emotion, having a feeling is not a solution. Living words is you living something. It is you becoming something in your body in physical reality. You can feel your body when you live words.

When you are thinking about something, and feeling something about what you think, that is NOT giving yourself what you want. Actually Living a Word to Give yourself what you want is real. What you think is not in physical reality. But you are in physical reality.

You don't use Living Words to Get Something in Reality in the Future.

You don't wait when Living Words.

You are not looking into the Future with Living Words.

With Living Words, you are here, and now, and you are giving yourself now. You are Living now.

When you are thinking you are looking into the future, you are waiting, you are creating feelings/emotions thinking about how things could be.

Living Words is all here.

Living a word is here, now.

You don't wait to Live. You are either Living or not living.

You are either Living a word, or you are not Living a word.

You are either Living a word or you thinking and waiting.

When you are Living a word, you are alive.

When you are thinking and having feelings, you are dead.

When you Live words you FEEL your body physically. You FEEL the air, You feel with/through your body. You are here with your body.

Living Words requires your Being/Spirit. Time Doesn't exist. Everything stands still.

Living Words requires being Live, as in being recorded Live. You are Live! Live on air.

Being A-live. Alive. Being alive you always know what to do here and now. If you are not Alive, then you won't be able to handle being Live, right here, now.

You stand with your being/spirit and with your body. You don't stand for the mind.

When you are Living words, there is no such thing as emotions and feelings. Which means no energy that moves you, that you react with hate, anger, irritation, fear, or love, rush, addiction, pleasurable need, lack.

Living Words you are full and content, not hungry or lacking.

With emotions and Feelings, you are hungry and lacking. Hungry for love, lacking love, hungry for pleasure, lacking pleasure.

Possessed with anger, possessed with fear, possessed with irritation. This is not Living Words.

When you live a word, you are full immediately. The enjoyment is Here, now. The experience is not out there in the future, outside of you. The experience IS YOU. You are the experience, you are creating the experience, you are experiencing the body, you are experiencing the physical. There is no hunger or lack of experience.

When you are Living words, you are Living it. You are the director. Nothing is possessing you, or forcing you are moving you to do it. In fact you will have moments of resistance to NOT do it. But NEVER will there be something that forces you to live word, or pushes you, that is NOT you. You are the only point in existence that will be pushing you WITHIN yourself to Live Words.

Anger will try to get you Angry. Fear will try to get you to Fear. Irritation will try to get you irritated. Your hunger for love will push you to seek for love outside of yourself. Your hunger for rush and pleasure will push you to seek pleasure and rush outside of yourself.

When you Live words like Fun, you will be pushing yourself to Be Fun, and Live fun. You won't be pushed by some force within you to Be Fun or Live Fun. That will NEVER HAPPEN. That Will NEVER HAPPEN. That will NEVER HAPPEN.

So if something is pushing you within you, it is the mind.

When you push yourself to live words it is you. When you LIVE FUN, it is 100% You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are your creation.

Resource for Living Words:    "At the School of Ultimate Living we have come to realise the power of words and the empowerment you can attain in your relationship with yourself, others and life itself...." 

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Day 23 Relationships and Love

So, I highly advise you read my latest blogs, and all the articles/material from Desteni. Because there it covers all the dimensions that I won't be covering in this blog. There are many problems with love and relationships. In this blog your mind will perceive it as me talking about the positive things of relationship the good. So let's talk about it.

Even though this will sound GOOD, it is not good. It just is. It's truth. Only your mind perceives it as good.


So relationships are natural, inevitable. Every relationship you have an opportunity to grow, to learn about yourself through another.

You know those great relationships? Great people in your life? The ones you laugh with, smile with and enjoy?

So those exist or existed or will exist.

Remember that for a moment.

One thing that is certain is the relationship will end. Because death is certain.

Who are you when you no longer have the relationship.

You are mourning, and sad. You are torn.

Everything that the person represented to you, is now gone.

Okay, so now I am going to say somethings that your mind perceives as bad. But its not bad, its just truth.

If you only enjoy other people and the relationship, and then the relationship ends, and you mourn. You haven't yet learned anything. Learning takes place where you become something new. If you have someone great, then learn to be like them. If you are able to let them go at any moment and not change who you are, then you are whole.


Being so joyful, so amazing, with so much laughter, with so much expression and movement, being so much for yourself alone. Would you NEED someone else?

Would you rather have someone in your life that NEEDS you, or is whole and complete as themselves and they SHARE who they are with you as an equal.

Do you want to be surrounded by equals or people who are empty inside, lacking, needing?

Every relationship with Another person is temporary, but your relationship with yourself is forever.

You are the point.

This blog is NOT about breaking up with your partners, or not going into relationships. NO.

This blog is about realizing YOU are what matters. You are the Point. And whether you are IN a relationship or NOT, guess what, you still have YOU. So who are YOU? Because people BOTH use relationship to run away from themselves, and they run away from people to run away from themselves.

The right choice? The right choice is to face yourself, know thyself, work with thyself, and be whole/complete.

USE other people. USE them as ways to help you develop your relationship with yourself.

Be selfish in this regard. The greater person you are, the greatest person you are for yourself and for everyone. There is only one greatness.

If you ever meet a great man or woman, someone who is really special, someone who you can LEARN from, then fucking celebrate and learn. Most people attack such people.

If you see people around you Learning, fucking celebrate. Celebrate the fact if someone is greater than you, because NOW you have someone you can learn from.

Get over your own ego and realize that we are all in this together and it is all about SELF, and so

its about YOU sorting YOU out. No amount of complaining, react, blaming, or action will mean shit, unless you start with YOU. 

The same I could say. No amount of relationships, no amount of sex, no amount of babies, no amount of money, no amount of fame, no amount of whatever, will mean shit unless you sort out you. Who you are leads to what you do. If you break up with the world, and are alone, it still don't mean shit unless you work on you. So just work on you, wherever you are. The rest doesn't matter. In the end we all die. In the end, we lose everyone, and everything. In the end we only have ourselves. So the question here is, are you ready to Live with yourself?

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Day 22 I Remember

Remembering my life and who I have been. I have been many different persons.

I once was a person very much in love and obsessed with one person. I remember all the love and pain I felt. I was in so much emotional pain. Remembering the emotional pain I felt, it feels like no physical pain would mean anything in comparison to that. This is my evidence that love is the real evil.

I once had the relationship I wanted. I had lots of sex. I felt close, intimate. Then I found out the person was someone who was not committed to me. I realized that I made a mistake. I realize I needed to change. That is when I started Desteni. I was ready.

I remember being like 7 years old and sad. I remember being happy in regular class, and when I moved to gifted class everything changed. the kids in regular class were friendly and sociable. The kids in gifted class were super serious and intimidating. It was like being in military school, or where everyone was a robot.

I remember feeling just weird, sad, and that something is wrong with the kids. I longer was surrounded by KIDS, I was surrounded some weird version of kids. School became something serious and demanding.

I remember when I was like 5 or 6 and I took my first multiplication test. I failed. I cried in my desk.

Me feeling this way is one thing, but everyone else just accepting and allowing this, that what was weird. In my head I know there was a different way, and I could see it and imagine it. But no one was really trying to create it. I could see the improvement that could be done in the classroom. I could see the improvements in how people act, how they are. I could see how great life could be. I kept this to myself.

I was quiet. I kept this knowing to myself.

 When I was 13 I had a someone who called me quiet boy. I would mostly hangout with people quietly. They would talk and I would be there listening. I would usually hangout with women/girls. They were kinder and accepting. Sometimes there was another guy in the group. This was the closest I had to friends. I didn't hang with anyone after school. It was just during free time or lunch time.

 At 13 years old I decided to get straight As for college. I was successful.

I decided to go out of state. I was hoping to make closer friends.

I knew people believed that I was a quiet and intelligent guy. I'm not. That is just a mask.

Everything felt fake. Everyone felt fake growing up. At 18 years old I believed that I would only connect with people when I am like 40 years old. I believed in many things.

I believed in old souls. My parents told me I was an old soul.

At 18 years old when my heart was broken, I determined to change myself. Nothing else mattered. Emotions and Feelings are the problem. Both of them are. They both lead to great suffering and they are the same, just with different masks.

Who would I be without emotoins and feelings? I would be free, I would be free to be myself, to express. I wouldn't need permission to express a certain way or to feel something before expressing. I could express endlessly. I could do everything I couldn't see myself doing. I can break all barriers and all limitations. I could be ALIVE for once in this life.

I could potentially hug someone and give them the biggest hug ever. I could be alone and be amazing, feel amazing, and just be Amazed by everything I see and hear. I could run and dance, and laugh just because, NO Reason. I could do anything, be anything, just be cause.

Now, its about living what is best for all. How to do that? Live that? And facing the challenges of this world. The answer is to help people live the answer I lived with Desteni. The answer of being limitless, expressive, anything/everything. The answer that You are the answer. The answer of all life being one and equal. The answer that you are enough and are ready.

I have lived many lives. 

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Day 21 Odyssey to Life

When we embark on a new journey, we don't always know what is ahead of us. While our decision was crystal clear, our motivation strong - we can get distracted by the sceneries we pass, the seasons that change, the travelers we meet, the many cross roads we face. Voices from the past, telling us we are making a mistake, that we should give up and go back to what we've always known. We get caught up in the tests, trials, temptations and even good times along the path we walk. We may want to get off the road as soon as possible, or perhaps set up a tent and decide that where we've gotten is far enough.
We may forget about our initial decision, as if it was in a past life, perhaps even a dream.

In a way, we're all in our own Odyssey journey back home, to Life.  
What moved you to start your process to birth yourself as Life from the physical? What has kept you going? What trials, tribulations and yes - victories - have you faced?

 I don't remember a time where I wasn't looking at things deeply. I remember when I was like maybe 8 or 9 years old and we were given research questions. The questions asked at what we thought of a man who didn't have enough money to buy medicine to save his family, and the medicine company had made the price artificially high in order to make money. I wrote down that the man should steal the medicine to save his family, and that if he were to get arrested for that, that he would still be right, because the company shouldn't have raised the prices to high. At about 22 years of age I read the very research article that I had participate in unknowingly at that age. And I read my own response in that article. The research team were testing out a theory that said as people age they become less selfish and develop a deeper moral compass, which includes care for yourself, then your family, then friends, then society as a whole. It's a little more complex than that but you get the point. The thing is I don't remember developing into this. I remember just always being like this. 

I believe we are all like this. I believe we are all like me. The only difference is that I am operating at this deeper level, and that who are you as this is just deeper within you. Its covered up with stuff. 

This stuff is the mind, as desteni explains. Thoughts, emotoins, feelings. 

Underneath this stuff, by stopping it you gain access to the physical. Something I already have seen to an extent. This is where and how you can do some amazing and miraculous things. Be amazing. 

The trails and tribulations I have faced, I have faced silently. With the power of self-forgiveness you can forgive anything. You can forgive love. Most people wouldn't forgive love. I did. I can. 

The physical is amazing, it is expression. The mind is good and bad, it is flawed. 

What keeps me going? Everything else is shit. Love is shit. Good is bad and Bad is good. The only way out is to stop it all, and start expressing. 

The biggest challenge I face is people. Is when they are being friendly and kind, and nice. There is a part of me that wants to enter into that, enter into everything being nice, good, kind and friendly. It's so tempting. That is my weakness. Every time I say no, I get stronger.

Imagine having no feeling or emotion. Being able to look at anything and see the physical. From there can you truly see/do what is best for all. Otherwise you will be biased. You will put someone else first.

Imagine having no friend that you see as special. No family that you see as special. No lover or partner that you see as special. Having no one where you would put them before everyone else. Imagine still having friends, still having family, still having a partner, but you see them all as equal to everyone. That we are all one. So none are special, none are more. That we simply DO what is BEST FOR ALL. 

What is best for all cannot exist while we have emotions and feelings. Any action within emotions and feelings is already not best for all. Any action done within emotions and feelings always have the same result. 

To live without emotoins and feelings is to be superhuman, is to be what is best for all. It is difficult and unlikely. But it is the only way to be full, complete and truly happy. If you want true happiness you need to stop what you have defined as happiness. Stop it within yourself, and start Expressing the real happiness as the physical. 

My victories include moments where women came onto me. They threw themselves at me, several of them. I didn't pursue them, even though it would have been extremely easy. What I did was stop my reactions, and stick to my principles and my path. Anything that involves not working towards my goal would be a distraction. And they were purely attracted to me because of superficial reasons. I had previously a few years before that time formed relationships with the first women that liked me, superficially. I was addicted to relationships and I had stopped that. Since then the only women I had asked for considering relationship with was those who I believed were very strong and would walk this same process as me. This is because I know I am strong and I wanted to walk with the strongest so we can do great things in this life. I am prepared and very happy to walk alone in this life. I am more than enough for myself. By being this way, I wont settle for a lesser relationship. I can say NO to a relationship and END it in an instant. 

Again my greatest weakness is People. A partner, is one person. With one person it was a challenge and I have proven I can handle one person. But when it comes to a whole group of people, having a community of family, it gets more tempting. People are tempting. It's tempting when you feel that rush of energy from having friends, from having that attention from multiple sources. Our design as mind and system is that we keep each other from stopping our emotions/feelings. We form like a web that keeps each other within emotions and feelings. It's like when you see several people do something it becomes easier to do it yourself. That temptation is what I am talking about. That is the challenge of the group. 

We form groups naturally. Families, business, workplace, school, classmates, friends, church etc... Standing as yourself on your own, that is the true test. Can stand on your own two feet? Will you stand even when everyone is telling you no? The greatest thing someone can have over you is the emotions and feelings you have. As long as you have emotions and feelings you CAN be manipulated. Gossiping CAN effect you as long as you have emotoins and feelings. Otherwise you don't give a shit. When you stop your emotions and feelings you do/act/move what is best for all always.

That has been my greatest challenge. I have fallen before. Yet I have picked myself up. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. Stopping the emotions and feelings is how I stand up. We are not our history, our personalities, our story. We are something more universal, infinite, undefined. And from that nothingness we can express anything. 

That is why I walk this process so that I can express anything and be my real potential, and not be limited by anything except what is best for all. I want to only be what is best for all.

Monday, August 7, 2017

Day 20 Respect

You can only ask for the amount of respect from another, that is the same amount of respect you have for yourself.

If you have low self respect, you will allow others to treat you like shit.

If you have high self respect then you won't allow others to treat you like shit, where you will remove yourself from the environment and/or speak up. But for sure you won't just take it and feel like shit and just continue like that.

You are responsible for your emotions and feelings.You are responsible for how you handle situations and other people.

Are you striving for the best quality of life for yourself? Here quality of life refers to things like how people treat you, and the kind of people in your life. There are sayings that say you choose the people you hangout with. You choose your friends. This choice determines much about you. Equally so, you choose to whether to spend time with your family. You don't have to spend time with your family or anyone. So you have choice. At the same time you don't always have choice if you don't have access to any money. Yet even when you don't have access to money, I bet you can find ways to improve your life. So this principle still applies. I am not an all knowing being that can say how exactly or what exactly you WILL do to make your life better. BUT I can say this:

The amount of respect that you will ask from others, will reflect the amount of respect you already have for yourself.

People who accept and allow abusive situations and do nothing to change it, have a shitty relationship with themselves. They don't have that self-respect and self-honoring. So for this reason they will accept and allow abusive people and enter into abusive relationships. The Abuse you accept and allow reflects your relationship with yourself.

Having that self-respect, is evidence that there are people that have respect for life and will treat you well, because you are the proof that YOU exist, as a someone that has self-respect.

Its not about blame or anger at another. Its about what you accept and allow. Its about the self-love and self-respect you have. How much do you care for yourself?

How I see it as well is that I am a child. That I have a child and that child I have is me. So would I want this child to be treated poorly or badly by others? No. I would move that child out of that situation and protect that child. So if I would do this for a child, why not for me? So that is why I am seeing myself as a child. I have value, and care, and a standard of living which I see ALL DESERVE to have, BUT you cannot force another to realize they DESERVE such a good life or a better life. Each ONE needs to see for themselves and live for themselves that self-respect, that self-love, that self-care. Otherwise it won't be real. Because each one can in fact do so much to stop the abuse in their lives. If only they had that care and respect for themselves.

This is something that I have only recently been walking and I have been walking this process for many many years now. So I can just imagine how long it would take for many to understand this point and then to actually live it and act on it, and actually have self-respect. So I understand many/most won't understand and that many will continue to accept and allow their abusive situations, and their abusive stance to themselves.

But if you hear what I am saying it means you are ready.

Investigate Learn about all the Selves. Self-forgiveness, Self-Trust, Self-responsibility, Self-honesty, and more!!!!

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Day 19 Moana the Movie

I really like the movie Moana.

It is made by Disney.

I like the Water. I observed the water specifically. How the water acted is how I act with children. It is my philosophy of the best way to work with kids. You guide them and step in only when you are needed. And knowing when to step back.

Making the statement Knowing when to step in and knowing to step back, you might be like WTF???? But at the same time, ask yourself, YOU, do YOU ever step back or hold yourself back when your working with kids or with your own kids. Or do you every time just step in naturally. If you never step back, then know your probably messing things up, lol. Cause for SURE there are moments to step back. For sure. Without a doubt.


The water steps back and you get to see who Moana is. You get to see Moana make her decision, you get to see Moana realize who she is. You get to see Moana lead herself. When Moana gives up the water accepts. When Moana is ready to fight, but isn't strong enough the Water steps in so she can win. The water has so much power. The water could force Moana to do something, or make things super easy, BUT force can only get you so far. You cannot FORCE this entire existence to be aware, or be what is best for all. Its not possible, because people need to make the choice. People need to volunteer. People need to move themselves. If people are not moving themselves then its not real, it won't last. And THAT is the true beauty of guiding someone, whether its adult or child. When you do your part and then just step back and watch them move themselves and succeed, that is one of the most beautiful things to observe. You are witnessing a real person being real. There is nothing better in existence.

This entire existence is alive and aware. It can see who you are. Can you?

Who are you deciding to be?

Who are you?

Who is the real you?

You cannot find yourself in another. You can only know yourself through yourself. You can know others through yourself, but you can't know yourself through others. In others you can hide from yourself. In others you can separate yourself from yourself. But through yourself you can truly know others. It is all about self. You are the mirror. You are the lens. You are the eye. It is impossible to have a deep connection with another. You can only have a deep connection with yourself, and through that recognize another as yourself.

Do you see everyone as You? Can you see yourself everywhere? Do you realize that when you look at someone you are looking at yourself?

If you can't see it then you won't believe me. If you can then you already know what I am talking about. But, each one of us has seen it at least once in our lives. You had a moment where you did see it. You had a moment where you saw another as yourself.

What is interesting that the words I write will be understood differently depending on the person, which depends on the process you have walked. And even in different moments, in the future, if you change.

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Day 18 The Self

What comes up within you when speaking, reading, hearing the word Self?

Self refers to your self.

Are you complete, whole?

Are you fractured?






What is the word or words?

Whatever the words are it doesn't mean its good or bad. What matters is whether you were even aware of your relationship with yourself. What matters is that you have that connection with yourself. What matters is you KNOW what you feel. What matters is that you have that connection BECAUSE then you can actually make changes.

Fact, You cannot change yourself without first knowing yourself.

You have to Know thyself.

Self is not something you can really categorize. Its not good or bad. It just is.

You can be separate from yourself. You not know yourself. You can suppress yourself. You can abuse yourself.

What words do you live with yourself?

What changes can you make, or need to make to make things better?

Are you happy with yourself?

Maybe you need to not change yourself and just change your beliefs about yourself.

Maybe you need to change yourself.

If you change your beliefs about yourself you are changing yourself, because beliefs are a part of you.

Maybe you just need to STOP not being happy with yourself, and just be happy.

Maybe you need to start being more physical and practical.

Maybe you need to start being here with your body.

Maybe you need to stop being so much in your head.

I say maybe because I cannot tell you the exact answer.

But I can say for sure that you have the answer. Your self does have the answer. But YOU need to go and see what that is. Only you hold the key to yourself and making things better.

When you connect with yourself and work with yourself things get better.

The Self is the Key.

Self is the greatest journey.

 It is possible to have such an awareness and connection of yourself and with yourself that you are able to create anything and be anything and do anything. No one can abuse you or hurt you. You are no longer afraid and all is well.

It is possible yes. It is possible to create such a relationship. It is created.

It is also possible to be in fear and limitation. It is possible to harm yourself. It is possible to be abused and hurt.

It is possible yes.

Who are you?

What is YOUR self?

Who do you WANT to be??????????

Friday, August 4, 2017

Day 17 You are the Key

You only accept and allow someone to do something to you, if you already have been and are accepting and allowing yourself to do it within yourself.

Self is the key.

Self holds the key.

You are the Key.

When someone yells at you and you react, its because you have been yelling at yourself within yourself already.

If you stop all yelling, all abuse within yourself that you do to yourself, then no amount of yelling or abuse can cause you to react or feel anything. You are whole and complete.

Right now we are not whole and complete. We are fractured.

Right now when we see the abuse in the world, we react. Right now when we see people yell, scream, hit, abuse, gossip, we react.

We react because we are doing these things to ourselves in our heads, with our thoughts, with what we feel.

Reaction is feeling/emotion. You are feeling something about something.

When you stop your own abuse, stop your own feeling something about something, within yourself, then you are free. There is no thought, not topic, nothing that can touch you, because you don't feel anything, you don't react.

When you care and love yourself enough to stop this abuse, you are standing within authority, you are standing withing your SELF.

Self is the Key.

Self is the power.

Self is everything.

Without yourself you have nothing. As long as you stand outside of yourself you are nothing, you have no authority, no power. All abuse is rampant.

Without Self the world will destroy itself.

Self-forgiveness. I forgive myself. That is the way to practice stopping abuse. Forgive yourself for feeling scared about a thought. Forgive yourself for feeling worried and nervous about a thought. A thought about the future, a thought about the past, a thought about things right now. Any thought, Every thought.

As long as you feel things about your thoughts you are trapped and enslaved, you are not free. As long as you feel things about your thoughts then are standing outside of yourself, and you are nothing, you have no power, you don't exist.

To exist as Self, requires standing within self, which requires no longer REACTING as self to what happens, to what you think, which requires not feeling anything to what happens.

Is your feeling a decision? No it happens. You don't decide to feel, it just happens. Your feeling is not You. You are not your feelings. You are not your thoughts. You exist as something else. You are a creator with absolute potential to create, and you are what is best for all, you are integrity, you are an equal, you are one with everything, you are what matters, you exist. Yet are you are not that now because you react. As long as you react you are not yourself. You don't exist.

You are always equal to what you accept and allow.

As long as you accept and allow abuse within you, you will accept and allow abuse to be done onto you, and abuse to exist in the world without.

You cannot stop the abuse in the world or the abuse that others do to you. You can only stop the abuse you have accepted and allowed others to do to you. You can only stop the abuse that you are accepting and allowing YOURSELF to accept and allow. Why don't you have that love of Self? Why doesn't that already exist? It doesn't.

Because you don't exist as SELF yet. You don't.

With SELF you have everything and lack nothing. You are complete and whole. You are Yourself. If you are not these things, know that you are NOT self. Self is this. Self is complete, whole. Self is Self. Self lacks nothing.

Self cannot be tricked into reaction, self doesn't have a flaw to be exploited. Self cannot be made to feel something. Yet you are not Self, are you?

You react, you feel, you can be exploited and tricked, manipulated, you can be moved, you are not complete, you are lacking, you are not Yourself, yet.

None of us are. Yet we all can be.

Self is the Key.
You hold the Key.
You are the Key.

Stop the abuse. Stop the thoughts. Stop the feelings, the emotions. Stop being moved. Stop being manipulated. Stop reacting. You are accepting and allowing it. No one is making you feel what you feel. And only you can stop it. and prevent it.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Day 16 Ending the War within Self

There are a million different abuses and problems in the world. Oceans are dying, the Earth is dying, children are dying and being abused, animals are dying, greed, violence, and an economic that perpetuates it. And on and on....

I am the meaning of Life. Saving the planet is not the point. Saving the world is not the point. Saving children is not the point. Saving the animals, the waters, the people are not the point. I am the point.

I am a child. I am a planet. I am a water, a people, a earth. I am an animal. Am I saving me?

I am living in emotional turmoil and suffering. I am living in abuse. What am I doing about it?

Where is the value for the life that is me?

How I treat me, isn't that how I will treat others?

Is it possible to do what is BEST for others, even when I am not doing what is BEST for me?

I may be thinking I am saving others or doing what is best for others, but is that not from my limited point of view if I am still abusing me, putting me through hell, accepting and allowing myself to be suffering?

 If I start saving me... If I start stopping the abuse within me and in my life.... If I start stopping the hell and suffering that I am going through... What will I see as the solution for saving/helping others?

The solution is that others must stand up and REALIZE their own value and that THEY are the Meaning of Life. Because how much of our abuse is caused because we are abusing ourselves, which includes accepting and allowing the abuse other people put onto us? What if we can stop all abuse in our life and radically change our lives by realizing the value of self, of Me?

I am a child.
I am a starving animal.
I am an abused person.
I am in suffering.

So how about I stop it? How about I save me?

How about when people insult you or yell at you, that you take action? You can either remove them from your life, which can mean you leaving. Are you WILLING to remove yourself, quit a job, leave someone, breakup with someone if they are creating an abusive situation and you have accepted and allowed it? Do you love yourself enough to do that? To quit? To leave? To breakup?

Do you accept and allow abusers in your life or do you BAN them? What do you do?

What is the Meaning of Life?

I am the Meaning of Life.

Are YOU the Meaning of Life?

Maybe the reason we are focusing so much on the abuse other people receive, and the abuse in the world, because we are distracting ourselves from the abuse we have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel happy and good to see them to be themselves, innocent, joyful, excited, expressive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give anything so I can prevent children from being abused.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up my life for them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not accept that the people wouldn’t change, and that the only thing that I could do was leave.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not leave.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the child within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not value the child within me that was abused during this time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to value any  number of children over the child within me.

I commit myself to protect myself
I commit myself to stand up to someone yelling at me or screaming at me, or to remove them from my life by simply removing myself from them.
I commit myself to defend myself from insults, attacks and verbal abuse by shooting down the person right away, or by removing them from  my life.
I commit myself to report people who abuse me to the authorities, like police.
I commit myself to make sure I am safe and well and protected from people’s harmful actions.
I commit myself to value me and honor me above everyone else combined.
I commit myself to live this self-love within the principle that if all would live the same the world would be what is best for all.
I commit myself to show that walking the path of SELF, valuing self, putting self first, Self being the only value in your life, that that leads to what is best for all.
I commit myself to live for ME.
I commit myself to live Me as the purpose/meaning of my life.
I commit myself to have self be the point of Life.
I commit myself to stop fighting for the end of abuse of others, and instead only fight for SELF ending the abuse to SELF.

I commit to show that Self is accepting and allowing abuse in the world, through our individual daily lives, and that by resolving this war within self, we will become the solution that we all need.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing abuse within me.

I am an equal to any person or any number of person. I am an equal to the president of any country. I am an equal to the richest man or woman. I am an equal to the strongest and smartest. I am an equal to everyone combined. I am the Meaning of Life. I am not more than you or everyone. I am Equal. Equal is NOT about numbers it is about care, treatment, and regard. You are all equal to me. The question is is everyone equal to you? You can see in your everyday behavior and treatment of yourself whether you view yourself with value, and treat yourself such, or you don't.  And you will see how you treat others. Is it equal?

Egomaniacs, Narcissists, don't view themselves as Equal to everyone. They view themselves MORE than everyone. And Egomaniacs and Narcissists live lives of abuse. Equality is the KEY. Equality is the Difference. I am equal to everyone/everything. You don't have to fear Equality. Stop the Abuse in YOU!