Yogan's Journey to Life

Note: I don't have children or a wife/girlfriend, but these words as symbols exist within the mind consciousness system, and so I can do self-forgiveness now on them. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live for the happiness of my family, wife and children. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live for the feeling energy of my family, wife and children. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that real self-expression of happiness and feeling energy of happiness, are completely different. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that I cannot live the purpose of making others happy as feeling energy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel bad, sad, purposeless, meaningless in my family, wife, children not liking me or not wanting me around. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel bad, alone, isolated, sad, depressed, purposeless, meaningless, whe...

Desire to make someone else Happy. I want to make someone else happy. My purpose is to make others happy. My purpose is to make children happy. My purpose is to make my children happy. My purpose is to make my wife, girlfriend happy. My purpose is to make my wife and children happy. If I lose my children and wife, then I have no purpose. I am purposeless, I am nothing, I feel sad and depressed. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make my purpose making others happy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live for making children happy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live for making my wife/girlfriend happy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have my purpose to be the happiness of others. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel fulfillment and purpose from making others happy and so like me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do things, and change t...

I feel tired of not being understood, of being so alone. Any time I remotely open up deep parts of myself, they go straight over other people's heads. How many people are like me? Someone who gets science and philosophy and mathematics. Someone who can express themselves clearly in words. Someone who fights for everything in existence, nature, animals, plants, all people. Someone who gets children, understands them. Someone who can place themselves in the shoes of most people/situations. Someone who has a strong imagination and creativity. Someone who doesn't need or care for any drugs or stimulants and can have so much fun without them. Someone who can LISTEN. Someone who can be here. Someone who can do anything and learn anything. Someone who is committed to the advancement and develop of the human being as Self. Let me tell you my life story in short. I was not born this way. I made a journey. So that you understand I am not magical, I was not given this, I worked for...

My political views, is that we overall transfer wealth from the wealthy so that its spent wisely in Life itself. This includes not only in the country of origin, but in support of all people around the world. My view is that we need to focus on the study of the Mind and Self, where we understand how and why we are who we are, why we develop our personalities, how and why we make our decisions, and what roles that thoughts, emotions and feelings play within that. In addition, how does physical memory or rote memory play a role in forming the basis of our personalities, and decision making, especially when it happens instantaneously as a reaction. How come we have such difficulty in seeing a different point of view, without bias? I'm especially interested in using what we learn, in the form of tools or methods that we can utilize to change ourselves, change who we are, our personality, change our gut instincts, our decisions, and being able to take on different perspectives witho...

These things are all lies. Religion, Nationalism, Culture, Country, Identity, Country, Race, History. None of this stuff is worth dying for or fighting for. None of this stuff is Life. None of this stuff have any meaning. Religion, Nationalism, Culture, Country, Identity, Country, Race, History. You were all just babies born into your situation. ALL OF YOU. None of this stuff matters: Religion, Nationalism, Culture, Country, Identity, Country, Race, HIstory. You were born INTO it. This is not life. This is not meaning. What is meaning is Life. What is meaning is Everyone. You want happiness? How can you have happiness without meaning? Love Everyone, Love Life. Love is GIVING LIFE to everyone. Give everything that Life needs. Food, Water, Home, security. Work for Life. Do not work for 2nd house, luxury watches, luxury cars, bigger TV. Work for Life. Work for Everyone Work for Meaning. Give money to Everyone Give money to Life. Make money have...

Link https://yoganjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/ I know that for other people, they may not get my connection with my first blog post online. Let me try to explain why the moment is special for me and why I revisit it sometimes. There is a purity to someone just starting their process, and posting online for the first time. There is a simplicity, just like a baby or child. There is a purity, a innocence, a good-will of intent.There is also that first step of bravery where you are going public, you are exposing yourself, you are writing something personal and real. My first blog post didn't seem like much, but for me it was. I was REALLY MEANING and standing behind my self-forgiveness. I meant every word, and I wrote it, spoke it, and lived it very deeply within myself. I remember where I was, I remember the feel of the room, I remember the orientation. I remember the emotions and feelings, I remember just the moment. I really had in that moment the intent and will to wa...

It really is a cool alliteration. D esperate D esire,  De De , I'm using it to describe something within me. I had already described Desperation as a key word, along with anxious and nervous. I had a memory where I was pulling on my parents arm, telling her to go, that I wanted to go! I was like cmon! cmon! cmon! lets gooooo!!!! already!!!! CMON !!!! The emotional state that I was in was Desperate. Looking at my current moment. I desperately want something. I desperately want this, and so desperate desire then. This is in relation to a person. Where I want to be with this person. At the same time I can draw a contrast here to perfectly illustrate the reality of desperate desire as emotion. In contrast to desperate desire, what I want as having a family, having kids, having a partner that I can share such a deep intimate connection with that we would be connected simply by our words hundreds of million miles away from each other, that I can see their soul, that they bear thei...

So I have been watching the videos from DODO that share videos on facebook, that I see while scrolling through facebook. Its all about animals. Its hard to put in words . There are people that care about animals, that GIVE UP their lives and self-definition and money to take on a NEW self-definition and Life that is about raising, caring for the animals, to the utmost degree. You can call this real Love. real Care. This is something I would do. And this is the BEST of Humanity, and the human spirit. https://www.facebook.com/yogan.barrientos/posts/10217804753097519?__xts__[0]=68.ARDxH-SH1CSRhDgwSC_7AU3P6b5Vr42GnyvReMxOLUmFPJdcK7AAvifRiTgJw_XEbqfXcIeKyADbKKC7oO7vvYa4tbaDPh8UTKzn2xtEjIEjIeqAyx8s6TvlWbvUafJeT0L_XUJmAWu6cN00eeiovQC0wgGhtWrZ90GytVyQLN9w-dGunPL48abcFqxnsBY7aTaXfFkuGM5HQyMvJUoStFYZdaVWHyMHIOdCnw8&__tn__=-R https://www.facebook.com/yogan.barrientos/posts/10217804171682984?__xts__[0]=68.ARCEY943k6BB42k5tK1X_y8ucFiis9sCOiuUfiC1k-9i67Px1wX9dhn7816DeRKp_xMUe-kQVOpc7rQrddG_...

Talking with People, just learning about them should be normal. It is normal, just we may find it strange when it hasn't happened in so long. Like learning about someone, about things that may seem like insignificant facts from a certain point of view, can also seem from a certain point of view a Treasure Trove of words and experiences never seen, heard, or felt before. Maybe its about where someone has lived, that you never visited before or been to before. Maybe its about what someone does in their daily life, which tends to be their work/job and responsibilities. Maybe its about a person's interests and hobbies, what they know how to do, and what they do in their free time. Things, experiences, words, music you may never hear of otherwise. It can be simply hearing and understand what kind of a person a person is. Or it can be relating and sharing your own similar experiences, meeting someone who went through something similar or the same as you. It is just normal to just...

From the big to the small. From the state of corruption in some country's government. From monopolies of businesses. From Liberal Rich States and countries, to the poor. To country's starving people. To desecration of land. To the flow of money. To the emotion of anger. To the feeling of Love. Everything can be explained and understood. The human. The human has a body, and a mind. The mind creates the personality you have been using. 99.99999999% of people don't know the extent of their mind, what it does, and why it exists. 99.9999999% of people are disempowered. All of these people gave all their power away. Realizing yourself, means realizing what your mind is and what it does. It means being honest with yourself about what you know already. The flow of money, the flow of decisions, the flow of moments all come down to this basic awareness. How energy flows in your body. Stopping this energy is of utmost importance. Consider it like poison. Energy flowing i...

https://www.facebook.com/yogan.barrientos/posts/10217792487830895?__xts__[0]=68.ARDLdOTRGPu6Rx9s_w0dHBYDxjtxa1IyiRUFf-35vvlKFVlAZ7E4iDqdW4tLmtjAgW1f9rs-ys_jNp-2LWqLv12Ox9k941Gbd3F7zYVPRON4Rs_XnJ36or--b3BmGktWIHI0OpqFR6ZC1kMz6sR2x9PxwXnIOYGXVf_W_7nq9x2qo1iHSGl-g8aqsmkA4giqgK5k4XBnfifDH3qY5Ztmpg56maJ0n3IIph2QTAE&__tn__=-R So dog in this video above---- Click the link---- is living how destonians or anyone should walk their process.   Process is a challenge, a challenge with a reward for when you successful face and walk  moment's challenge. If you are not actively walking your process you are stagnant, you are not walking! you are not successfully facing the challenging, not successfully SOLVING it!!! There is  natural enjoyment and REWARD with solving your moments challenge. Remember this. This dog is the perfect example of how we should all walk our process. DON"T WAIT! Go for it!  Solve your problems, solve your issues!  Face your fear! when yo...

I took a look at my photos of me across the years. I posted an album of such photos on facebook. I can see the change in me, in my very face. Before I was scared to express. I had trouble expressing my face. Then I started practicing. I did things. Like I shaved my head. I did it because our water supply is getting polluted by hair products and I wanted to bring attention to that. At the same time, I face my own perception of what i think others perceive as me. I freed myself through challenging myself. I sought challenge. I expressed my face. As I walked process, the desteni process, where I STOPPED emotions and Feelings, the negative and positive, and I started to EXPRESS myself through the physical, there are changes in my face that happened, changed in my expression. My expression has become more fuller, more confident, more settled. I know who I am. I like who I am. I like my face. I am going to miss this body after I die. I realize I will die, and that life is a gift. I rea...

actions, and gifts, or opportunities i gift myself with or take. Or moments that I gift myself with. It can be a moment of sitting down in front of a natural view of nature, rows of trees, while people nearby talk/play. It can be a moment of going out to dance the night away, no matter what others think or may being, just dancing by myself alone, not needing permission or approval, just doing it for me. It can be a moment of laying down, and breathing, being quiet. It can be just giving me something, like cooking a well made meal or dessert. It can be giving myself something I need like water or sleep. It can be giving myself the time to do something, all the time that I may need, plenty of time to work through something. Loving myself is a verb, is an action, is a gift I GIVE to me. That is when its real.  You don't think it. You do it. You live it.

Giving up on someone... I have given up on many people. I shouldn't have done that. Giving up on someone else, means I'm giving up on myself. Giving up on myself is the greatest failure. The only failure is giving up. Oneness and equality, if I give up on someone else, I am in fact giving up on myself, and in fact living Failure. I regret giving up on these people in my life. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up certain people in my life in becoming better, learning and changing. Giving up on someone, believing they cannot change, saying they cannot change, is the worst thing you can do to yourself. Leaving someone within the intent of giving up on them vs with the intent that it will support them is different. Giving up on someone is never okay. Because anyone, everyone can, will, and must change. People may enter and leave your life. That doesn't mean you can give up on people. Someone can be halfway across the world, and you d...

What to do when you need love? Understand that love is an energy. Because anything you need, is not something that is your expression. Energy is something that fluctuates that rise and falls. Energy is part of the need. This is the nature of energy. This is fact. Its not something you can wish or imagine to be different and it will change reality. You cannot say that energy is something stable, consistent, reliable and causes no need, no lack, no rise and no fall. I mean I can write out the sentence that it is a certain way, but it would be a lie, like an imagination. Here I am a scientist, I am relying on empirical information, I am relying on observations, investigations, and questionings that I have done for a long time now, 8 years, along with a group of people, desteni, who as individuals walk their processes and share online, and thereby providing more points for me to look at and consider. Without a doubt energy is not stable. And without a doubt the physical is stable. If y...

When you use the Desteni tools, and properly face and walk your greatest weakness, by understanding why you have accepted and allowed yourself to be this way, you can then walk out of there stronger, knowing that you just faced your greatest weakness, that you just faced and walked out from the point you have feared going into, and you can talk about it and blog about it, and understand why you let it happen and you know how to stop accepting yourself to be that way. You also see and understand that you can walk the same process of change, of self-awareness, self-understanding with anything inside yourself. You learn that anyone can use these tools that you have been using to change themselves. You see first hand that human beings can change, you are proof of that. You realize our fate, our destiny as humanity is within our own hands. When the individual changes, that is an individual part of the world changing and that has ripples across the world. We are interconnected. Your proc...

Chronic Anger is a problem. It is infectious. You ever notice how anger is one of those things that spreads so easily? If someone in a room speaks in anger, it immediately, readily and easily passes itself along to everyone else? Its so infectious. Other kinds of emotions don't seem to work that way. Happiness? doesn't spread so easily. Sadness? doesn't spread so easily. Fear? I think fear actually spreads pretty easily. These are just my observations. So there is something about Anger and Blame. It jacks up your heart, and hits you where it hurts. It gets you going. You act on it, you feed on it. You retaliate with it So easy to do it. Taking the high road. Being professional. Doing your job right. Requires not acting in anger. Being open, intimate, vulnerable, goes in the opposite direction of anger. Whereas with anger you are throwing stones, being intimate, open and vulnerable, is to be bare naked almost inviting attacks on yourself, because you won't fight ...

Even Einstein had a mother, had people in his life. He was born in a country that had stability. He had school, he had teachers. He had food. Now, I didn't look up these facts, but its logical. Its logical because of how things work. The point is that in my life everything I have done and have achieved, everything I will do and achieve, everything is due to many many people who have been there for me and supported me in some way or another. These include parents who fed me. Now, even if your parents were alcoholic and abusive, they also did things that supported you, even if it was just food. The point here is that no man or woman is an island, no man or woman does it ALONE. Your literal body was born into this world through two people, and your defenseless helpless as a baby. You somehow got raised. Not everyone makes it that far. So yes there are bad things. There are wars, and instability. Your country may not be safe. And these are all bad things. So when you look at someone li...

The purpose and meaning of Life is Friendship and Love. Right! It's like tackling someone you love and kissing them! Love is a verb. Love isn't all that mushy nervous emotions. Love is fun! Love is grabbing someone by the hand and telling them CMON!!! yanking on them with enthusiasm. Follow me, lets go!!!And you start running together hand in hand. You climb some trees. You lay down on the grass and just smell it. You chase each other. You play hide and seek. Friendship is telling your friend that you appreciate them. Is telling them that you don't want to go and want to stay right here. Friendship is not something you have, it is something you ARE. Love isn't something you have its' something you do. Your friends don't have to be smart or beautiful. That is not what makes a friends. Being a friend just takes kindness, care, respect, being there for them, sweetness, being understanding, being supportive, that's it. Nothing to do with compatibility, ...

I believe any person can forgive themselves for anything they have done, and take responsibility for it, and then change who they are. I believe the soul, or the spirit, or the being of the person is powerful enough to overcome ANY situation or challenge. I also KNOW that people will fall and stumble, include fall into old habits, fall into mistakes. And I KNOW that people with perseverance can recommit to their change and get back up again, until a point where they just won't fall down anymore. I know that it DOESN"T MATTER how many times you fall, its about whether you PICK YOURSELF UP AGAIN that matters. I believe in the human spirit, soul, being. I believe in you. No matter what you have down, or who you have become in this life... you can change and become someone different. You can become your highest self, your fullest potential, your god-like self. The self that is truly best for this entire existence. Anyone can apply self-forgiveness. Anyone can. Anyone can live ...