Yogan's Journey to Life

When I had my First Friend, I was around 7 years old. I remember that being the first time that its like I decided, or knew that this person here is my Friend. This was the first time, and it was very clear and strong that I felt this way and became this way. So this programming was here and established. And it was very specific, because I went over his house for one day and that is where I decided that point. And so after that day I never saw him again. Because my mom told me that he had moved away to the UK. It was sudden. The news was sudden. And I never said goodbye or saw him again. I was shocked and surprised. Devastated really. And it became a point of where I was right at the point of where I could express myself with a Friend, and have all of those expressions and points come through and it was all just immediately shut down and taken away from me. It was like losing my Friend and being powerless about it. I didn't have any say about it. I couldn't stop it. It...

When someone you Love is Angry at you. I think this may be actually my greatest weakness. I see it being a point of great weakness because there are two parts. The first part is the fact is that it is someone who I love, or in other words have a connection with. And the 2nd part is them being angry at me. Either part alone is a point of challenge/force. So together they make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Because the point becomes: I am causing them to be angry, and I am responsible for their anger. And I feel blame/responsibility and I am afraid of losing them. The truth, the truth of desteni, the truth of Life is that no one is responsible for how anyone else feels. No one. And not with anyone. You are not responsible for how other people feel. This includes anger. And this includes people you have a connection to. You are responsible for how you Feel. So on a physical level I am afraid, I am swallowing in my throat that I am so afraid. I am physically possessed in fear...

I accept my Brokenness, and "the Brokenness" itself as it exists in reality, so whether its the Brokenness in other people or things or myself, I accept it. So what I am saying is that I accept my darkside, my shitty side, my fucked up side and all of that of other people too. Because yes I was rejecting the fucked up darkside of other people and rejecting them, which was my mistake to do so. I did reject people for being Bullies, for being spiteful, or betraying me or whatever you want to call it. I notice that I hate even describing what they did and rather not even look at it, which is also a mistake and my responsibility. So I am accepting their darksides and the darksides of everyone. I don't let this fuckedupness define me, nor define them. This isn't all that they are, nor who I am.We are much more and we have the potential for such much more. So I call on everyone to forgive themselves for their darkside and fuckedupness. I encourage everyone to apply ...

We are all friends. What divides us is our acceptance and allowance of separation. We have separated ourselves from each other, and so thus from joy. We have suppressed the vision/understanding that all are one and equal as me. We have forgotten the point where we all are one and equal and thus this is where true happiness lies, it lies within us being our true selves. True self means we are living the truth. The truth of who we really are. I have lost my way, and I am trying to fight my way back to the truth. Here is one point of truth. To realize who you really are, requires you realizing as well that you cannot leave anyone else behind. You need to dedicate yourself to showing others the way out and to help them. To merely say you have realized yourself and that's it, and you live a happy life for yourself, you know that's a lie. This is incompatible with the truth that all are one and equal, and the very foundation of your expression and all that exists is oneness and e...

As it is described in the Desteni Material, I found the following to be true: that we have a being who is placed here in our chest areas of our body, and that we have a mind conscious system who is placed its emotional churning center in our solar plexus or stomach region of our bodies, and that this is an energy center where it will send energy to the head region where Thoughts are created, Backchats too, and the general mind activity. And that what the Process that we all have to walk as Humanity in order to be free is to amalgamate with our physical bodies. What this means is realizing that Who I am is the Being here in the chest region and that I can essentially stop/ignore/ stop-participation regarding the Mind. And so this means that I am here in the body sensing reality, seeing the immediate space around me without thought, and so with that kind of silence. Where I realize that who I am as Choice, and Awareness and Decision is a being who can YES create with the mind on pu...

Our choice is a powerful thing. With choice/decision we can do and say some unbelievable things. For example we can say with words our commitment to be and do something that is incompatible with how things exist today. That incompatibility is quite unacceptable with how things are, and so it creates a resistance, naturally. In the world we have today, it is incompatible to say: I am committed to bringing about a world that is best for all. Because in the world we have today, every person is within a specific cell in their own prison, whose walls are their own minds. Your prison is everything that you define yourself to be: you define yourself to be a father/mother/parent. You define yourself as a citizen, as an American, African, Indian, or whatever country you want to name. You define yourself by your own name, by the age of your body. Shall I continue? Or do you get the idea? The reason why its incompatible to say that I am committed to bringing about a world that is best for ...

So I have an interesting point to share. What I am seeing is that in my body there has been stored programming that has been unleashed when I started to change my posture, my voice, my general holding of my body. So I was someone quite hunched over with my eyes being droppy all the time and not speaking clearly and mumbling quite a bit. I focused some time to change these things, and what I am noticing is that all of this programming in my head/mind came out. And that now I am noticing this point and now I am focusing on doing the SF and to change the inner points of the mind/self. So I'm doing SF on thoughts, emotions and feelings I am having. So here is a cross-reference point for others, that its possible that mind points are hidden within such things as posture, and other physical ways of holding yourself or kind of existing/moving as. I would say in my case I needed to change my posture and how I moved myself in all of these ways directly and so then face all of these mind p...

What's going on with money and the minds of people? Does money have some magical powers? On the one hand, you need money to survive. On the other hand, once you have money enough for living, then how or why does money have an affect on us like wanting to hoard money and protect it? Is money corrupting us? Does money have any power really? If you trace back the moment of making a decision to spend money, you can follow the lines and see how money is spent from a starting point of a feeling. We feel something and therefore we spend money. Within this starting point of money, we can enter into a point of possession. Where money becomes more important that people in our lives, and in doing what is best for all. What's going on here? The simple point would be that we define money within a relationship of energy, and when we accept and allow that energy to build and grow unchecked, then we become consumed by it and we forget who we are. Yet look, can energy really make you to...

Here I will be addressing our relationship with Animals. Us as the all of us. All of us human beings and how we relate to animals. It shouldn't be a surprise yet it will be a surprise nonetheless that our relationship with animals is filled with separation. Often we immediately look at the points of Animal Extinction, Exploiting animals for profit, factory farming, physically abusing animals. Obviously all of this is indicating some form of separation that is going on, I mean there has to be right? But its not that simple. How people respond normally is within judgment of good/bad. People think that if there is going to a criticism of some people, that some people have to be the bad guys and that some acts are simply bad. Those whoever that truly live by and work side by side animals like Fully and like Completely know that good/bad and morality are not real things that animals understand or live. Animals do kill one another, sometimes to eat the other, other times because of t...

Happy Birthday to the new day. Here we all are on Earth. And today is a new day. In this day and in this moment we are faced with this one process of realizing ourselves as life as everyone. To truly see others as ourselves, to truly see all that exists being equal. This is the challenge. And the way to walk this process, and the only way is to stop the energies of the mind, which are emotions and feelings. That is the only way it can be done, because how we are have been living is by letting our minds, our emotions and our feelings decide for us through reactions. We have given up our responsibility and agency in believing that our personality and our feeling good or bad is what matters or is even real. None of the systems and the mind is real in this reality. None of the personalities, none of the stories, none of the images or projections are real. All that is real is the physical. The physical is plain as day and it does not consist of a story or personality. Its quite boring in...

I made a VLOG expanding on this topic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECSasrCeXPc I heard a very interesting remark from a person and it led me to realize a few things. One thing is how we may approach a conversation or a moment of SHARING with a person and we may be approaching it within an agenda of being Persuasive and being Convincing. I can see in myself the pressure to be Persuasive ever since I was told by someone that I should be more persuasive when I speak. I was told this in a work context by a superior. And I remember it being quite odd/significant. There is something pure/real when we or any person simply shares directly what they see and how they see it without trying at all to convince you. And I have gone through a time in the World System as the Job market and Money system in Trying to be liked, and persuasive in order to sell things, and to in a way convince others to make peace or to be better. I can see in myself this pressure to speak in such a way where...

I am taking a tune from Joe Koe https://www.facebook.com/joekou He wrote about being Unapologetically Authentic, I believe so. The following are my own words and how I understand it, though if you want to check out Joe above I highly recommend it. If the words/message is different that how Joe said it, well then that's just me. So take from it what you will. Being Unapologetically Me, means saying to everyone that I stand for what is best for all. I stand with Desteni which has been slandered/insulted by being called a Cult. Though I do stand with it, even knowing the repercussions that the average person may be too stupid to look deeper into it and be merely scared by it being associated with it being called a Cult by some anonymous people, who have crafted a fictitious tale around it. Part of the very problem of humanity which Desteni provides a solution for, is related exactly to how and why people REACT to the word cult. Because it deals with our REACTIONS. Are we here...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of being soft and gentle. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear connecting with other people. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear connecting with someone who got angry in a moment. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate people who get angry. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry at a person when they reacted and they were angry and taking it out on me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with anger when someone feels insecure and is getting angry and is blaming me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not instead become soft, become gentle, and become supportive when someone is reacting with anger within insecurity and is blaming me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up when someone is reacting within anger and insecurity, and so give into my own anger...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge another as bad I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as bad I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge another as good I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as good I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/evaluate a person as good or bad based on their actions/decisions I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/evaluate myself as good or bad based on my actions/decisions I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/evaluate "what is best for all" as good I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/evaluate people who speak and say "what is best for all" as good I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge/evaluate myself as good for speaking "what is best for all" I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hat...

Unfortunately people give advice, but they are adding Vice. Meaning that there are people who are well meaning, and wanting to support you but their advice/support isn't what is best for you or relevant for you. This happens. This is part of life. Sometimes you will find yourself with people who are good friends, who are on your side, and yet they aren't able to give the support that you need or can rely on. It is a mistake to trust or rely on the support/advice from others completely. Much that I have to walk, and that each of us have to walk is something that is walked alone. Sometimes we lose sight of that, and lose that understanding that it is about SELF- Responsibility and Self-forgiveness, where you are going to be Alone with yourself and be the only one that has the big picture and understanding of what is here and what you are facing. It is what it is, and its also that way for a reason. The reason being that we each need to become that Independent and self-sustainin...