Yogan's Journey to Life

So today I what I became aware of as I faced my mind was that there are positive experiences that I have been accepting and allowing. The first one in my day was tiredness. When I woke up I was in tiredness, and it was a positive experience, I liked it. It was floating and relaxed, yet it was tiredness as a feeling, as a positive energy. I had trouble stopping it, even with self-forgiveness and breathing. It was only when I applied the inhalation as a point of checking myself for my experience and for any energy. My inhalation was very specific here, it was SHARP and FULL and I held my breath with my lungs full. Before when I was using breath in the morning it was more RELAXED and it was like HALF-full inhalation. So the breathing I needed to do to support was specific. As I continued my day I noticed the pattern of how I have accepted and allowed positive experiences to take over my life. I observed several things about me. I observed how emotions are there to protect feelings, wh...

Anger as Justice is tricky because... when you are in traffic and a car cuts you off you think to yourself what an asshole, or that they shouldn't be doing that! I can list many more examples here... someone throws their trash on the ground. someone didn't clean their dishes. someone left a mess. someone talked about you behind your back. someone took something from you without asking permission. So pretty much in all above examples it is sociably ACCEPTABLE to become angry. According to society and invisible rules you are right to get angry. At desteni though we push further, we ask the question deeper, we don't just accept things just because. We want the answer that is best for all in all ways. What does anger do here? And perhaps more importantly what does anger feel like? Have you considered that you feel good when you feel angry? Don't you? You feel empowered, strong, ready to go. The opposite of feeling weak. So anger isn't a negat...

Reference: Bernard's blog post h ttp://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2017/06/day-573-practical-living-explained.html www.Desteni.org

Today I learned that I have been feeling depression as Cynicism and Pessimism that the a world that is best for all won't happen. I felt this way as a reaction to seeing people give up, argue for their limitations, not willing to change, look at a point, or learn from it. It came from seeing people talking about money, and the natural world like its a dead thing. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel depression when seeing people talk about the nature as a dead thing and talk about how important money is. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel depression when I see people argue for their limitations and refuse to investigate themselves further. I also feel this way when people tell me how a world that is best for all is not possible. I also feel angry as I try to tell them why it is. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel depressed when people tell me that a world that is best for all is not possible. I forgiv...

About applying your ability to see things into the future, and see future consequence. Bernard's Blog post http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2017/06/day-573-practical-living-explained.html

There are many ideas floating around, many arguments, many beliefs, many opinions, many knowledge that is all useless cause it has nothing to do with Life, what's best for Life, what's best for reality, standing as All as one and equal, standing. Just tear it all down, rip it apart, ignore it, destroy it, forget it, drop it. Anything that prevents you from living as one and equal, living with this reality, living here today on Earth, just flush it away. It doesn't matter if you are old. It doesn't matter if global warming will destroy the planet. It doesn't matter who your president is. It doesn't matter what challenges you face on a daily basis. None of that matters. What matters is YOU and where YOU stand within this location point in this One Existence we all Share and CREATE on a daily basis through YOUrself. There is so much useless shit that goes through our minds, that add nothing of value to this reality, to life. Keep that which serves life and dr...

Love is now a feeling I can identify clearly within me. I can see it within me as a trigger to this video game. I can see it trigger when watching this or that movie. I can see it trigger in my memories with this person. Love is a feeling, an energy, which doesn't need to exist. Looking at how it works, how it exists within me: it is triggered by various media. And the moments that I felt love as a feeling with another person, was also triggered by the moment, by the situation. One memory where I felt love as an energy was when I was laying down and holding my girlfriend at the time, the bed was comfortable. The image of the place was perfect. And I felt the energy I generated within me attached to this moment. What is interesting about feelings is that they are attached to only particular or specific moments. For example, you won't find this love when the same "loved one" is yelling at you. How useful can the feeling of Love be, when its not there when you need it?...

So today I had went through a similar experience as yesterday. Yesterday I posted an audio recording describing how yesterday I had identified depression as an emotion I felt. Today I identified Love as a feeling. I'm going to describe in detail tomorrow what I learned from this feeling. Today I'm going to give a bit of an introduction on why feelings must also be stopped. I understand how feelings, like Love are defended in this reality to the utmost degree. So I understand that it isn't so clear or obvious why I am doing what I am doing with emotions and feelings, equally. The way I like to look at it that makes most sense, is how the most truest form or act of love that could exist would be something like the Equal Money system, or someone who is looking to make sure that everyone is taken care of physically, in all aspects, facets and regard of being alive and having physical needs. True love would be working on ending starvation completely. Love in the form of feelin...

New Audio Recording describing an Experience I had today, and why I stop emotions Divided into two parts.  Part 1 Part 2

I have an audio recording for today! WWW. Desteni.Org

The Power to Change who you are is an Immense power. It is immense because it is impossible in the eyes of humanity. It is God-like to have such power to change Self. It is super-hero. It is fantasy, a fairy tale. Just unbelievable, that everyone/anyone can have such power, not matter who they were, what they have done, who they had been. Some religions are seen as great in the eyes of men because they offer absolution from all sins, all past transgression, a clean slate that allows you into paradise, where God forgives you. What about just forgiving yourself? No matter what you have done or been. What about, instead of asking for God or someone else to forgive you, you just do it? So simple. Anyone can do it. A rapist could do it. A child-murderer could do it. Abusers, violent people, sinners could do it. Anyone can recognize that they have done something that isn't best for them and others and they can take responsibility and change. Anyone can. Its just a belief that you h...

Throughout our time on Earth, many people, humans feel purposeless and no meaning in their life. Just listless, just around, just existing. This feels both good and bad at the same time. Both enjoyable and dreading. Its a feeling and emotion, a unique combination, yet an energy all the same. What is interesting is that as long as we stay in the mind programs, our fate is certain. We will end up in some crusading force for religion, or an equally religiously held belief or idea about anything, or end up listless, floating, nothing, no meaning and purpose. Both extremes of a polarity, both visually very distinct and polar opposites, yet both equally the same "meaningless," fruitless, running in circles cycling in the same shit fate. You may find yourself at one point being a religious devotee to some belief, some idea, some cause, and the next moment, at the snap of a finger it all ends and you become a hollow shell of a person. Never realizing that its the same program and s...

Something interesting about the Mind is that when you are in it, you don't see possibility. You don't see potential. You don't see future play outs. You resist anyone telling you that a world of oneness and equality is possible. You resist hearing that everyone can be taken care of. You resist the so called "impossible," which calling it that is an act of resistance itself This world has infinite possibilities. So simple to say, a much different story to actually see it, be it, and bring a new reality forth through yourself. When stepping out of the mind you are stepping out of the past imprisoned by your lust to have a story, a personality, a Me that is defined by the information you carry around on your back that is your Name and Image that you keep of yourself in your head. Such an image of yourself, you consider real and worth defending with blood and violence. Your emotions are the substance that you claim substantiate your right to attack others in the nam...

Reality, Truth, Honesty. Such words have been tainted, corrupted, spit on, that any semblance of their substance seems far too distant to sight. In our mentally created reality of the mind, existing within polarities of good and bad, we have become accustomed to a perception that reality is ambiguous, murky, untrustworthy, rampant with corrupted individuals who at their very core can never be trusted, that everything is arguable and the only predictable thing is pure chaos in daily life. The possibility that truth can exist, that an objective way to live can exist would just appear as another trick that someone plays to gain favor over you. In a world of Opinion, Belief and Thought, where view points are what is rampant, that nothing is certain, its like a chaotic soil that never settles and constantly mixed about. Life cannot grow from the soil. Seeing clearly how reality exists and operates, seeing it for what it is, not letting anything like opinion cloud your sight, anythin...

This phrase makes you seem crazy, no mind, no emotion, no feeling. When you say it seriously and someone hears you, they want to say how you need feelings, that you need Love. What about Love? Before going there, first of all is it even possible to not have your mind? to not think? to not feel any emotion or feeling? Is it possible. Well, you may need to clarify what each thing means, but in a certain sense and definition, yes definitely. So perhaps an example will best illustrate the usefullness of stopping the mind, thought, emotion and feeling. Note that Feeling refers to positive like happy, and emotions refer to negative like sad, anger fear. So the example is this. You read an article. During the article you feel various feelings and emotions. Now you need to form an opinion about what you think the article says. Now what normally happens is that a person forms their opinion informed by their emotions and feelings. So both the good and bad. What is interesting is that WORDING...

The human Mind Conscious System works in polarities of good and bad. You have good feelings and bad ones. No matter what you feel, it charges your thoughts: You feel angry so you think about how an idiot someone is, and you think about them in anger. Or someone makes you feel happy, and you think about how good they are to you. This is how thinking works, it responds to how you feel. Its possible to stop the mind, and so stop the thinking and the feeling. Why do this? Because how much do you control your thoughts? Observe and see for yourself that they just move on their own. This is because your Mind manages your thoughts automatically, it creates them for you to hear and see. You don't directly create your thoughts, like on purpose. So your choice is either to participate or not to participate. Either let things happen or stop giving it attention. It is through your awareness and attention that you empower your thoughts and emotions. What is interesting about your mind is t...

Okay so I'm making up a word in order to communicate how I view the world to someone I meet. Lifeism. This is the view that everything in this existence is alive. The earth, sand, gravel, water, air, plants, animals. And that all is one and equal in value of life. Alive here means aware. So all of these things is aware. So there is nothing in existence that isn't aware, and so alive. So eating animals or plants you are eating something aware, so in that sense it doesn't matter if you eat an animal or plant. What matters is how you treat the plant and animal while it is alive, like how animals are treated in factory farming for example. I believe or follow Lifeism as opposed to Monotheism, like Christianity or Islam, or Judiasm. In these religions they paint the Earth as a dead thing, that was created by God that is there to Serve Man. I don't believe in that, which is what I just Said with Lifeism. Everything is alive and aware. I can't necessarily prove this ...

I noticed something. I bought some soda and was drinking it regularly the last week. I noticed something weird in my body. I had a lessened sensitivity to pain. It was weird. I later checked and caffeine does decrease the sensitivity of pain receptors. I never had so regularly drink caffeine. It was weird. Though it does bring up an important topic to talk about, and that is Pain. Normally, there is just pain throughout different parts of my body. And it is normal. Its not this immense pain, but then again its how you look at it too. Its the normal pain of just being alive and being physical. It is also the key to being sensitive to physical reality. It is being highly alert, or lets just say alert. In the same way that is how you enjoy the physical reality through physical senses. Enjoying the feel of the wind on your skin or the feel of water, or just the feel of laying down on a surface. It is all through physical senses. And where you are aware of what it feels through the body, ...

Happiness. There is something programmed into us that when we become parents or caretakers of children or animals/pets, we start to feel a kind of joy, happiness or love that consumes us. Where we feel this way that feels so good. Buts it is not a happiness that you live or direct. It is a happiness that is a reaction, something you just feel with your kids you care for or the animals/pets you care for. So that the day they may die or be taken from you, you are filled with an inexplicably powerful sadness/depression that you cannot stop. What is interesting is that what is BEST for your kids and pets is that you don't feel this way. Instead, what is best is that you LIVE happiness as yourself, where you JOIN them in LIVING. Be an equal with them. Doing this will teach them as well to do the same and become the same as you. Because Living Happiness is not something that can be taken away. You are not riding the waves of energy when you Live Happiness as yourself. It won't end...

I'm exploring depths of my mind I haven't before. Or should I rather say that I am seeing my mind and myself from a different perspective. I have been grappling with a point for many years, it was a question about whether what I felt within me sometimes when I write about something or express something is something real? Now, I understand. What I am talking about is this experience I called feeling strong or a strength when I would talk about best for all sometimes. I felt strong and I questioned it, because I know that I'm supposed to direct me, and not have these experiences rise up within me. I wasn't sure about it. So what ended up happening is that I embraced it and just did it on purpose saying it was me and it was real, because I am talking about what is best for all. So I was wrong. It was an experience of the mind. It was energy. Now I understand. I understand that no matter what you may call it, energy is energy. You can call it peace, justice, best for al...