Yogan's Journey to Life

Right now, neither the vast majority of men or women are fully living their sexuality. This is something difficult to understand. As a guy, the normal orgasm ejaculation seemed great. Though in comparison to actually expressing myself sexually, it was puny, like nothing. And if you haven't lived it yet yourself, you won't understand. Though I did it, so its possible to do. In the beginning I followed the basic Desteni principles. Do not react. So I did self-forgiveness on all reactions I had, which included with sexuality. If i reacted to seeing a big breasts of a woman, I would do self-forgiveness. And so on and so forth. Every single time. Then I started practicing masturbation while still doing self-forgiveness on any sexual thought. Without relying or using thought, I relied on the physical, my physical body. I found that the natural liquid secretion from my penis was enough for creating lubrication and it just felt good physically. I didn't need to think of anything....

 You Can be Friends with ANYONE. And Anyone can Be Friends with YOU!!! This wording is specific. Because currently we view Friendship as something that either Exists or doesn't. We don't view Friendship as a VERB as an ACTION. We tend to make ourselves POWERLESS when it comes to the Friendships that we have or have had. I was like this too. I believed I only connected with certain people and that's it. That it wasn't my fault that I didn't have control. So here we are going to open up the misconceptions we have with Friendships and open up the Potentially best way to live when it comes to the people in your everyday life. In our days we tend to have jobs and are stuck with certain people for certain amount of time. And in other times of the day we are free to choose who we spend time with. HERE, we will not be discussing at all about these dimension of choice, that is up to you to arrange your time. We are here focusing on what you DO when you are WITH someone...

I am in the process of Recreating myself completely. I was stuck in a place. And so I either stay stuck here or recreate myself. So far, the road that brought me here to being stuck was one where I uncovered myself, my secrets, and what I am good at and what I enjoy doing in this world. I found, you could say, exactly what many people look for in this life. Yet knowing who I am, knowing my being, it was not enough. Because this world system, this environment, I cannot live my being, live my creativity, live my expression as who I am right now. Because this world rejects it. So here is my stuckness: I am not able to live my being in this world system in a harmony, in an equilibrium, in a balance, in stability. In other words, I am not able to be me. Many people have suicided when they reach a somewhat similar point. Or they make other compromises, for example they stay simply stuck forever... They never change... because how can they? This is who they really are, in their soul, ...

Every single person matters equally. Abuse does exist. And the abusers matter just as much as anyone else. People who are pedophiles need support. People who are murderers need support. People who are greedy and corrupt need support. People who are racists and promote genocide need support. To vilify people is to not support them. It is unsupportive to vilify people. Vilifying people is an abusive act itself. Abuse happens all the time. It is continuing to be accepted and allowed. We can end abuse through supporting the abusers to change. Change happens in many ways, including prevention. Prevention means supporting everyone, because anyone can abuse. Support means education, money, attention, and guidance. Being a part of people's lives. Support is something we all can do. A world that kills all abusers, is a world that cannot exist. Because killing abusers is abuse. Doing everything you can is support. Everything Matters, Everyone matters. Everyone was once a child. ...

Many of us want to have a good life. To find happiness. To live well. One of our dreams is to be just happy for no reason. There is a problem with being happy for no reason. In religion, if we connect with God or if we attain enlightenment, we are in bliss. We are happy for no apparent reason, needing nothing more.There is a problem with this. If we somehow simply discover a way to just be happy whenever we want for no apparent reason, because we can choose to, there is a problem with this. There is a phrase that exists: There is nothing wrong with being happy, but... So here I am saying that there is something wrong with being happy, if you do not include oneness and equality, or everyone/everything in existence at the center of your life and living. Because look at what happens: someone who attains the god-like state of bliss, of being one with God, of having their soul attain enlightenment, will literally just sit there and preach for others to do the same, and say that t...

Oneness and Equality How many of us speak and live within oneness and equality? What is oneness and equality you ask? Well, its something you live, where you are aware of how everything is one and equal. So when you take a sip of your drink, you are aware of how your drink is one and equal to you, how the cup is something you are one and equal to, how you body is something you are one and equal to, and the breath you breathe is something one and equal to you, etc...  The word "etc" here means the entirety of existence. So literally etc... to the max. Living as oneness and equality is nothing that any religion has preached or realized. Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, Taoism, or Atheism etc... Usually in religions, or atheism, people follow a set of rules of behavior that defines what you should do or not do. They are quite explicit, like don't drink alcohol, don't have an abortion, or pray a certain number of times a day etc... Though what is the overall a...

The future. I don't know the future. I can imagine what I would like to see happen in the near future. In the near future, I would like to see people becoming more connected with their bodies. Where physical pain doesn't hold you back. Working a job for most of the day is a physical pain. This physical pain can be surpassed with one's spirit. It is a tipping point where one is able to do more work and do the work well. Where people are so connected to their bodies that they can perform and do their work better. In the near future, I would like to see some people, some percentage of people earning the most money they can in a stable work, and they live ascetic lives. By Ascetic I mean to not buy a luxury car, or buy a luxury house or own two houses. Here I mean to live simply, have what you need, and avoiding materialism and consumerism. Where with all the money you save, that these people use it towards uplifting people who are not able to work/earn the same livelih...

Everyone has a relationship with everyone. Yet not everyone has a relationship with everyone. What this means is that we may have a relationship with everyone, but we may not even be aware of it, invest in it, or get it any attention. Within the world system, we have agreed to follow certain rules and procedure for relationships. This includes all types. Friendships, work relationships, romantic relationships. We believe that our emotions are us, and they need to be respected. We believe that we must respect how each one feels. Again, with the ownership. Where if someone hurts your feelings its their fault. We treat our emotions like tangible objects, like stones that hurt you. And it can also be like sex, where its like someone is giving you something wonderful just through your emotions. With these rules we feel just in acting and reacting as we do. If someone disrespects your emotions they deserve punishment. If someone makes you feel good, well you owe them a favor. With ...

Looking at how the world system is set up, everyone is on their own. Individuals are separated. And so when an individual owns something is theirs and they have the right to do with it whatever they want. At least that is how the world system is set up. So welcome to the world system where ownership exists. So people can own land. People can own animals. People can own other people. People can own money that is theirs. People can own a house. People can own a business. If you work for someone they own you, until you quit. There are laws that protect against certain abuses. Yet whenever there isn't anyone to enforce the law, laws can be broken. Whenever people are unable to afford the attention of authorities laws are broken, and abuses occur in secret. As the owner, you are the dictator, which is being like a real dick. You can tell however you want it to be. You are the owner. No one else can change that. They can steal from you sure. And you have the right to defend yourself an...

When you go on vacation, there is this phrase: unplug yourself from your devices. So turn off your cell phones, or leave behind your laptops and smart phones. Disconnect for a while, unplug yourself... Here, we are looking at unplugging yourself from the world system. To explain this I will tell my story. I am didn't grow up connected into the world system. I was part of a family, where I grew up learning about the thoughts, and the mind, and meditation and yoga. I didn't have a clue about the real world system, and I didn't have a clue that I didn't even have a clue. hahahahaha. You are not aware of what you are not aware of.... until you actually see things from the other side. So during the last few years I have been undergoing a process that I wasn't exactly aware of what I was doing. I had a goal, a need, and a drive for an outcome, which involved being a part of the world system, working with people, working in a job, making money, dealing with all the...

I have been through abusive situations with various people. And in each situation I haven't stood up for whats best for all. I will write out several of these situations. What happened. What I said, and did, and what the other person said and did. I will also describe how I felt. I will then write out how to stand up to the abuse so that it becomes what is best for all. Abusive situation #1 A person wanted to discuss something with me and I was not interested. They got upset. They insisted and I also insisted no. Eventually they said I'm gonna take this glass and smash it over your head. I immediately felt scared, threatened and intimidated. I have been living with this fear for 2 years. And it has forever changed how I viewed this person and how we relate. In that situation though I didn't say anything. I retreated. I was scared. Now, what should I have done? Putting myself back in that situation in my Imagination, and memory, I see I should have said the following:...

I made a mistake and it affected someone else. In this real time moment, I can only apologize, but its not enough, so I can do what I can now to make it right. I can pay back what I can, or give what I can to make it right. Apologizing is not something i practiced much of. But its needed. When I wrong someone, I need to make it right. I can keep apologizing to the person, telling them I am sorry, and I promise not to do this again, and that this is what I will do next time. I can give them a gift as gesture, or do them a favor, or pay them for something that they had to do because of my mistake. Its not about the gift, favor or money, but its about the gesture. Its about showing the person your intent in being serious in changing, and to do what you can NOW to make things right and redeem yourself. You cannot change the past, but you can take action NOW. This is important for healthy relationships, real relationships and sincere relationships. This is what I applied and learned this we...

So when we experience pain in our bodies, for whatever reason, maybe a mysterious reason, I notice that in me that I had let it affect my behavior and actions. And  I realize I cannot let that happen. That I need to be able to move myself and make sure that my behavior and actions are not worsen by what pain or suffering that is going on in my body, which includes how I talk to people and what I say. Pain and suffering is a condition and state of being alive. When you work your muscles you are literally tearing your muscles, that is normal, and how it is suppose to work. What the body does is that it provides a painkiller for you to not feel the pain, Dopamine. That is why when you run you can get what is called a runners high. Sometimes though, you will just feel like shit all over your body, and you don't know why, but you cannot let that affect you. There is something in many cultures about being a Man or becoming an Adult, where you now must be able to withstand Pain. In star w...

So in my process I have connected the dimension of sound to the solution of living words, where within living a word, I obviously will be speaking in daily life, and one thing I do to cross-reference my living of the word is the sound I use when speaking. Because obviously, if I were to be attempting to live the sound leader and I end up speaking/sounding angry, scared or nervous, I am not effectively living the word leader. Now, this assessment or judgment or determination that what my sound is like must be from me, because obviously others can say, assess, determine your sound, but they could be wrong, just as you could be wrong. The cross-reference I trust in checking my sound is by looking at my memories and looking where else I have used this sound and what happening in the moment and within me. The sound I use is very specific and has a history. So the very specific sound leader that is accompanying living the word leader, has a history and is specific. This history is very short...

Chloe Leanne Brooks https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CYChu-UvzL8 There is much we do not know unless we experience the loss of something. Do you appreciate your own food, your body? Do you appreciate the air, the ability to walk up, the ability to dress yourself, take a shower? Do you appreciate the chance at being alive and live, be a part of the world, being able to be, live and interact with people in the world? When you look at silly reasons, excuses, fears, about what if they don't like you, what if things go bad, what if things don't work out, what if your dreams, goals, plans don't pan out. Look at the fact that you are alive and could actually do these things, attempt such things. Because one day you won't have the opportunity anymore, your time will be up. This is true for everyone. No one lives forever. Learn from others and the experiences they are going through, like Chloe Brooks who shares herself in this video. Place yourself in her shoes and see thr...

Education is important. No doubt. Yet there are doubters. But what is education? For me I have only recently come to appreciate and, see from an new perspective, Education and what it is. There are a number of topics that I can cover, I will try to cover them all. Education is a word. I can reflect that it is a word. I can recall and remember all the ways this one word can be used. It is connected in my brain to these word possibilities: School, College, University, classes, subjects, math, history, science, literature, teachers, nature vs. nurture, experience, skill, self-taught, questioning, curiosity, truth, honesty, objective, unbiased, arguments, thesis, question, hypothesis, nature, the earth, reality, morality, ethics, best for all, understanding, learning, open. The fact that I connect all these words to the word education is proof that I have a deep, rich, complex education, that is aligned not with fantasy, manipulation, or lies. For some people, education is about such t...

There is an entertainment going on and its not centered in Hollywood California, or Nashville, Tennessee, or Bollywood, or in the internet. It is actually found pretty much everywhere across the globe. It is in our heads, the heads of people. There is an entertainment happening that is cannot be matched by all the executive studios, producers, actors, singers, comedians around the world combined. It is the form entertainment that we have created with our minds and only we can stop it. With our heads, our minds, we can create amazing highs, higher than all the drugs. We create these highs and we stay in them. You cannot fight these highs, because entertainment thrives off of conflict. You see it across all the movies and tv shows, all books, songs, stories, games... without conflict they couldn't exist, it wouldn't be called a story. Drama depends on conflict. And Life is destroyed through/from conflict. An existence, a human population that lives off of Entertainment, wit...

What is held within the word family? What is the information that we carry within from our life experience that is stored within the word family? Your Life Experience, this Word, the Information, all of it will be activated and lived/possessed when it is turned on. The word is turned on with the proper triggers. Your family will always be your family. When you compare how you behave, what you physically say, how you sound when you are speaking as and within the word Family, to when you are not, there is a difference. When you meet a stranger, when you meet someone for the first time, there is much respect and civility. How come with the people we have known the longest, our family, can the really worst of us, the really evil of us can exist? Maybe its because we have defined our family as always being our family, and that no matter what we say or do to them, or they unto us, that they will always be our family, so it is okay, because they love you DEEP down. When it comes to fami...

When two people come together to start a family, their relationship as a couple while raising their kids is imprinted and transferred into their children. This is what I will be describing today. In past blogs I have analyzed described how parents imprint themselves onto their kids, but this was in the context of the parents as Individuals. Today, I am specifically looking at the Relationship of the parents, and how that imprints onto the children. Looking at this specific dimensions yields new insights onto this subject. In the general knowledge and beliefs people have, I have observed people saying that its important that a child's parents stay married and divorce causes harm. I have also heard about research studies looking at fighting, and yelling and general abusive environment and how that also harms the child emotionally, and mentally, affecting their development. Within my own self-work, through the desteni tools, I focus primarily on helping myself to transcend pattern...

Oneness and Equality means that you are willing to do anything for the whole. You are willing to give up privileges, rights, if these things stand in a way of what is best for all. You are willing to follow rules and laws if these support what is best for all. You are willing to give up guns, drugs, alcohol, sex, freedom if it meant what is best for all. You have to consider the relativity of things. Relative this. Right now the world has seen incredible expansion and growth. If oil/gasoline was never discovered, we wouldn't have all that the richest 50% has access to on planet earth. Do you know what oil and gasoline is? It is the living body, the living tissue of plants and animals that has been stewing for a fucking long time. It is a very Condensed form of energy that humans just found. But it took a fucking long time to create. So you do the math. Things are relative. Freedoms are relative. They are relative to what our economic luxury and our environment has to offer. Hum...