Day 856 Hiding

 One of the greatest pitfalls in life is not being who you really are with other people. Imagine a person who lives on their face what they are experiencing. So whatever they are going through internally, they express it in some way. This doesn't have to be some extreme version of it, but it is clear that the person is living who they are on their sleeves for all to see. It is not hidden. It is not suppressed. So they are actually aware of what they are going through internally and so what they feel. 

Living in the above way is much better than living in a way where you are suppressing what you are feeling and going through. I suppose as some misguided way of controlling how others see you, so that they don't see you as sad, or mad, or upset. But then you never really know what you are feeling then. You never allow yourself to know or to see what you are feeling. You don't acknowledge it. So therefore you can never work on it, or change it for real. 

I suppose there could be many reasons why a person would do the above and suppress. One reason is maintaining a certain appearance. But whatever the reason, you must realize how living as who you are, what you are experiencing for all to see is something liberating. It is honest. It is clear. And you can accept that as what your current experience is. You can have a peace within the storm. The peace being acceptance and the promise to care for you and to help yourself to become better. And this is a solitary thing, you give yourself this alone. And thus it is a freedom of the burden of trying to impress an impression on others. You are free to be you, at least who you are now. 

There isn't any other way to really change yourself, not with suppression. Have courage and allow yourself to feel... so you may change it.... but let yourself be in this moment, and feel. And promise to yourself what you will be and do for you. 

Stop hiding, be yourself, and change.