Day 69 Adrenaline

Adrenaline as excitement

Adrenaline as fear

Adrenaline

My heart beating, my heart pressure is high. I can't relax/stop it. It just goes.

I am addicted to Adrenaline. My body is conditioned to exist in adrenaline. I am seeking for more adrenaline. Adrenaline as Fear is my everyday life. Adrenaline as Excitement is my Entertainment everyday.

I choose to redefine and stop. No more adrenaline as fear or as excitement. No more heart pressure. Instead I choose when I do it. I choose when I adrenaline. Otherwise I am relax, stable, slow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as adrenaline when I wake up and for my day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move quick and fast as what's normal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as caffeine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for adrenaline as excitement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for adrenaline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my blood pressure to rise and beat high, even though I am just sitting in a chair doing nothing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have adrenaline even though I am just laying in bed or I am just sitting doing nothing, where it feels I can't stop the blood pressure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let adrenaline be habit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let adrenaline be normal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to enjoy adrenaline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to find adrenaline as entertaining.

I redefine adrenaline as high blood pressure as a way to do things with my body in a fast way where it needs more resources for my muscles or my mind/brain. It is short burst. The body is not designed to use it long term. Should be very rarely a full day. Not the norm. It is harmful to exist in such a high state of demand on the body. Not Normal.

I take responsibility for adrenaline that it is to be directed by me on purpose. It is my responsibility to use adrenaline responsibly. Just like a drug, just like a caffeine. It is how I use it, how I live it. There is consequence for using it. It has an effect. It up to me to change.

Power doesn't corrupt. It just reveals who you are. Take responsibility.

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