Day 942 Angels and Demons

 I have been working on the Positive/Negative Energies, surrounding Optimism and rose colored glasses.

I suspect the following: that my lazy eye is due to the preprogramming of viewing the world and everything through extreme optimism and hope, as they say viewing the world through rose colored glasses.

I used an astrology website https://www.zodiacsign.com/ to see the levels of preprogramming that exists within me. This lead me to the term of rose colored glasses, as it had indicated that as a weakness. And when I looked at my entire life, I indeed have viewed the world that way. 

In my teenage years, I would delve into memories like a drug, and I would delve into Love as a drug. The first time I ever saw porn was around 13 years old. And when I looked at the kind of dreams I had as a child, I was preprogrammed to chase love. When I looked at my previous post on Love, it ties with sex is true. It drives the birthing of children. All done within a possessed state. All done within the Mind. 

While I am not a woman, I suspect the same is true for women. Romance novels, romance movies etc... are their form of porn/imagination for love. And I can observe myself and not have those same reactions. So commonsense it has to do with the preprogramming you are born with that is placed inside your body.

For example, with the Twilight series, you can see how the visceral base reaction of women is to chase after a love that is toxic, and masculine, that is very specific that fits into the framework of how men are preprogrammed. It is not a choice done in awareness. And thats how women end up in situations they dont actually see is harmful to them, until the love wears off. Its porn. And it warps the mind of the person. The more they engage in that thinking. 

It is my goal that all preprogramming is stopped. It is commonsense, that Life is not preprogramming. Life is responsibility. 

Imagine the antithesis, that a man and a woman choose to raise a family, that they choose to have children, not out of emotions/feelings. I don't know if that has ever happened in existence. I wonder what kind of difference that would make in the life of the child. They say that the programming is passed onto the child from the parents, and that makes sense. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within optimism as energy as the mind as preprogramming. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view the world through rose colored glasses

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to chase after feeling good, whether it be through porn, or love, or memories, or food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view women as somehow better than men because they dont watch porn, when they have their own challenges, which are different, but not less than mine. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that love conquers all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that love is a feminine energy, and that feminine energy is better than masculine energy, since love gives a presentation of peace. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that love leads to peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe relationships based on love is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view love as good

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to chase after love my whole life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the truth of love

When and as I see myself feeling love, I stop and I realize love leads to war, leads to violence, leads to breakups, leads to destruction and hate. 

I commit myself to live as oneness and equality instead of love as energy.

Women are like the Angels, and Men like the Demons. When its actually all just bullshit. The illusion, the presentation, the white light. I can see that in the society. Men tend to be more direct in their possessions, and women tend to use the illusion. They exist in a polarity, and keep each other from changing. 

I can observe some interesting points connected to love. Love is tied to the idea of raising a family. And the energies within that seem fixed. Almost asking the question, how can I be wrong? Does oneness and equality exists within the family? No it does not. Some are more than others. And fighting occurs. Separation exist within family. And family currently is connected to Love. A family that is born out of oneness and equality is not born out of love. Something trustworthy that stands. Something that exposes and supports. Something that is direct and real. 

Think about what love is, it is a feeling that possesses you to act a certain way, conditional that the feeling is there. As soon as the feeling is gone... 

Are you going to be there for your family, or will you leave. Think about how many people just leave. Love is never the answer. Wake up.