Yogan's Journey to Life

Servant of Life; Servant of the Physical. So there is an interesting point I would like to get across. Looking at these words, "Servent" sticks out. It sounds like Serpent. And what did we learn in the Bible? The serpent tricked or manipulated or deceived Adam and Eve. So let me ask you, who is the greatest being in the Garden? Man or the serpent? Hmm...I know it might be a blow to your supposed high held regard of Humanity, but self-honestly the Serpent was the greatest being in the garden of Eden, because he did trick Man, and Man fell for it. But how do we regard these things: serpent and deception/manipulation? We regard it as evil don't we? I don't know if there's an easy way to say this, but we kind of screwed ourselves with this. How come? Well, it turns out that most of us are so scared of manipulation and deception, that we are actually opening up ourselves to manipulation and deception, because we never studied the point. We never studied the grea...

Silence I can become very quiet. I can sit and listen to someone talking to me, as long as they are talking. And I can sit with them in silence. I have never done this before, but I would find it quite enjoyable. That I would live/be with someone, and we would never speak, yet we would communicate without words. Now that I went through a personal journey where I spoke and expressed me, I am looking what is required of me. Meaning that what the moment requires of me, whether it is to speak or not to speak. So to again be silent. And its simply based on what the moment requires. Its funny that I have a slight to resistance to not speaking. It's only slight. I find that I can drown my thoughts in silence. That the silence is all pervading, all consuming, a never ending dark pool of liquid. I have heard some people in my life say that to be silent, to not speak would be a torture, something that they can't do, and would lead to great stress and anxiety. I have s...

Father Daughter ‘shot in head’ called 911 after father ‘massacred family’ "A Queens dad massacred his family early this morning, marching from room to room, shooting his two daughters, his girlfriend and her mother in the head before later killing himself, police said." Oh daddy!  So what is the father/dad construct. So I am not speaking about being a father, however if I were a father I would probably live and integrate this father/dad construct because it already exists within me, so it is prepared to enter into position. So then how is the father/dad construct existent within me. Well, believe it or not, I am relating to everyone in certain relationship constructs, here are some examples: Mother -all females that are old enough Sister Friend Girlfriend -all females that are young enough Father  So as you might have observed one of the main point that distinguish whether I treat a female like a mother or like a girlfriend is their a...

So like I said in my previous blog, I will only be writing on substantial points. So I see within me the space to integrate myself further into responsibilities, thus things that will create a visible change in reality. I have many creative ideas already, so I am not short of ideas. What is missing is the application. There is some energy of resistance, its not very intense however. What I find though is that things are very silent, and living out these responsibilities, things are silent, and with that silence I feel fear. Strange isn't it? But its here. It feels almost like a subtle wavelength that moves with the silence. Haha, so as if the silence has sound? Haha. This fear hidden in the silence is tied to the fear of living these responsibilities so absolutely that they are a part of me completely. This is what this fear actually is. And the silence is just the future point, what I anticipate/expect the future to be like without fear... strange how the fear is tied to... being...

Hi, so I will be, like the title says, reassessing and recreating my starting point for blogging. From now on, I will be blogging on substantial points. So no more surface level, or simply touching the surface of the mind. I will be going deep into points of my mind and the general mind. I will be describing in detail, the energies, my experiences, and thoughts I have. So let's begin! I have potential business client, and with this client, there exist a dimension of hope for the future, specifically that she becomes a long standing and permanent client. If such a future were to occur, this would secure a significant amount of income for me. On a practical level, I have already decided to do whatever physical work necessary, meaning as much physical support possible, within the limits of what I can give without upsetting the balance of time I have, to secure her as a client. Why? I am in the beginning stages of a business, and if I secure a good solid ground of clients, no matt...

So if you read my title, well... it is an odd/strange title isn't it? Haha. So yes indeed, I didn't write yesterday. Why? Well, it turns out I have some really good news. I am becoming busy! Work is coming my way now. An opening into the system, one that is clear defined, like a hole against a steel wall, I have made penetration, and I am thickening and deepening the hole. i am making it wider. What does this mean? When I penetrate deep enough, water is going to come rushing out. Work is going to come flooding my way. And its happening because I am making this hole count. So I am anticipating this to happen. A hole somewhere. So this does mean time will be more limited. I will be working more, so I will need to be resting more. Etc... Of course it doesn't mean I will stop writing altogether, because there will be pauses, moments between my schedule where I will have time, maybe because I scheduled it, or also by nature of the schedule for that week/day. So yesterday...

Im going to share one of the secrets to achieving your goals, whatever they may be... this secret is to plan for them. Take a look at this, when you look at the work place, what do see? Do you see schedules, and planned assignments? Yes, everyone is on a schedule and clock. But who creates those schedules the people? The individuals workers? No. But then who? The Businesses, the owners, the ones who create the structure. So you have all these businesses with preset and preexisting structures, and if you want to enter one of these businesses and work with/for them, you must what? Follow the structure, plan and schedule. That is what successful businesses do. They stick to the plan. What is one thing that schools teach/assess? A persons ability to follow the rules, turn in assignments on due dates, follow a schedule, and sticking to the plan. These are important things? Why and to whom? They are important because you are making effective use of your time, and they are important to the ...

So I'm taking this opportunity to define the words, and thus energies within me, for these words: Want, Need and Desire. So similar to how in yesterdays blog I was looking at anticipation, and those positive feelings, I am looking at something similar, something "Positive." So depending on what energy is accessed, one of these words, or some combination of these three words, define the energy. Some of my physical behaviors and changes to my behavior include, Tightness in my stomach/solar plexus, Tensing of my feet, Clasping of my hands. Shutting of my eyes. The energy for me feels intense. In general, now that I can look and reflect on what is going on within me, I feel/become uncomfortable where I am, how I am sitting, laying or standing. I feel/become uncomfortable in/within my body. It is functioning in such a way where its so uncomfortable within my body, that I, for some reason, seek these desire/want/need point. So its as if want/need/desire is defined in order to r...

Knight in Shining Armor So the knight in shining armor is a fairy tale archetype, originating from Medieval Europe. It also relates to the widespread framework for stories involving a male character that saves a female character, and they both fall in love. Within me, I notice such a point, operating on an automatic and feeling level. This feeling reaction I would call feel warm and feeling love. I notice too that there is a connection to pornography, which is another form of story telling, but involving sex. Within pornography, believe or not, is the same feeling of warmth and love, in relation to the female character wishing/desiring/wanting sex. In comparison to the archetypal fairy tale story, the female character wished, wants, and desires to be saved. Within these specific words, and situations, there are images within me, which are energetically charged with the same point. Throughout my life I spent a great deal of time, especially teenage years, thinking about girls, ...

Manipulation What everyone does, but no one wants to admit to, and feels insulted if someone did it them.  So I'm going to use my family as an example. I can't speak for the world, and the 7 billions humans on this planet, and whether they have manipulated or not, but I can certainly speak for myself. So I certainly, definitely, absolutely, positively have manipulated people and situations a many a time. I have manipulated others views/perspective/opinion/belief about other people, involving lying to do so. I have spoken to someone in a conversation in an attempt to change their view of themselves, into one that is harmful, destructive and inferior. I have in a way destroyed lives, to get what I wanted, which is to be the one on top, the last one standing. And I know we all do it. How? Well, let's keep that a secret between you and me.  So why am I talking about this topic? Well, let's just say its quite pertinent right now. And its also not something I ever ...

Beauty! what is it? I mean really, let's question and find this answer. For me, this word has been in so many different ways and contexts that it is so opinionated. Okay when I look at the dictionary I find this 1. The qualities that give pleasure to the senses. This definition explains why I have heard this word refer in various context. Sound/music can be called beautiful. Something visual like a painting can be called beautiful. What is interesting too is that definition number two is this: 2. A very attractive or seductive looking woman. So I am personally confused, haha. I would rather reserve words to give their highest meaning. For me it seems wasted to have a word that supposedly have value to leave it just to pleasing to the senses. Like about the beauty of integrity? Like who a person is! Because consider the extreme, a person of such immense value as Who they are, yet they have the most "ugliest" body or appearance, compared to this: a person with such patheti...

So it is written and so it shall be done. So what does the above phrase mean? To me it appears that a person with such authority, trust, reliability, and predictability, state that if he writes something, than that written word is binding and he will honor that word, and act based on what he wrote. This is pretty immense power, isn't it? It involves self-control, self-will, self-mastery, to carry out exactly what you said you were going to do. What do you notice about people in power, or in wealthy positions? Don't they follow their word, and carry through exactly what they said they will? Is this the very definition of being a trustworthy person? Perhaps it is, or at least partly. How about in one's individual life? Let's take me for example, I write here in this blog. So if I were to write that I am going to do something, and with such authority, and consistency, that I do it. Well... Then I did it, haha. So this would be me living out, so it is written and s...

Sex So what is sex? If you look up the word in the dictionary you will probably get a medically worded definition. Using my sophisticated Oxford Dictionary, I have this definition: Sexual intercourse 1.     sexual activity between individuals, especially the insertion of a man's penis into a woman's vagina until orgasm and ejaculation occur So first things first, if having good sex, enjoyable sex were as straightforward and simplistic that this definition suggestions, well… its not. If all you had to do was to stick your penis in the vagina that would be great. But anyone who have had sex can attest, No, its not that simple and straightforward. So if we look at some statistics of sexually related problem/difficulties. This website says: “the prevalence of sexual dysfunction is 43% for women and 31% for men in a large American sample.(1) Erectile dysfunction increases as men age, with 52% of men age 40 - 70 having some degr...

The Relation- Ship Construct. Yay!!! So I have recently mined into a significant vein of the relationship construct of mine. So I made a better deep dent, into parts I didn't see, or at least have suppressed, for a long time. But this is just one part, and there were more points that revealed themselves today! So I will be recap what I have already looked at for myself, and delving into these new points.  So in my personal writings and self-forgiveness I uncovered that within the relationship constrict, and particularly the desire for a relationship, I am actually desiring many points. I am desiring pleasure, to be cared for, to be serviced for example. And within that the greatest desire of them all, sex, which really is just pleasure. This I found being sourced to early childhood experiences of love, and being CARED for (note the wording). As a baby you are helpless, and in my life in particular I was extremely well cared for and I experience energy which I called the love...

Im not the only one So these words are specific, "Im not the only one." At first glance, they might not seem much, however I ask you to look at these words with me: "I'm not the only one," and join me in asking ourselves have I really lived these words and the realization/truth that they are? In my life in totality, I haven't because I have for the most part only considered ME, and my life, and what mattered to me. I wasn't considering other people, and their lives. Today there was one such instance that I would like to draw upon within redefining and changing me, and my behavior and how I relate to others, and this world. I won't go into the details, like dates, facts and names, about this event, but the principles and nature of the event is important. I was reacting to a specific person, and it was a rather unusual and peculiar reaction. So I was working at understanding what is going on here, until I came to the point that I am not the only...

So I read the Virus Free Mind Book, written by Bernard Poolman, and published around 2000, I believe. I found very useful insights, and explanations, on various topics and points. There were certainly many positive points and perspectives I haven't considered before.  I certainly recommend everyone to read it. https://eqafe.com/p/virus-free-mind The book is very well flowing. Each chapter follows one another quite nicely. The illustrations were insightful. I found the exercises quite practical and well-explained. I enjoyed the play on words that Bernard utilized in a constructive purpose. There was obviously some of Bernard light worker side coming through at times, but that were limited to a few sections. Keep in mind that this was written before the portal opened. All in all, I give it 5/5. 

Life is currently A Theatrical Production So within applying self-forgiveness aloud, in the moment, with the energy experiences that are here, which before appeared subtle, but since doing self-forgiveness on them, I see them more clearly for how they exist in this moment, here. I see how my motivation is tied to the future, specifically the FEAR of the future. FEAR False Evidence Appearing Real Finding Excuses and Reasons Failure Expected and Received False Emotions Appearing Real Future Events Appearing Real Frantic Effort to Avoid Reality So through doing self-forgiveness in the moment aloud, I saw that I was either constantly accessing the future or the past. So do you know how sometimes we think about a deadline or a future meeting, schedule, work or responsibility? And how we sometimes  think about what we will do, how it will go, what will happen, and how we will handle it? One thing that seems to go unnoticed, or at least not acted upon is that when we do...

http://www.washingtonpost.com/news/storyline/wp/2015/01/05/20-states-just-raised-the-minimum-wage-it-wasnt-enough/ Minimum wage in Florida this year rose 12 cents, up from $7.93 to $8.05. The pay bump applies to an estimated 365,000 workers. Roderick Livingston, 27, said it won’t lift him from “modern day slavery.” “I work at Taco Bell in St. Petersburg, Florida. I work as much as I can, usually 25 hours each week. I sleep in my car. It’s an ‘87 Cadillac. It doesn’t work. So, I take the bus. I am the father of two sons: a two-year-old and a seven-year-old. Most of my money goes to child support. The rest goes to my bus passes: weekly most of the time, and monthly if the money is looking good. How do I eat? I take food from work and eat in the back room. And on the 12th of every month, the mother of one of my children gives me about $100 in food stamps. Me and my kids, we can’t afford the things that we need. Anything that we want is a no-no. I haven’t made more th...

What is Justice? http://www.irishtimes.com/news/crime-and-law/courts/coroner-s-court/woman-took-her-life-on-day-she-was-due-to-be-evicted-1.2057107 Woman took her life on day she was due to be evicted   A woman found dead by sheriffs as they repossessed her home had overdosed on painkillers, an inquest has heard. the deceased’s father said he saw her on the Friday before she died and she was “perfectly calm, in top form”. He said that, if anything, her demeanor had “improved” in the previous three months. When asked by coroner Dr Brian Farrell whether her sister had mentioned the repossession, her sister said she had not. “I asked her multiple times, because I knew she was in and out of work, how she was paying it, if she was paying it and she was assuring me she had spoken to the bank. I had concerns. I asked her but she was convincing me all was fine,” she said.  ~~~  So do you see what happens when you don't have money? A woman was losing he...