Day 39 Why?

There's is something that has happened to me... Or rather I should say that I have been walking a long process that started in 2009, and so its been about 9 years of me doing this... And now, its like I don't care what people think of me... I'm not afraid of being alone... I can just say anything...

I have my plans/goals for myself which I wrote in my last blogs, and so I have my purpose and meaning. I have my expressions where I have fun through expression. And I went to Jury duty which showed me how much different I am from most people. It's like why bother hiding who I am. I'm so different already anyway. And its also like something inside me snapped, where its like why waste my time not being me, and just living. I am unique and I am different from others. So I live my uniqueness, I share my difference, I live me. Something like that. Because I am so alone already, why wait. Why die without anyone knowing who I am?

I share my difference, I share me, before I die.


I know it sounds stupid to say or think: that like I'm afraid to share me, because other people are like me, think like, me, are similar to me. But then when I see how I'm so alone or so different, I'm like, why give a fuck? I'm different, so I need to share me!

And its not about difference. Its about thinking that other people are GOOD, or see the BEST WAY already. And so I HAVE to be ME and express my goodness, my sight/vision that is the best way because no one actually is believing it or standing up for it.

Its like people are so mind controlled, so robotic, like in the matrix, that like why should I give a fuck what they think. I know the best way, I know what's its like to have FUN for free, I know truths. So fuck it. I stand by the truth. Why hide the truth? Why bother? Just say the truth.Tell others what it is.

I see the truth!!!! So why keep quiet about it?!

Why keep my perspective quiet? Why keep what I see to myself?

What? HUH? Why? Meh. Just fucking live already. I mean you are either going to find people that understand you and connect with you, or you will speaking with people who DON"T but then have a CHANCE of CHANGING now because you shared and spoke. Like FUCK its only Good things!


I mean, we can fucking change this world. We CAN. cause its US, its the WE. We can do it. We will. We are. See it and Do it!

Live already!

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