Yogan's Journey to Life

This blog, I'm going to be remembering and sharing something good, something I would like to. What's great about music/dance is the surprise moment in it. The moment requires your full attention! When you are dancing with someone in a partner dance, someone is leading and someone is following. BOTH! Have to pay attention. I have lead dances and so its not boring I have to pay attention and play with it. I play with the rhythm, the pattern of the music I am dancing to. The fun part is listening to the music, following the beat and then BREAKING IT, and then going back INTO IT, and matching the beat, and then SURPRISING the person your dancing with. Are they HERE???  Are they paying attention? Can they FOLLOW? If I go fast now can they match it. If I go SUPER SLOW can they match it. Will they get annoyed? Are they disciplined? Can they be here in the moment? All of these things are revealed when I lead. And if they are a great follower, then I can really enjoy dancing. I kn...

Something I observe is that we can connect with people through different ways or modalities. Like one way is through words. Some people are able to connect intimately purely through words. Whether it be in the form of hand written letters, which used to be the old way of communicating. Or whether it is through online chat in modern times. And its not so much about only certain people can ONLY connect this way, its more that its like either a skill or a relationship to words in a way that enables them to do so. Compare this to meeting in person and connecting through the presence of a person right here in front of you. Perhaps you can say its easier to connect with someone in person, though that is a generalization and there is always exceptions to the rules. So to summarize what we have so far, people can connect solely through written words without ever meeting face to face, without any NEED to, where it isn't any less. Other people can't do this, at least in the present mom...

Why do you DO the things you do? Why do you do your job? Why do you have a family? Why do you dedicate your time in the things you do? What's the reason why you do EVERYTHING that you Do? When did you start believing that? When did you BECOME YOU? Do you remember the exact moment? Did you decide to be your exact nature, personality, self? Did you decide to have and BE the Human Nature? Did you decide to have these Identities? Why are you you? Why do we accept bad things? Why do we accept things like poverty, or crime, or rape, murder? Why do we accept an Imperfect system? Why do we accept an Imperfect world? Did you really stop for a moment consider everything and then really decided that it was just best to accept the Imperfect world? Accept to do Nothing. What if I told you that everything you have lived in your life, all your decisions were originally preprogrammed and nothing of you is original, is really you, DONE within a real CONSIDERATION, ...

A thirst for expression. To say inappropriate things. To say the things that try to make people react. To dance on roof tops!  To blow bubbles obsessively even though I'm an adult. To bang pots and pans together! To dance incessantly around people! To build something creative, colorful. To engineer something amazing beautiful, a structure like a magical tunnel full of glowing lights! To engineer a full size maze!! To throw fire crackers. To build a giant hamster wheel! To run around a small circle for no apparent reason! To hop everywhere I go, not walk!!! To walk backwards everywhere I go!!! To skip everywhere I go! To walk sideways like a crab everywhere I go. To take tiny footsteps and take forever to go anywhere like a snail. To walk/navigate with my eyes closed!! To scream and run!!! To point at someone and chase them down! To tackle hug a friend!!! To Lift hug a friend!! To Tickle a friend!! To sneak up on and scare a friend!! To ...

I am a Group of People, You can't walk this process alone. This statement goes much deeper than simply advice from a friend, or advice from a teacher. You can't walk this process alone, in the context of the Process to becoming Life as the Physical... is something about either realizing, seeing, or perhaps more specifically BECOMING a group of people as yourself. There are two different immediate ways to interpret this statement. One way is an ego way of making a group of people Like yourself, superimposing yourself like a big ego. The other, more appropriate way is like the opposite, a humility, and 'losing' of yourself, becoming more than just yourself. I received advice/direction from a person within the group, and simply as MYSELF I couldn't fully see/understand. However, by dropping myself and seeing it as the group, becoming a group of people, becoming like the awareness of a GROUP, taking on the sight, vision, perception, focus, and attention that the g...

This blog is dedicated to all of the relevant self-forgiveness recently in my days. I forgive myself to have fear and hesitation to do what I see is best. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hesitate removing myself from a situation where I was reacting heavily, so that I may work on myself and then later returning to the situation. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry about the future, what will happen, what is outside of my control. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live my gifts, my LIFE within me, my EXPRESSION, my art within me, my creativity, my beauty within, ...to not live it within my Life, within my reality, with me, with others when such doors open. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto excuses and limitations. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait for death, or something to just happen to me, before I SEE what I HAVE, and who I AM, and what I can DO wi...

Beauty from inside. A spark of youth, idealism, care, compassion, passion, in the eye. Determination in the voice. Power and strength in every fiber of your body. Knowing what you must do and live to make this life a success. Speaking about Life, about everyone, all of us. Speaking the Truth. Holding Life in your Heart.

There's is something that has happened to me... Or rather I should say that I have been walking a long process that started in 2009, and so its been about 9 years of me doing this... And now, its like I don't care what people think of me... I'm not afraid of being alone... I can just say anything... I have my plans/goals for myself which I wrote in my last blogs, and so I have my purpose and meaning. I have my expressions where I have fun through expression. And I went to Jury duty which showed me how much different I am from most people. It's like why bother hiding who I am. I'm so different already anyway. And its also like something inside me snapped, where its like why waste my time not being me, and just living. I am unique and I am different from others. So I live my uniqueness, I share my difference, I live me. Something like that. Because I am so alone already, why wait. Why die without anyone knowing who I am? I share my difference, I share me, before I...

Two blog posts ago, [ this one ] I wrote about my meaning and purpose in a totally NON-philosophical way. I wrote out my exact purpose and meaning for my life, that I chose for me, as of right NOW. I can live this NOW, and I can expand upon it and deepen it. It is something I can stand behind. This is making purpose and meaning practical. It is actually writing it out for what it is, and what I'm living. My written purpose and meaning REFLECTS my daily life and what I can allot time to. Because it is not as simple as ONE thing. It is a few things, a few handful of goals that I accomplish each day. Who I am bleeds into my purpose and meaning. Who I am provides the foundation for purpose and meaning. And practically looking at it, it is a statement to STATE and to then LIVE. My purpose and Meaning.  My purpose is to work a 40 hr a week job, pay for my needs, give money to support the desteni process, in so doing I support with money the development of awareness in peopl...

Laws and rules should serve Man, or Life! If a law or rule doesn't serve what is best for all, best for Life, then it is Invalid. Following a law or rule just because its a law or rule makes no sense. Following a law or rule to avoid the consequences make sense. Doing what one can do to improve the awareness of Humanity, and the quality of Self so that LAWS and RULES serve no basis for the REASONS of one's actions, and that wholly the reasons and PURPOSE of your actions and living is in accordance with the PRINCIPLES WITHIN you that are aligned to what is best for all or existence or Life. That is when the Human is trustworthy, because one's actions is due to that which is within  you that IS NOT fear or emotion or thought. Instead it is instinct, it is so principled and so ingrained in the fiber of your being and self, that you act and do it, and speak it without hesitation in a moment. You ARE IT. You ARE what is BEST for ALL. It is YOU already, as your body, as ...

My purpose and Meaning.  My purpose is to work a 40 hr a week job, pay for my needs, give money to support the desteni process, in so doing I support with money the development of awareness in people/humanity. My purpose is to share myself online so that others walking process may be supported. My purpose and meaning is to express myself creatively as dance, music, art, singing, play, writing, joking, etc... I live my meaning and purpose everyday.  Who I am? I am my body, my being, my self-expression. I am the work I do, and the money I give. I am the song I sing, and movement I dance. I am the words I write and speak. I am the work I do, the blogs I write, the people that listen/read my words. I am expression. I am the support I give and receive. I am my job, my work, what I give to others. I am the moment I express in and live in. I am the process I walk to bring awareness within me, and within others. I am the self-forgiveness I speak and commitments I make. I ...

When I look online and around me, I don't see what I really want there to be. In the deepest part of me there is something that I want. There is something that I want to see happen. There is something that I want to see people doing and being. I want to see people, adults, teenagers, all people, old people, just say I am your friend to each other, everyone, anyone. I want to see people just laugh with each other, play with each other. I want to see people not care or be afraid of how they will look. I want to see people just want to have FUN. I want to see the end of this separation. I want to see people looking at the trees, and connecting with the spirit of the trees. I want to see people marvel at a tree, any tree, every tree. I want to see honesty, direct honesty from people. I want to see people taking responsibility for their opinions, beliefs, for what they say and think, and feel. I don't want to see anyone blaming anyone else for what they feel or think. I ...