My relationship to myself. Origin Story Part 3

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My relationship to myself. Origin Story Part 1
My relationship to myself. Origin Story Part 2 

So we are continuing with this massive point. You can reach the previous posts to catch up. So what has occurred now recently, is having me look at the fear and anxiety within this point. I notice it on a physical level. Where throughout my body, including my legs, back, and shoulders, I was very tense. I actually had a headache, and I spent a good deal of time figuring out why I had a headache. I finally narrowed it down to the tension in my muscles. This reveals how unaware I am of the tension that my body takes on, specifically with this point. So with this significant person, I am having a reaction to them. Why am I reacting to them?

So yes, they are a parent figure, and what I see clearly is an fear and anxiety of making a decision, which I have made, that they would disapprove of. It's a very simply and very common point. Have you ever feared making a decision that your parents didn't approve? Have you ever feared your parent's reaction to a decision you made?  So this is really common for everyone. And within me it is revealed that it is programmed on a very physical level, which makes sense since this is one of the first responses we lived in relation to our parents, fear.

So it should come to no surprise, but it may very well be shocking, that when parents tell us not to do something as children, that they speak to us in anger, and within that we feel afraid. Very simply no? And this happens daily I am sure. So something so small is having a tremendous influence and control over the lives of people everywhere. This is, just like Love, an essential program for brainwashing and control for determining what decisions a person makes, how they decide, how they think, how they act, and who they are. And this all starts at home, not in some strangers house, but right at home.

What I notice about fear and anxiety is that it is stronger and deeper than the love experience. It is more difficult to release the fear and nervousness, and it requires you to be more aware and more specific. I know that within releasing this point, the entire dynamic changes. This is absolutely necessary.

Now, for those who think fear is good and necessary. Like for example, a parent fears for your safety and so in the name of love, they do something to protect you. I mean that doesn't seem bad. We would even call that good.

However, consider the same point but differently, a parent fears for you safety and so in the name of love, they completely possess you and control you, such that you can only think, act, and be the way that they choose, and if you resist them, they will bring up emotions within you like fear, anxiety and nervousness until you break and submit. Now it doesn't seem so nice.

What is interesting is that the way we treat children/people in there first years of life, is the same way we treat animals, meaning that we train pets/animals with physical or emotional abuse. How many times have you seen an pet owner yelling at their dog or cat, or sometimes kicking them? This happens daily. We can even take it a step further, and when we involve love, we can see that we also reward pets to do what we want. So humans are treated in the same way, in order to control and create the behavior that someone wants.

On the surface level, rewarding good behavior seems good and acceptable. I mean, when you do well, you get a cookie, or a gold star, or a letter grade A. You feel good. And so everyone's happy. But is this really the case? I challenge this.

So let's look at this differently. See an adult making a decision about what the correct behavior is. They decide that they will reward people who do this correct behavior. So they give people food, money, letter grades A, hugs and kisses, dessert/sugar. So this seems normal right? But what happens to people who don't follow? They don't receive the reward and so they aren't given food, money, letter grade A, hugs and kisses, desert/sugar. This seems fair right? Do what I want, and I will reward you.

Honestly, it is hard to see the above example as wrong. So consider the alternative. You give everyone access to food, money, letter grade A, hugs and kisses, and desert/sugar without condition of them performing and doing what you want. Instead you let them decide what they will do, how they will decide, how they will think, and who they are. You can then have a discussion about their choices and understand their choices. You can also discuss your own choice on how you think, how you decide, how you think, and who you are.

So when looking at these two points, the second alternative seems better. Though within looking at the first example, it seems that there is simply an influence on a person to compromise who they are to achieve some pleasurable experience. There is no absolute force in this example. But there can be, can there?

The following example happens daily. If you do something that an adult disapproves, they can pick you up an spank you, hit you with a shoe, or belt. They will physical hurt you to punish you so that they won't do that behavior again. If you continue making the choice to continue your actions, they will hit you again. So in this example, someone basically threaten your  life and well being, and if you are a child you basically have no choice but to listen.

So, potentially, a child can endure all of this abuse, and on the inside, continue to decide who they are, even if they can't reveal that or live that in the world with others. Though such a child, would be the first to say, this abuse must stop. We need a world that support individuals decisions making capability, that doesn't impose a way to think, to feel, to relate to the world, of who you are. A world of oneness and equality, where you treat everyone exactly how you would want to be treated.

For those that have a stable living environment, you have the opportunity to remove the physical programs that bring up these fears, anxiety emotions of abuse. So that they no longer influence your decision making capability whatsoever. The brainwashing is deep, and the program were developed over many years since birth. So it will take time, years, to completely remove them. The first step is within understanding and investigating your own mind and accepted self. Get to know the programs.

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What is interesting is that these programs that exist inside of us have been manifesting in our world for some time. They can be seen within our Justice/legal system as the laws and police enforcement. They can be seen in our education system as the teacher/classroom, letter grades, and performance based testing. They can be seen in the rewards of scholarships, higher salaries, bonuses, awards and perks. These systems obviously don't benefit or support everyone. So if you change the systems within you, you will change the world system as well. By getting to know the world, you will also get to know yourself. 

The time for fear and anxiety is over. It is time for self-responsibility, self-direction, and self to stand up for the quality of life and living that Life itself deserves.