Day 123 Making Eye Contact

Today, I woke up. I went to Ikea with my mom. We ate breakfast there. She bought some things. We came back home. I saw my dad a bit. I watched a hunger games movie with my sister.

So when I was in the Ikea store, I saw this blond haired girl. She was with her family shopping. I felt a reaction. I felt nervous. I looked away, I avoided eye contact with her. And as she turned in another direction, I felt more comfortable: at peace, to now look. I saw she had black-rimmed glasses.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous when seeing the blond haired girl.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid eye contact with this girl.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous when I was in a position where I could look in her eyes and she could look back. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel comfortable when I was in a position to look at this girl without her being able to look back at me, and see me looking at her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking at the girl knowing that I am looking at her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being seen by the girl, and knowing that she is looking at me.

When and as I see myself feeling nervous, when I am approached with a girl face to face – I stop and breathe- I realize eye contact is important to be able to do with another person-

I commit myself to make eye contact with the people I meet.