Beautiful Women, Beautiful Self 215

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I had trouble looking at the woman that lived in the apartment. She was young. And I found her attractive, and by that I mean that I reacted to her. I felt nervous, shy, scared but in a desirable way. I wanted to look at her, but I felt these emotions. I don’t even know her. I felt intimidated by her appearance. I felt valued/judged by how she would have responded to me. I feel like she would have placed value in how I valued/judged her appearance. I didn’t speak to her, and I looked away, avoiding eye contact.

So what I am seeing is that I am having a large value placed in how she looked, and with that I would place value on myself based on how she looked at me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value in how a woman looks, and to place value on how she looked at me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel nervous, shy and scared when there is a woman that I am valuing highly, like with beauty, regarding her appearance, which is created in relation to the fear of being valued lowly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value and self-worth in beauty and how a person responds or looks at me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value and self-worth into looks/appearance.

When and as I see myself feeling shy, scared, fearful or worried regarding how another person looks at me, I stop and I breathe- I realize that my appearance and look does not define me, and so equally and as one, another person’s appearance and looks does not define them. I realize that what defines us is our words.

Thus, I commit myself to refine my words so that my words are effective and best communicate, me, who I am, and I commit myself to look women in the eye, and simply be here with other people that are within my environment.